Chapter 40

Taeyeon’s PoV:

I stood nervously in front of Leeteuk’s room. My heart throbs and beats fast. I don’t know how and where to start. I know he wouldn’t care… I know he would just let me go..

I knocked twice and slowly opened the door to his room. “Leeteuk-oppa?” I murmured.

I saw him move as he was sitted on his computer chair with his eyeglass on. He gave me as smile and said to come in.

I nodded as I walked in his room. “this wont take long… I just have something to tell you”

“Chincha? What is it?” he asked cutely. He really has forgotten what happened.

I was panting and sweating as I gather up the words that I will say. “uhmm can I sit down?” I asked pointing at his bed.

“sure! But what is it that u want to tell me?” he asked as I took a seat on his bed.

I inhaled and smiled. “I am sorry…”

He removed his glasses and went closer to me with a worried expression. “why?”

“I wont be able to go to your wedding… big brother…” I said while looking down…

“its fine! Perfectly fine! I know that it would happen anyways…”

I took a deep breath once more.. “you really love her don’t you?”

He looked down and did not respond. I waited for more seconds but still, there was no respond.

I giggled lightly. “what kind of question right?”

He looked at me seriously and asked, “why wont you come? Are you really that hurt? I am so sorry…”

“NO! not at all!” I laughed.

“then why wont you come?” he asked once more

I smiled. “I am going to America on the week before your wedding…”

He stood up and looked away. “WHY!? You wanted to be with me right!? That’s what u said before?! Then why will you go away???”

“yeah.. I do… but you don’t want me in all possible ways. You don’t like me at all… and… I don’t want to get hurt anymore…” I murmured bravely. Its so weird that there are no tears found on my eyes. I guess my eyes is used to it alre