Hyuna opened the door of Erin's flat , knowing the code by heart. Himchan welcomed her, dumbfounded by the way she looked. Puffy eyes, pink and swollen lips, red nose and mostly the pajamas alerted him that something happened.

“You’re okay , darling ?”

“I did something horrible …” Hyuna let her hand run though her hair and sighed, lifeless.

Himchan looked at her, she didn’t have any blood on her arms, so he could exclude murder from those horrible things she could have done.Before he could question her, she walked towards Erin room and lied close to her bestfriend, who instantly worried for her :

"What the hell are you doing in my bed still in pajamas ?"

"Erin, Yong Guk kissed me." Hyuna said bluntly. She needed to say it to someone, to the person who knew her the best.

"Is it supposed to be a bad thing ?" Erin asked, troubled by her friend behavior.

"It’s a bad thing, I ‘m not qualified to be his lover !" Hyuna said more angry. Seeing the emmotional state in which her friend was, Erin gave up any thoughts of nagging Hyuna and hugged her and not asking more she let her friend appeasing in her arms.

Now they were sitting at the breakfast table, Himchan and Erin conversing while Hyuna was just looking blankly at her bowl of rice. Seeing that the woman was utterly in her thoughts, they proposed her some activities that she declined. Soon Hyuna played with her phone and  randomly looked at her contacts list. Jae' , she needed Jae' her little brother to escape far away. She knew that he was working oversea for his job and and jumping on this conclusion, she called him, praying that he'll pick up the phone.

“Jae’ “

“Hey, noona how are you doing ?”

“Jae’ I’m sorry to bother you but could you lend me a place to sleep ?”

“I’m in Japan , but did something happen ?” he asked geniously obvious of all her troubles, she didn’t even bother to tell him she divorced last year. Hyuna was sure of family person but she was giving more than she was receiving, she didn't want her little brother to worry when he was so busy by his runaway model life.

“Lot of things, can I come visit you ?” She asked hoping that her brother would help her.

As he agreed ,she booked a urgent flight to Tokyo and told about it to Erin. She couldn’t let Yong Guk screw up his life with her, they didn’t have the same opportunities or even ambitions. It's just a physical attraction she tried to convince herself.

She called him, hoping that he wouldn’t bother answer …. She was wrong, he answered at the first ring :

Hyuna, let me explain …

"Yong Guk , I’m leaving to Japan I’m sorry  to have bother you all this time being. I’m sorry to have let you grow feelings for me, it was selfish and wrong." Yong guk scoffed at those words, he wanted to show her how she was mistaking about him , and even about her. It's far more than a physical attraction !

"What are you talking about ?"

Take Care, Bang Yong Guk.

As she spoke those worlds, she ended the call, leaving Yong Gul confused, angry and sad. He really couldn’t get why she freaked out this much. For him things were simple, they loved each other, they needed to be a real couple now. He couldn’t get that she thought that she was wronging him or screwing up his life. He’s barely 24 , she wanted him to discover life at its best, just like she shoud have done. Travel, success in music, love she wished that he could do that with people of his age, or at leats people who are independents, not a former housewife who doesn’t have a penny on her bank account. He needed his own innocent and devoted love.

22 months later

*

Yong Guk opened his eyes and sat in his bed, still groggy of his night. He smiled seeing the body sleeping next to him. Those long locks. Those slender legs. With his hand, he caressed her back, removing her hair of it to see her bare skin.

“Can’t you let me sleep a little more, Youngster ?” She mumbled, half annoyed, half flattered by his doing.

“No, I’m heartless !” he whispered in her ear, trying to make her wake up. He rolled over her, putting all his weight on her and surprised by his move, Hyuna ejected him out of the bed.

He fell in the hard and cold floor and finally woke up, for real this time. He checked his bed and sighed.

“As if.”

*

Hyuna let herself rest a little in the big bath she made for herself. After she arrived in Japan, things went smoothly. Jae Hyun listenned to all she had to say and made her promise that she'll say everything to him, that she confessed to him at least. After a few weeks wandering in his apartment, JaeHyun asked her to come with him at his photoshoot. Without her knowing, she posed for the magazine with him, and made the cover with him. It seemed unreal, the way all those things happen.

She had also funny sessions of photoshoot with her brother, and grew closer to him. They posed like a real couple for the covers and couldn’t help but laughing each time they see the photos.

Hyuna had no problem to integrate once again the  business, she was fluent in japanese and english. Those shows in New York were great, neat and stressful while japanese covers were funky.but also very admired by those people.

She woke up with a call from her brother : “hey , noona what are you doing ?”

“I was relaxing in my bath !”

“Oh I was going to sneek ijnto underground clubs, tonight , you’re in ?”

 Both had common interests and they often would go out like friends and talk about whatever they wished to, there were no taboo or shame between them. Jay stipulated that Hyuna needed to lean on him and he gave her everything she needed at this moment : friendship. She didn’t need more than that, frienship, the excitation of modeling and those scented baths.

“text me the address !”

Hyuna decided to soak in her bath a little more. Until her phone ringed. As she sighed, she picked up the phone

"Erin what’s a good surprise to have you on the phone …" she said ironically. She thought that their relationship would change as they weren’t in the same country but Erin would often appear on photoshoot locations the distance  didn’t broke their friendship. Maybe it even make it stronger.

“Hyuna, I want to ask you something …” Erin said with a usual playful tone, yet a bit of shyness.

"Go ahead, Honey ~~" Hyuna said, eyes closed, trying to relax.

"Would I be a good mother ?" The question was asked very quickly and this surprised Hyuna. The  woman opened back her eyes, and proceeded to repeat this sentence in her head, several times.

 “Are you pregnant ?” she risked herself.

Erin sighed, before saying with a serious voice : “it’s not a answer to my question.”

“Mine is more important, Erin are you ING pregnant ?”

“Hey stop cursing, my baby might hear you !” She said before giggling. Hyuna forgot to breath for two second, Erin the strong, childish, capricious woman is pregnant, the woman changed, for sure. Hyuna couldn't help but laughed.

"Whoah congrats, Erin !"

They chatted a little bit and Hyuna noticed a brutal change on Erin behavior. She was doing everything to spend a healthy pregancy. And Himchan was full of attentions for her, floating on clouds on becoming a father soon. Hyuna chuckles hearing Himchan yelling at Erin that 'the Queen bath is ready !'

"So you’re really happy, huh ? No regret on your single woman life, now you have a family to care of, right ?"

Erin said reluctantly "Hyuna , i'm older than you, stop behaving as my mom !"

Hyuna scoffed but vexed by the sentence, she used this to friend: " Yes i will, either way i'll be forced to act as if your baby will be beautiful and will have to baby sit it, arfhh ... "

As the call was finished, Hyuna smiled, she felt that Erin found her way. Her unexpected way. Hyuna who was married got divorced and started back a model career , when Erin , the queen of one night stand was having a baby with a sweet boyfriend. Fate was a person full of humor. His days might be full of laughs. Hyuna had a weak smile, sure she was happy for Erin, she was finally becoming a reliable person, a mother.

But what about the thirty-two years old woman Moon Hyuna become ?

Did fate preparer something for her, for the woman that wished so bad to have kids ?

Hyuna pushed those thoughts away and stepped out of thos bathtub.

Oh my Guk, i've finaly found time to update. And yes , we took a step forward and ten steps back. I don't like easy stories, just reminding you all xD

Just tell me how you feel about all of that ~~