,,My dear Jongin,I write you this lines because it was hard to tell you the pain that I feel right now.I know,I always dream that we will get old together,and we will see our son getting married and being happy for him,but it seems that life had different planes for us, you living and me dying. 

I'm really sorry for leaving you my beautiful husband,I love you so much and I still can't belive that you loved me back, you are perfect in every way possible so be happy and show our son what a good person you are. He will be so proud to have you as his father,to love him and show him what is good and what is bad. Tell him that I'm sorry that I left him alone but I love him like crazy and you Jongin,God how much I love you and I want you to find a good partner for you. Our son needs a mother and I know how hard it is now but love again,I don't mind, I want you to be happy and smile every day, don't worry about me,my life here is over and I'm happy,I'm really happy that I had you in my life.

I thought about the name and I think Sehun is the perfect name for our little angel,love him like you loved me and don't hate him for taking me away from you,he's more important than me,Sehun is the result of our love.

Kim Jongin you were everything that I wanted and I was proud to be your husband.

I love you,I love you,I love you." 

Those were Kyungsoo's last words that broke Jongin even more,he can't belive that Kyungsoo was really gone from his life.

He came home with a little baby in arms and no husband, he didn't know what to do,he was angry on the world. Jongin hated God for taking Kyungsoo away from him,he hated Sehun as well,the poor baby was so small and innocent and Jongin placed him in his crib leaving the bedroom,it was hard to walk inside that room and not be next to Kyungsoo,so many nights spend there just loving each other or talking about silly stuff and now he is all alone.

Jongin broke down crying again next to the couch,his head was between his legs crying and crying. He wants Kyungsoo back, he just wants his husband back.

Little Sehun start crying in hunger but Jongin didn't move,he let Sehun cry and cry just like he was crying. Jongin got angry and he sat up after one hour, Sehun was still crying for his milk.

,,Stop crying!" Jongin walked inside the room but he stop walking seeing his little boy crying for his life. His face was turning purple from how much he was crying and that broke Jongin even more. He's an idiot,that poor baby was not to blame.

,,I am s-sorry little guy,I'm so sorry." Jongin picked Sehun up and he smiled at the little guy that stop crying in a second.

,,I love you Sehun,so much."Jongin hugged the baby tight to his chest humming a song like Kyungsoo used to did. Sehun loved his mother's voice,when he was hyper and moving like crazy inside Kyungsoo's belly he would calm down in a second when the shorter start to sing. It was like magic.

,,Let's make you some milk,if I know ho