But instead of turning the car around and follow him, I did the opposite. I drove straight ahead, acting like nothing happened. But that happy feeling didn't last long, I chickened out in following him, since the anxiety took over that happiness. I was anxious, I was scared that if see me now, and I talk to him totally unprepared, it might mess things up. I can't just go up to him, sayying, "Hey! How you've been? Are you okay? Is the leukemia-" I can't, I just can't just go up to him, bursting in tears. For now, I was contented by the thought that finally I've seen him. 

"What did Taecyeon-oppa say?" Hara asked, snapping me back from reality. 

"Oh, that he found him, in Busan." Which is technically wrong. 

"BWO?! When are you going then?" She eagerily asked. 

I shrugged my shoulders, "I don't know. Soon I guess, but I can't just go up to him and talk. He still hates me, remember?" I lied. GOD, I'm such a bad person. 

"Oh." She answered briefly, not pressing for answers anymore.

Hara and I finally found a great coffee shop. As soon as we went inside, the shop was very warm and cozy from the inside. The pale pink sofa chair, was very inviting and the smell of coffee just draws you in. We took our seats near the window. When the waitress came, we told her our orders. After a few minutes, the waitress came with our caramel machiatto and flat white. We talked about a lot of things, one of them are our plans for the future. I told her, after I might join one of the biggest ballet companies in Europe, while Hara might go study in France, pursuing her career in fine arts. 

"So how did Seung Hyun react about this?" I asked her, as I drank my coffee. 

"Bwo? Why would reactions even matter?" She asked, slightly confused. 

"Aren't you too going out?" I asked, surprised why she was even asking me this. Last time in the house, I had this strong feeling that they were already dating, and why was she even surprised by something so obvious already?

"We are dating.." She said hesitantly, but her lips slightly puckered. She was obviously keeping something from me. 

"But what?"

"It was never made official. We hang out and all, but neither of us spoke the real status we are in right now," She explained, while stirring her coffee. 

"One question, how do you even feel about him?" 

"He makes me really happy. When Tae Min left, he was the only one who comforted me," she said smiling, "Even when I rejected him once, he never left my side. I was irritated at first, but that gradually changed, now.."

I laughed, with those words, her feelings are so transparent. "You do know that you were blushing and smiling the whole time you said that." 

She covered her face, "Unnie!" She groaned embarrassingly. 

"And now you think about him all day. His images completely dominates your mind, his face stuck in your face. Just by with a smile, tender touch and his sweet words makes your heart skip a beat." I said, continuing what she was saying, it may not been the exact words, but I knew I wasn't completely off the bat. "You do know you're already in love with him?"

"Ne." She said weakly, her face still covered with her hands. 

"Then tell him." I said aggressively, " I thought you were Im Hara, the girl who gets her feeling across without falter. But now.. Have you gone weak Hara? Are you that scared with just making a small confession." I said harshly. I know I need to be hard on her, she just needs a little push. 

"Confess? Why do I have to do that? He's the boy, he's the one who's supposed to be making the confession!" She protested intenstly, her hands up in the air. 

I laughed, the sight of her getting worked up like this, getting embarrased and stuff was relatively new.. and entertaining. "He already did, remember? But you rejected him. He stayed by your side no matter what and now that you've actually been responding to his feelings, I think it's best to clear your feelings rather that confusing him with false hope," I explained. 

She didn't answer. Her eyebrows frowned and her lips slightly puckered, she was in deep thought. Unconsciously poking her bagel with her fork, her expression serious. 

"I fell sorry for the bagel." I commented. 

"Unnie," she groaned, "do you really think I need to confess?" 

I nodded, "Definitely!" 

"How do I even do that?" 

"Easy, just say, 'I like you Seung Hyun'" I happily suggested. 

"You make it sound so easy." She frowned. 

I laughed, "The great Im Hara, faced with her biggest problem, the confession she has to make, will she do it? or will she not? Tune in next time," I said, immitating a news commentator. 

"Maybe you should change your career and venture into mass communications." She joked. 

I giggled, "Anyways dear cousin, HWAITING!" 

I looked at my clock, 10:00. I shuffled in bed, my thoughts still filled with what happened in Hongdae. Like any other day, my thought are filled with images of him, but unlike any other day, my mind was occupied by a new memory. I scratched my head, "I need.. Ice cream!" I said grabbing my car keys and driving in the city. I parked my car near a convience store, then bought a pint of strawberry-flavored ice cream and walked towards a nearby park. 

I slumped on one of the benches and leaned my head, my head facing up. There are many stars tonight, when I was in New York, I couldn't really see the stars, "Again, another dissimlarities between Korea and New York." I silently commented. My train of thought again went back to Tae Min. For months I have searched for him, and now that I've finally found him, I chickened out. Scared that when he sees me, the anger he had will all come back, "Pabo-ya YOONA!" I screamed. 

Then I heard a clinging sound on one of the chains of a nearby swing. I stirred. I turned to the swing and I saw a shadow sitting on it. I decided to leave, thinking that it maybe be a ert or maybe an abductor. When I was about to stand, I looked at the swing again and the sight of the person froze me then and there. 

He was still wearing the same beanie, and dark pants, but unlike earlier, he had a black coat on. His ears covered with headphones. It was him, it was Tae Min. I stood there, completely shock with the sight of him. My breathing slightly became faster, my heart pounding inside of my chest. I chanted inside my mind that I need to go to him, to not let this chance go. I need to be there. I need to.. 

I slowly dragged my feet towards him, not caring about the negative thoughts I had in mind. I want to talk to him, I want to be near him. I want to feel his embrace, his warm hands on mine, I want to.. 

I stood in front of him, and he looked up. His eyes, held the same expression I had before. His eyes widened, eyebrows frowened, and his mouth slightly dropped. "Noona?" His voice, it was the music that my ears missed.

"Hello." I said feebly. Finally.. finally he's standing in front of me.