~Eunmi~

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Something soft and warm was resting on my hand. Something pretty heavy as well. The wind.. or shall I say the breath was also warm onto my skin

I opened my eyes to face the boring gray ceiling, along with the beeping sound. Several tubes were connected to my chest

The oxygen mask was helping me breathe as well and I felt that I was gaining my strength again

I looked down on my right to see Changmin resting his head onto my head while his eyes were closed. He looked tired, exhausted. Not to mention his swollen eyes and nose.

But he was asleep

He was sleeping while holding my hand

I enfolded my hand and suddenly I felt something weird in my left hand.

I then saw a flower and I raised it slowly to look at it closer

There was a note on it as well

"Eunmi Unni, Thank you so much for everything. Thank you. You're my angel ! - Yoona"

So Yoona was here.. or had been here

I put down the flower and looked at Changmin again. He must be so exhausted. I took back my hand slowly and started to caress him on his head.

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~Changmin~

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I was looking down at the graveyard after the funeral.

"You're ok?" JaeJoong said

I shook my head

"I'll leave you.." JaeJoong said

After everyone had walked away I bended down to the graveyard and read it

"Eunmi Park
1990-05-19- 2008-12-12

Beloved daughter, friend and girlfriend. Rest In Peace"

I started to cry even harder. I touched the stone carefully as I kept crying

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

as I shouted I woke up from my dream and looked around. I was at the hospital and I recognized the beeping sound

Suddenly a soft hand grabbed mine and I folled the arm to see Eunmi awake

"Oppa.. Gwenchana?" She asked me softly

"Eunmi.. you're awake" I whispered

She nodded

Out of joy, I started to cry and leaned forward to kiss her on her forehead

"Did you have a bad dream?" She asked

I nodded

I didn't want to think about it so I pushed it to the back of my head and looked at her

"How are you feeling?" I asked

" A bit soar.. but it's alright.." She whispered

"Araso.."

"Can you help me to take off the oxygen mask?"

I nodded

Carefully I helped her to take it off and she leaned back peacefully and looked at me

Seeing her smile even though she was sick made my heart hurt even more..

"I'm so sorry.." I whispered again

"For what?"

"For being unfair.."

She shook her head

"Don't think about it anymore.. You're here with me now.. right?"

I nodded

I leaned forward to kiss her carefully and then I sobbed as she wiped away my tears

"Oppa.. Uljima.." She whispered softly

"I can't.. help it.." I said

She chuckled

"You're not suppose to cry.. You're suppose to be happy when you're with me" She said

I sighed

"How can I ?.. This is so unfair.." I sobbed

"But it's life.." She whispered

"Yes.. but you're.. only 18.. it's.. not.. fair.. it's.. no.." I shook my head in frustration

She squeezed my hand

"I know.."

This time her voice cracked and I saw her crying

"Everyday I think why I have to struggle with this.. What I have done to deserve this.." She whispered

I shook my head

"You're perfect.. You're not even suppose to lie here. You're suppose to be.. at the cinema.. at home.. anywhere with me but not here.." I whispered while crying

She sobbed and looked at me

"I learned to accept my condition" She cried "You have to accept it too.." She said

I shook my head

"I can't.. I hate this. I hate this disease for making you suffer.... I mean look at you"

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath

"I'm sorry for bringing so much pain and burden to you" She said

I shook my head while crying

"Don't don't.."

I leaned forward to kiss her again

I pulled away and touched her cheek softly

"I wish I could switch place with you. So that you didn't have to go through this.."

She shook her head immediately

Suddenly she started to cry harder. She held onto me while trying to sit up on the bed. I helped her

She kissed my cheek and started to touch my cheek softly

As she was crying, she looked into my eyes

"I would rather be in this position than seeing you here. I'd rather have this disease than seeing you suffer like this..." She said

I shook my head but she stopped my head from shaking and she nodded herself.

"I'd die in your place.." She whispered

"No.. don't say that" I cried

She cried aswell but wiped away my tears as she was holding my face with both of her hands

"This is how much I love you.."

My eyes stared at her as she said those words

"I'd rather die than live without you" She whispered

We looked at each other as both of us were crying. My heart was aching. Aching because this moment was beautiful. Aching because it's sad.. I can't believe she said that she'd rather die than be without me. She said that she loved me for the very first time. Sick and weak, but still she managed to look eagerly beautiful even when she was crying..

I'm pretty sure that both of our hearts ached as we were talking.. and never in my life had I felt such passion, such devotion.. for anyone..

She planted a kiss on my lips before pulling away and looked straight at me

"Don't say that..We're young and we're suppose to live a long life" I whispered

"Nae~~.. But that dream seems to be so far away at the moment"

"No. I'll make that dream come true" I choked while looking at her

She shook her head in frustration

"It's impossible at the moment.." She whispered

I shook my head

"Nothing is impossible. Everything is possible.. I'm going to reach that dream for us" I said and kissed her on her forehead

She smiled while crying

"I'm going to give you strength.. I'm going to be with you through this. We're gonna face this together" I said

She nodded as tears were falling

"I'm not gonna let you fave this alone.. I'm not walking out on you" I said

She looked at me

"I'm grateful that I have you by my side.." She whispered

"I'm not going anywhere ok? I'm going to be right next to you all the time" I said

Suddenly she started to cry harder . She took both of my hands and our fingers were entwined as she looked at me

"I love you Choikang Changmin.."