Realized it Yet?

Within Me

~Eunmi~

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Wonderful wonderful night..

I opened my eyes to see the sun shining in brightly as I was lying on my bed

I yawned and turned myself in the bed and looked up in the ceiling..

Well we did get a lot of things worked out with the project so I can just relax this weekend

Nice job Eunmi!

Suddenly out of nowhere I heard snoring, and someone, no SOME heavy breathing

I sat up slowly and looked around. Ok.. it wasn't coming from my bedroom..

I stood up and put on a big sweater before going out of the bedroom. I followed the noise and soon I spotted three heads with black hair lying on two matresses and one on the couch

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I screamed out of my lungs

The heads popped out from the blanket and sat up, one even flew up on his feet

"WHAT'S GOING ON?!" JaeJoong yelled

"AHHHHHHHHHH!!" I screamed again

"EUNMI!! Stop screaming!!" Changmin shouted

I looked to my right and saw him without a shirt

"AHHHHHHHHHHH!" I screamed again and ran back to my bedroom

I locked my door and sat on the bed and stared at my door

What were Yunho, JaeJoong and Changmin doing here?

And Changmin!! AHHH!

"Ewwwww" I said

I walked into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and fixed my hair into a ponytail

I changed clothes into cozy ones and sat down on the bed

Why were they sleeping here?

Did they do something to me last night?!

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~Changmin~

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"I think.. I can't hear anymore" Yunho groaned

I shook my head

"What has gotten into her? Just runs out here and scream the lungs out of her" JaeJoong laughed

I looked at him

"How can you be so.. spiked up in the morning..?" I asked

I groaned and put on my shirt and lied down on the couch again

Suddenly out of nowhere JaeJoong started to laugh

"WHat now?" Yunho asked

"I just realized it. I've never.. NEVER seen Changmin wake up so fast like today.. I think we need to record Eunmi's scream to wake him up in the future" JaeJoong laughed

Yunho burst out into laughter as well and soon both of them were lying on the floor and laughing their heads off

"HAHA.. Really funny" I said sarcastically

I started to clean the livingroom and soon Yunho and JaeJoong helped me out

JaeJoong after awhile went into the kitchen to fix some breakfast

"Isn't she coming out?" Yunho asked

"Mol la yo" I said

"It's been almost an hour" Yunho said

"Fine.. I'll get her" I said

"Good Magnae"

I rolled my eyes

Outside her bedroom I knocked

"WHAT?" I heard her shout

"You're not coming out?" I asked

"Aniyo. You guys did something to me last night" She accused me

"WHAT?!"

"Dae~~ Why would you else be here? WITHOUT A SHIRT?"

I rolled my eyes

"YAh! It wasn't me who fell asleep while we were studying!" I shouted

I heard her on the other side of the door approaching

I smiled to myself

"Chincha? I fell asleep?"

"Of course you did! Pabo~~ I didn't know how to leave since I couldn't lock the door and I didn't know where your keys were"

"Why didn't you wake me up then?" She asked

"Cause.. you were sleeping.. Looked like you were really tired" I said

I then heard the key being turned and soon she popped her head out

"So you guys came over and slept here?" She asked

I nodded

"Of course.. I can't leave my wife all alone like that" I rolled my eyes

She blushed at the word Wife so I started to laugh

"Anyways.. Not officially but soon.. Breakfast is ready. We need to borrow your bathroom.."

"Wae?"

"Brush and clean our faces!" I said

She then looked at me and covered and nose

"Go.. no wonder I thought it smelled really bad"

I rolled my eyes

After I had cleaned myself , JaeJoong and Yunho as well we ate breakfast in her small kitchen and talked

"I can't believe that you would think that we would do something like that" JaeJoong said

She shrugged

"Well.. One girl, three guys.. What am I suppose to think? That I've gone to heaven?"

We all started to laugh

"Well.. just get this straight.. We would NEVER EVER do anything like that.. to any girl.. Araso?" Yunho said

She nodded

"Well .. now I know" She smiled

After breakfast she accompanied us home and all three of us wanted to take a shower so Eunmi sat down in the livingroom and talked to Junsu Hyung

I was the first one to finish and went to the livingroom to see her and Junsu playing the playstation

"Yah.. Shall we?" I asked

"Just a minute" She said still concentrated on the game

They were playing some kind of shooting game.

Dear Lord.. I should have not left her with Junsu Hyung

After 10 minutes I stood up

"Let's go!" I said

"No.. We're almost there. JUNSU HURRY!"

"I'm coming!!! But the vampire keeps hunting me" Junsu whined

I rolled my eyes

I walked over to her and threw her gun down and dragged her away from there and took her to the kitchen

"YAH! We were almost finished with that world!!" She whined

I rolled my eyes

"Don't become like Hyung.. You'll be a maniac. I don't want a maniac to wife!" I said

She glared at me but I sensed that she was smiling behind those eyes so I smiled as well

"So now.. We need to go through how we met again and then plan the wedding" I said

"Dae~~"

"How's your dream wedding?" I asked

She shrugged

"Mol la yo"

I gasped

"You've got to be kidding.." I said

"Aniya.. Wae?"

"Every girl has an ideal wedding" I said

She shrugged

"Actually.. The wedding .. it doesn't matter how it looks like.. as long as I can marry and spend the rest of my life with that person, I'll be happy" She smiled

I looked at her

"That.. was shocking.." I said

"Wae? Sure.. I want to be like other girls, dream wedding, fairy tale wedding. Of course I want one too.. But actually the main point with it is that.. I can say I do.. and declare the marriage vow" She said while looking at her papers

I looked at her

"So.. you don't want a big wedding ? Celebrity wedding?" I asked, still stunned over her answers

She looked at me

"No.."

"But don't you have a picture.. of .. how you want your wedding to be?" I asked

She laughed embarrassed

I couldn't help but smile as well

"Tell me" I said

She shook her head

"Why aren't you telling me about you dream wedding?" She asked

I shrugged

"Cause..I know that this is the most important day of a girl.. of course it's important to the guy too but it's like.. the highlight of life for the girl" I said

She shook her head

"Not the highlight for me" She smiled

I looked at her

"What do you mean?"

"FOr me.. I think the highlight of life.. is .. being happy.."

"Being happy?" I asked

She nodded

"Being happy and give happiness.... passing it on.. Instead of seeing a world full of sadness, it's way much better to live happily and to know that people that you love and care about are happy as well"

" I.. never thought of that.."

She smiled

"But you can't actually say that there's only one highlight in life.. There's way too many during this life journey" She said

I nodded

"I guess I have a lot to learn from you" I said

"I have a lot to learn from you too" She said

"What.. can you possibly learn from me?" I asked

She laughed at first and then smiled at me

"To consider other person's feelings, putting their needs and their desires first before your own" She said

I frowned

"Aren't you.. kinda doing that already?" I said

She shook her head

"I think of life with deep. I think of other people with deep.. Of course I care about people around me.. But I can only put my needs to the side if it's someone who's close to me.. so that that person can go first.."

"I don't understand.." I said

She sighed like I was dumbfounded

"What I mean is.. to not judge people without knowing them first"

"oh"

"I might be happy and being positive but that doesn't mean that I'm scared of new people and such. Somehow deep inside of me, I build up all these.. questions, these assuming thoughts.. so in a way I judge people.. and in a way I still don't"

"Oh ok.. I think I kinda get it"

"you do?"

I nodded

"What you mean is, You're afraid of people when you first meet them but greet them with a happy and bright smile. You are pretty.. observant and thinks a lot about the people you meet when you first see them.. I guess.. that means that.. you.. want to care even more for people?"

"Something like that I guess"

I nodded

"You see .. You barely know me.. but you care and think of me.. protects me as if I'm.. your girlfriend.. or sister.. close friend or whatever.." She said

I laughed embarrassed

"I guess it's because.. I don't want people to end up hurt or anything.. I would never be so careless to leave you by yourself without the door locked"

"He's a gentleman!! that's why!!!" JaeJoong shouted as he passed the kitchen

both me and Eunmi started to laugh

"I think this marriage will have a lot of advantages" She said

I nodded

"Indeed.."

We both quieten as we started to write

I looked down on my report book

"Her heart is pure. She tries so hard to care for everyone even though she doesn't know them.. but still she's afraid. She's afraid that it might be a bad person, isn't she? She thinks of life happily, being positive and just keeps giving happiness, but she's still afraid. I wonder if she has ever felt that people appreciate what she do for them.. I wonder if that is what she means with the whole point. That she tries so hard to step to the side to put other people first instead of her.. She seems to have a hard time to open herself.. But I think... that .. if you get to know her really well.. she would give anything and do anything to help that person.. Wouldn't she? She would probably sacrifice her life.." I wrote in the report book

I looked at her as she was writing and concentrating

"You seem to be the kind of person who's afraid but tries really hard to see everyone as good people, even though you know there is bad people.. But I somehow think.. that there is a wall, something that is keeping you away to become the person you want to.. It's almost like a secret.. isn't it? Something that is holding you back from becoming the person you want to be, the person who's letting other people go first..

But.. you are already stepping to the side to let people come first.. What more can a person possibly ask for? You're wonderful.. you take other people's life first and think of them first before you think of yourself.. You are already the person that you think that I am..

Havent' you realized it yet Eunmi~~ah?" I thought

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cmacchiato #1
Chapter 58: I just came across this and I'm crying a river in midnight
naznew #2
Chapter 58: it so sad....changmin-ah...
yuki_21
#3
Chapter 58: This story is really good. I'm crying while reading some chapter.. Eventhough Changmin is not my bias but I really like your story line. It's just so sad that Changmin leave her alone :" I really love this story!!
Angelz0715 #4
Chapter 58: I'm crying a river!!! This is so good!!!
CinqLuna #5
hey~ make a story like this again. I really love it. for the nth time I read and it never get boring . It just so sad that changmin leave her alone ToT

I love this story so much ^^
hazel_marie13
#6
Chapter 58: new reader & subscriber :) just found this story of yours & I like it even though it's sad :( love how Changmin & Eunmi fall for each other & the friendship of DBSK. It was really sad that it ended Changmin being died just to save her but it just shows how much he loves her. this is really a heartbreaking story but it is also a wonderful story that it can be really happening in true life. And also those loved ones we lost may not be with us but the memories we had with them will always be remembered & stayed in our hearts just like what I had realized after losing some of my loved ones. continue on creating good stories like this :))
NoRaM-DCL #7
I'm crying ! How could the story end like this ? :'( Omg ... My eyes are red now :'/ Anyways , its a really good story ! I'm glad I read this :')