~Changmin~

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As I was eating breakfast with JaeJoong and Yunho, Yoochun hyung suddenly stepped into the kitchen, half awake with hair rising up to the ceiling

"Morning" he yawned

"Morning Hyung" i said

He sat down on the chair and looked at us

"What's for breakfast?"

"Whatever you want. There's plenty in front of you" JaeJoong laughed

Yoochun stuck out his tongue

He started to eat and we all ate in silent

"Why does it feel like that something is missing?" Yunho said suddenly, breaking the silence

I looked up

"Nae~~ I agree. Something is really missing" JaeJoong said

"It's my Buin" Yoochun groaned

I smiled

"Oh.. Nae~~ Where's Junsu Hyung?" I asked

"Isn't he asleep?" Yoochun asked

"I'll go and look" JaeJoong offered

After a couple of minutes he came back and shook his head

"Not there"

"Computer room?" I asked

He shook his head

"Toilet?" Yunho asked

He shook his head

"Call him" Yunho suggested

JaeJoong dialed the number

"Answer machine" He mumbled

I looked at the hyungs

"Odd.."

They all agreed

"He'll be back soon. He's probably with his brother or something" Yoochun said

"But would he go without telling us?" JaeJoong said

"He wouldn't" I said

Yunho shrugged

"He'll be back.. He's probably out doing something I guess and forgot his cellphone or is doing something important and doesn't want to be disturb. Let's just wait until lunch" Yunho said as we all nodded in agreement

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~Junsu~

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I was still sitting in the waitingroom, with a cup of coffee, waiting for some kind of sign.

I had been waiting for so long already but still no sign of her.

I sat down and closed my eyes tiredly. She's going to be fine. I had to repeat that to myself inside of my head so that I could stay calm

Suddenly I felt a tap on my shoulder and when I opened my eyes I saw an old lady standing in front of me

"You're Eunmi's friend?"

I nodded

"Nae~~"

"Oh.. You look really tired"

I nodded

"I am.. but how is Eunmi?" I said trying to move to the real subject

She sighed

"Her condition is slowly becoming weaker. But she's strong and right now she's fine. We have given her medication and she's better now.."

I felt the relief coming out as I smiled

"Can I see her?"

She nodded

"This way"

I followed the doctor to room 234 and soon I spotted Eunmi on the bed, with an oxygen mask and an EKG system connected to her chest

"She's resting" The doctor said

I nodded

"I'll leave you alone"

She then went outside and I sat down on the chair right next to her bed. I don't know why but I started to feel sad, frustrated and even terrified..

I couldn't help but get teary and the big gob in my throat was holding my voice back

It was sad.. Seeing her this way. She's only 18..

Isn't God unfair at the moment? At all?

Then all the questions just came to me

What has she done to deserve this? What has she probably said or anything to harm or hurt anyone? Her heart isn't evil.. She doesn't want to hurt anyone..

And Changmin..

No.. That's my beloved Dongsaeng..

I sobbed quietly as I blinked and the tear fell

I took her hand and pressed it lightly, just to assure her that I was there

I heard her mumble something

"I can't hear you.." I said and wiped away the tears

"Changmin.."

I chuckled

"Still dreaming about him when you're sleeping ha..?" I said quietly

For another 10 minutes, I just sat there and just looked at her. This isn't how it's suppose to be is it?

I'm not her boyfriend and definitely not her Nam Pyeon. Changmin should be here.. Not me..

I'm not an good hyung but I'm not an good Oppa either.
If I tell Changmin, the promise I made her is not worth anything and it'll be empty words.. No meaning

But on the other hand, Changmin's girlfriend. I did notice that for every and each day that was passing by, for every minute and hour he was spending with Eunmi, he fell more and more in love.

I sighed

Christmas.. just 2 days from today. Changmin's examination in January.. Not far away..

I shook my head..

Why should I be the one with these burdens on my shoulder..? I'm not suppose to be in this position am I ?

That was when I decided. I love Changmin. He's my dongsaeng and I've been with him through the years. Many years in fact.
I had to do what was best for her at the moment. I know that Changmin's examination will go well since his parents had found a great doctor

After Christmas.. I would tell him. After Christmas..