It Can Get Worse

What If?

"Hara.." I said quietly. I was still in shock to find the proper words, to reply for the things she just said. Hara? In love with me? It sounded preposterous, and hearing it sound, it still sounded so silly. But as I think deeper into her words, I question on how YoonA stole me away from her. I still couldn't grasped the words she just said, she may have misinterpreted it. 

"But how?" I said, inquiringly. 

She turned her back on us, probably preparing about her story. She took a deep breath and looked back at us. " That day when I saw by the garden.. even with one glance, you had me falling for you. Though I was saddened by the fact that it was cousin who was in your heart, I still wanted to know more about you. That same day, I told YoonA about you. I even told her your drawing.. your feelings. Forgive me Tae Min.." She cut her story, when I glared at her. "..but my cousin merely laughed at the story I just told. Seeing amusement at the feelings of a mere freshman for her. She told me, it would never happen though, her falling for a first year." 

My heart ached, all of it, seemed unbelievable. Seeing YoonA's innocent face in my mind, all of these lies, just seemed implausible. Those nonsense I heard, held no concrete evidence. "You're lying Hara. she would never do those things." I said spat at her. I know she was angry at her cousin, but talking about this things, just makes her look desperate. 

"On contraire my darling, she did. When I saw how she responded to your advance, I started to loath her. She betrayed me, but even then, I begged her to confessed the truth to you. She promised me she will, but then, I think we all know the answer to the question." She said, her look, dark, but her eyes, held pity, even on the surface, I saw how much she was hurt by all of this, just like me. 

"So where does your precious love lead you know Tae Min?" She said smugly. 

I shook my head, fervently denying all the things she just said. These were all lies, YoonA.. she.. these isn't true. I know to myself what kind of person she is, and this is not her. Admidst the doubt that starting to cloud my mind, there was a little voice, meekly saying that Hara was lying. It brought hope to me, hope that my Yoona.. that she was.. 

"Enough Hara? Can't you see that your friend is hurt.. stop will all the lies Hara, a lot was hurt already." Seung Hyun said furiously, grabbing her arm.

Hara pulled her arm, and stepped back from him. She looked at me coldly. "Lies? Fine. Go to her. I dare you to let her tell the truth." 

I wasted no time, I needed to hear the truth, and she was the only one who held it. I rushed to the only place I would find her. I forcely opened the door, and there she was, dancing in the middle. Hearing the loud noise from the door, made her stop. 

I hurriedly went towards her, grabbing her arm, "Did you or did you not even have plans of telling me about you and Teacyeon?" I said, words became nothing but a blur because of the agitation. 

"What?" She said in dazed, probably shock by what I did.

"Did you even have plans of telling me the truth?" I said slowly. 

"Uh.. I.. darling..." She fidgeted. Seeing her like that.. the small voice inside of my head, was completely over taken by the hurt I was feeling. For a while, I was hoping for the small three letter word to come out of . I hoping, feverishly praying in my head, that I'll hear that one word.. but it didn't came.

"Forget it, I already know the answer." I said dejectedly, tears were starting to form. I turned my back, and started to walk. Every step I took, I was hoping for her arms wrapped around me, to prevent me from going. I was wanting her warm body, pressed against mine, and her meek voice, begging me to stay. Sadly, these thoughts never come to life. 

I stopped and look at her. She was sobbing, her hands on her face. 

"What did I do wrong noona?" She looked up, "Wasn't I good enough? Wasn't I rich enough? Were there things that I did that you didn't like? Things I didn't do? What? I don't get it at all.. I love you. Even if my heart was already crushed, ripped out from my chest, it still beats for you.. I'm still in love with you YoonA." 

She didn't answer me. She was silent. She bit her lip, and tears just started to fall from her eyes. Her hand on , trying to make herself stop. "Tae Min.. I'm sorry." 

I waited for more, but no words was heard. My heart aching. I shook my head. "I guessed I was just too stupid to think that maybe.. just maybe, you also love me the way that I love you. Goodbye YoonA." I said, dragging my feet, with my heart aching and tearing apart. 

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I was listening to this when I was writing this chapter. Forgive me it wasn't a Korean song. Sorry sorry sorry T.T

But I hope you like it. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BS47OUwi7hE&ob=av2n

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goddessyoonyul
#1
Chapter 53: You updated!!!!! Woaaah so happy yet so sad D: jebaaal let yoontaem married and hope there's miracle so taemin not die:(
JazzyAw5
#2
Chapter 52: UPDATTEEEE!!!! PLEASE AUTHORNIMM! 재발!
goddessyoonyul
#3
Chapter 52: Update soon pleasee~ I'm waiting every day:( and pleasee make it happy ending:) i don't want taemin die:'
yoonaangel
#4
Chapter 1: ....update soon please....
goddessyoonyul
#5
new reader here, I really love your story update soon please pleasee pleasee!!:)
Maeyoreo
#6
Chapter 52: When are you going to update author-nim? Its almost a year. :O
shawol_champ15
#7
me too, I'm like waiting for nothing...tell us if you're still going to update...
TaemYoon #8
When will you update?
I'm waiting everyday!
Please please please!
UPDATE!!!
Maeyoreo
#9
New reader here! :) Please update soon and please dont kill taeminnie :'(
Indomitable_defiance
#10
OMG!!!! YOONA AND HER MOM IS UNITED!!! I'M VERY HAPPY THAT YOU DIDN'T FORGET TO UPDATE XDD