As I rushed towards the living room, I thought of what books could he possibly hide it to. I stood there, and looked at all the books on the bookshelf. I callously scanned the books, shaking its every page trying to find an envelope or maybe a piece of letter that Tae Min between the pages. Then something fell, I looked down and I saw a folded piece of paper. I picked it up, and looked the book where it fell from. It was Nicholas Spark's A Walk to Remember. Not trying to be occupied on why he put it there? I held both the letter and book close to my chest and sat by the window. 

I heart was thumping crazily as I opened the paper. 

     YoonA,

            03-02-11. That was the day when I first laid my eyes on the girl whom I first love. It was the day, when you unknowingly caught my heart. Yes darling, you are my first. My feelings I kept, not knowing how to approach you, how to tell you that my heart was beating insanely for you. For months, I kept my feelings, and tried my hardest to get close to you. It wasn't easy, and I felt really blessed when we get to have moments to open up with each other. 

            I honestly felt the luckiest guy on earth when you finally knew and accpeted my feelings. I was like the guy who unbelievable won the grandest prize in the lottery. I was the happiest back then darling, and I never wanted to miss the chance to show you how I truly love you. 

            But it pains me deeply how we ended up this way. When I found out about your engagement, I felt really crushed. With what happened, it the life out of me. Every night I ponder what I did wrong? Why my first and probably my last love ended up so badly? Every night I pray, wanting to just end up this misery. Darling.. what did I do wrong? 

            I was angry at you. I didn't even want to talk to you, it hurts to deep that whenever I see you, I remembered what you did, and I end up feeling horrible inside. I wanted to make this work darling.. believe me, but realization hit me. Fate was already telling me that it's time. That maybe it was time for me to let you go, that I needed to end this story of ours darling. 

            You must be wondering why I stuck this letter in this book.. darling, the story is very similar to ours. You asked me before why I stopped playing the piano? I never told you the real answer because I didn't want you to pity me..

            Darling, I'm sick. It's reason why I stopped, and why I'm leaving you now. 

            Forgive me, for leaving you with nothing but this letter. But if I saw my goodbyes personally I might not want to let you go. It would be harder for us both. 

            There's nothing I want more but for you to be happy always.. Darling, be with Taecyeon. He's a great guy, he will take good care of you. Do this for me ne?

             I love you so much YoonA, always remember that.

             I will always be watching you from the heavens, I promise.

                                                                                                                                                                                                    Taemin

Halfway through the letter tears were already spilling, smudging the letter he has given. My chest hurted, my heart was already poured out all the bottled up emotions I have inside. I couldn't believe this. "H-he's.. dying. My Tae Min i-is dyiiing. NO. NO THIS ISN'T HAPPENING. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!" I cried out. This isn't true, "Not him! PLEASE NOT HIM." I chanted, "Please, not Tae Min."