That night, Mrs. Han, painstakingly stayed by my side, hugging me and calming me down. She wraped her arms around me, like what my own mother should, "Miss, please, stop crying, oh? Please Miss," she said soothingly, while rubbing my back. But  couldn't, my mind was clouded by what I just read, I feel like in just minutes, my feelings are going to explode leaving me helpless with pain. I couldn't take this, I need to find him, I need to know the truth. I wanna..

After a few minutes, I slightly calmed down a bit, so Mrs. Han helped me up, and supported me while walking towards my bedroom. There, she let met sat on the edge of the bed, while she sat beside me. When she saw that I was okay to be left for a while, she went outside the door, and came back holding a cup of tea in hand. 

"Miss, take this. Maybe it can help you calm down." She said, giving me the cup. I took it from her, but I didn't drink it. 

Even if my energy dried out because of all that crying, I managed to tell her what was in my mind, "I need to find him," I said feebly. 

"I know miss.. we will ne? But you need to attend your mother's party tonight." She said, like it was the most logical thing to do right now. 

"That's not even important." I said annoyed, giving her the cup and rushing to my closet. I absentmindedly just grabbed whatever jeans and shirt I could find. I also tried to think of people I could talk to, to help me search for him. When I was about to put my jeans on, Mrs. Han grabbed my wrist. I pulled my hand back. 

"Ahjumma, I need to go. Please, let me find him.. let me," I paused, my tears are pouring out again. I can't take this anymore, how many days more before I stop crying? How many days more to I have to be lying in bed, just filled with thought of him? How long? "Just let me find him Mrs. Han." I begged her. 

She hugged me. "YoonA, I know this is important. I know, how important he is to you, he is the first guy you've ever love like this. But right now, you need to go to the party." 

I pulled from her hug, looking at her, "Ahjumma-"

"Because you may found Hara there, isn't she still friends with that boy.. Seung Hyun? Isn't it?" 

Something clicked in me. She was right. Hara may still be friends with Seung Hyun, and Seung Hyun might be-

I didn't let my thoughts wander around anymore, and just took the garment bag hanging in my closet, and placing it on my bed. Mrs. Han helped me finish my hair and dress. When I was about to finish my make-up she immediately called the driver. Fifteen minutes later, I was already inside the car, on the way to our house. 

As I entered the garden, I bowed and greeted the people I passed by, then I saw my mother near the pool. 

"Oh, YoonA, you're already here." She said, giving me a kiss on the cheek. 

"Ne, have you seen Hara?" I said. I didn't want to waste time anymore. 

"Hara? I think I've seen her walked inside." 

I excused myself, and swiftly went inside the house. I searched for her in the living room and kitchen. I even asked people I passed by, asking  if they saw her. Unfortunately none of them did. When I felt like searching for her here was pointless, I went upstairs. I turned to the first door in the right, which was the library. There I saw her sitting by the window sill. 

Hearing me walked in, she hastily turned to my direction. Her eyes popped out of surprise, "Omo! Noona, when did you come home?" 

"Just this morning." 

"Oh." She said briefly, and went back to looking outside the window. 

I walked towards her, leaning across the table across her, and mimicked what she was doing. But my mind was thinking differently. The situation between me, Hara and Tae Min put a huge toll on our relationship. One night, she came in the apartment, blaming for Tae Min's disapperance. That night I was confused, I didn't know what she was talking about, but due to my anger, I told her some nasty stuff. That night we exchanged hurtful words, that we didn't even talk even before I left for New York. 

"Did you hear anything from him?" 

"Do you still love him?" 

The timing of our questions were funny because we even tried to break the awkward silence at the same time. We laughed. 

"No." We answered in chorus, which made us laughed again. 

"No, I haven't. No one knows where he is." I explained. 

"I don't love him anymore, I mean I'm still trying to move one, and Seung Hyun's always there." She smiled. 

"Oh." I said shortly. 

"But what I hate is that, he just disappeared without a word. What is he anyways? Harry Houdini? Pulling an act like that, not even caring about the people around him." She said sadly. She rested her chin in between her knees.

"Actually, that's what I needed to talk to you about."

"Bwo? What noona?" She said confused. 

"Is it possible if you can ask Seung Hyun to come over?" I asked hopefully. 

She nodded, "I can try, wait I'll call him." 

She stood up, and went to the other side of the room. I sat there, hoping that Seung Hyun would know some answers about Tae Min. That, he may still know where he is right now.. or that maybe Tae Min is alread d-

"He's coming in 10 minutes," Hara said, breaking my train of thought. 

I simply nodded, and we just sat there quietly waiting for Seung Hyun. After a while, we heard some footsteps from the stairs, and we turned to the door, waiting for the person to come. Seung Hyun stood there, and walking inside the library when he saw Hara stood up and walked towards him. Like Hara, he was also surprise to see me there. 

"So what it is so important that you asked me to come?" He asked Hara. 

Hara was about to explain, when I cut her speech. "It was me. And I'm not going to beat around the bush, Seung Hyun, I know it is completely pathetic for me to ask you this, but do you possibly know where Tae Min is?" 

"You've got that right, and the answer is NO." He said annoyed. "Seriously? I wasted money just for you to ask me that?" He looked at me looking both disgusted and furious. 

"Forgive me, I know I've done a lot of things, but please, just help me with this, do you know?" I said, already close to bending my knees. My eyes was about to tear up again. 

"Seung Hyun, please, just help her." Hara said gently pleeding him. 

"Aish! I don't. The last time he contacted me was two weeks ago. And he doesn't even tell me where he is right now. Even when he left, he didn't tell me where they were moving." He explained. "Is that all?" He asked Hara. 

She nodded. 

When Seung Hyun was about to leave, I asked him the most important question, "Is he sick?" 

Hara looked at me curiously, but I didn't want to explain it to her now. 

He stopped his steps, and looked at me surprised. I know what he was thinking, how can she possibly even know? But he didn't press for answers, instead he just nodded. 

For while, I wanted him to say no, that what Tae Min wrote was nothing but a fabricated lie to have a reason for him to leave me. But seeing him confirmed my fears with just a nod, completely broke me. It just tore me apart.