This might be sad I'm not sure all I know is that I got inspired by this song and I thought of writing this but really I dunno whether I'll continue this one. Unlike the others I don't have an idea I'm literally just writing this down as I'm listening to the song. And omg TLC is today .-.

Oh welp....lets see how this goes XD ;-;

Okay so I finished it! And I'm actually pretty pleased with it >/////< I thought I would make Bambam in this position because usually its the girls and hey boys can go through this too~ 

As long as I can feel you holding on, I won't fall.

I know that I'm not perfect but I keep trying, cause that's what I said I would do from the start.

It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me. You thought that you knew me.

Lisa sighed as she stared down at Bambam who was sitting in the center of the practice room. They hadn't said a word and it was breaking Lisa knowing she couldn't do anything to help him because even he didn't known what was wrong. 

Lately Bambam had been getting really weird mood swings, in random bursts he would hug her tightly telling her how much he loved her and how it would break him if she ever left him and it never failed to make her heart race. She loved Bambam like no other, the moment she realized her feelings she knew no one else could make her feel like he did. Maybe they were both just too blind and they loved each other so passionately but it became almost unhealthy. 

To the point if one of them was missing they would have to text each other constantly because they missed each other. Every time they were away they just wanted to be in each others arms. They just wanted to leave the rest of the world behind and spend forever with each other. 

It wasn't rare for them to stay up for hours in silence just looking at each other and once in awhile breaking the silence to whisper words of love and adoration to each other. In fact that's what they were doing just two nights ago, this wasn't like Bambam and she couldn't understand why he was suddenly being like this.

A few minutes ago they were dancing together, something they both loved and something she thought could take his mind off whatever it was he was dealing with but instead he just stopped abruptly staring at himself in the mirror. When she went to stop the music he was down on the floor with a blank look on his face.  

"Bam~?" She tried calling to him but he had no reaction. 

Biting her lip worriedly she went to sit down next to him and grabbed his hand rubbing circles onto the back of it. His fingers twitched before they stayed still and she heard him sigh. 

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Lisa....I don't know why I do this. I don't know why I have to deal with these random mood swings...I.....I'm sorry." 

She shook her head and leaned over to kiss his forehead. "You don't have to apologize. Just tell me what's wrong hm?" 

"I don't know. A lot of things." Then he took his hand away and ran it through his hair. 

Misreading this she stood up, her heart dropping and she could already feel the oncoming headache from her not yet there tears. "A-Alright." 

She started picking up her things and he still did nothing. "You want to break up I understand." 

Turning around she didn't see the way Bambam's attention focused solely on her as he jumped up and hugged her from behind. "That's not what I said." 

"But...." 

"I know I said a lot of things bother me but not you Lisa....never you. You're the only thing keeping me grounded please I can't lose you." 

Dropping her things she turned around and hugged him tightly, feeling him do the same she closed her eyes and whispered. "Just tell me." 

"I just.....feel lost. I don't know. I have a lot of doubts." 

At this she let go slightly and backed up enough to see his face. "Doubts?" 

She couldn't believe it. She honestly couldn't imagine it, her boyfriend the actual representation of a class clown who only lives to make others laugh around him has doubts? Then it hit her, don't most people with the biggest smile have the most fears? Because they don't want people to feel how they feel. She frowned as realization crashed down. She always thought she knew Bambam, knew him the best and anytime someone would ask her about him she would be quick to say he's the happiest person on earth. But that was far from the truth, how long had he kept this from her? 

"W-Why....didn't you." She trailed off and saw him looking at the ground. 

"I didn't want to burden you." 

"Bambam!" 

For the first time she felt her heart break as when he looked up he had tears in his eyes. Bambam rarely cried, that she knew for sure. 

"Lisa I don't want to lose you. I love you so much and you think I'm just so happy and some days I am but on other days I don't even know what to do with myself and there's tons of other guys who aren't like this. They're so perfect and wouldn't make you feel bad just because of their own sadness and insecurities. The thought of losing you breaks me and I try not to think about it but its almost impossible just thinking of every guy out there that's so much better than me. And you know Lisa it's okay I won't be mad at you. If you fall in love with someone just tell me, tell me so I can at least say goodbye, so I can give you one last kiss because this just kills me waiting for someone to make you realize how much better you could do. I'm in no means perfect but I told you when we started dating that I would try my hardest to make you happy, a-and Lisa....I'm trying." 

He broke down just then and Lisa felt a tear slip down her cheek as she hugged him, shaking her head violently as her grip kept tightening with each passing second. 

"You're an idiot, the biggest idiot. You, Kunpimook Bhuwakul, is the only person I, Pranpriya Manoban, will ever love. Your dance stole my attention and your personality stole my heart. No one can make me fall as hard you did, it hurts me so much that you think so little of yourself. You're the most perfect man in my eyes, no one is perfect Bambam but the fact that you make people smile and laugh just for your own sake without expecting anything else in return makes you perfect and with no doubt I know you're the man that has my heart, from now until forever. So let's make a promise okay? I'll take good care of your heart and never let someone else have it but you have to do the same." 

They sniffed at the same time and they both smiled slightly as he nodded, slowly at first before it slowly gained sincerity. "I promise." 

She nodded and wiped away his tears as he mirrored the same, they stared there just lost in each other and before they both knew it they were leaning in and their lips met. With a passion anyone could see would never be broken as they held onto each other like it was the last time.