~Changmin~

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"So... we met by accident in the hallway, and started to get annoyed with each other and afterwards we fell in love?" I asked

She nodded

She then clapped her hands together and smiled

"Sounds like a movie!" She said dreamingly

"It sure does.."

"But I think it's great though.. We can talk to her next friday about the marriage notification. I think we need to plan the wedding"

I sighed

"Just so you know, I know nothing about weddings"

"Me neither" She laughed

I took out my cellphone and started to type a message to hyung, making sure that I was Ok

"Why are you typing on your phone all the time?" She suddenly asked which scared me

"Bwoh?"

"Dae~~ You've been taking it out like.. 10 times already.. it's only been 2 hours" She said

"Uhm.. I'm typing a message to hyung"

"Again?"

I nodded

I tried to come up with a lie but it was a bit hard to lie cause I didn't want her to get a really wrong impression of me

"Uhm.. they're just worried.. I'm the magnae"

Well it was at least 90% true

"Oh araso.. So caring.." She smiled

I nodded

We started to read the hand outs again and the silence took over, but instead of reading I was throwing glances at her while she was deeply concentrated on her reading.. She surely was an awkward girl cause she was smiling as she was reading..

Her fair pale skin and her face shape that was pretty marked... I haven't noticed it before but she had a dimple on her right side..

Her brown eyes were following the text in the hand out as her long black hair was lying on her shoulder softly

"Okay, now tell me why you've been staring at me for the last 5 minutes"

I looked at her

"Bwoh?"

She smiled at me

"I noticed that you were staring at me.. Is something wrong with me or do you regret that you married an ugly girl?" She laughed

I laughed

"Aniya.. I was.. just thinking.. I think my gaze just got locked at you" I lied

She laughed

"What were you thinking then?"

"Nothing much.."

"If you say so" She said sarcastically making me pout

Silence took over once more as we both started to read our hand outs and writing in our report books

"Oh no.." I heard her sigh

I looked at her

"What?"

She pointed at the sentence 40 where our teacher had written

"To write the honest feelings you are feeling and experiencing. The only one who's going to read this is me and no one else. Your sincere thoughts and feelings" I read

"So I have to .. write down what I think about you and such..?" She asked

"Seems like it.."

"Whoa.. this is really an odd way to get to know the other person" She laughed

"IT sure is.. but I think we will be able to understand each other more then" I shrugged

She quieten

"Why do you .. always talk about things with deep?"

I looked at her

"What do you mean?" I asked

"Mollah. Seems like.. every word you're saying.. is always.. there is always so much behind it.."

"Chincha? I've never noticed.. Maybe that's why the members calls me the most mature.." I frowned

She nodded

"I think it is.." She smiled

"Well.. i'm going to be honest about this so I'll just write" She said happily

"How you felt when you first met me?" I asked

She nodded

"I'm nooooooooooot gonna leave anything out of it"

I groaned

It made me curious though

"Hey.. Can I ask you something?" I said

She looked at me

"Dae?"

"I've been wondering this a lot.. and it's ok if you don't want to answer.."

"Hmm.. Ok.. Go on" She said

"Why are you so happy and positive all the time?"

"What do you mean?" Her smile slowly disappeared

"I mean.. we bumped into each other, I was a bit fierce, then you made me some kimbap, I didn't want to take it.. the girls are bullied you.. twice today.. How come you are still so friendly to them? I mean.. you don't even get sad.." I asked

She nodded

"Oh.. "

"yes.." I said

I waited for her answer as she rested her chin on her hand

"I think it's because.. life is way to short to be angry"

"Huh?"

"Dae~~ .. Life is way to short to.. get caught up in stuff.. to be angry at people.. Haven't you noticed that it takes so much of your energy to hate someone?"

I nodded slowly. She did have a point there

"And all this anger.. why have it when you can be happy and smile instead? If you smile, you might bring happiness to someone else.. Besides.. all that anger can always be happiness instead.. I want to live a happily life.. It's way to short to stay at one point just to get your feelings out.. It's understandable though, but I try to see it in the other way.. If there is always someone who's willing to give in first.. then in the end the person will do that too.."

Wow.. I kept listening to her as she was talking. She looked so.. thoughtful and so caring as she was talking about other people..

"I don't want to hurt anyone, bring harm.. If people do it to me, I will forgive.. it's ok.."

"BUt some stuff are unforgiveable" I said

"Yes it is if you think that way. but then again you need to look from their perspective.. Why did they do it? What's the reason.. and so on.. Everyone makes mistakes.. and we're making mistakes to learn from them.."

I listened to her with interest.. She kept doing gestures, smiled once in a while and laughed embarrassed
Her eyes were blinking all the time as if something were blinding her..

Her heart was pure.. definitely..

"You won't live forever.." She said and looked at me

"Of course you won't.." I said

"But you will only be a teenager.. once.. so of course we want to experience such as first love and such now.. You won't be able to do it later.. it won't have the same feeling.. if you know what I mean.." She said

She was right

"I'm just taking one step at the time.." I said

"Yes.. but you have to think about tomorrow too.. What happens if something happened to you and you won't get a chance to live and do the things you want? Wouldn't you be .. really regretful?"

I thought about.. of course I would.. but I'm sure I was going to live a lot longer

"But I don't think of my life in that way.. I think my life isn't over yet.." I said

"Yes of course.. but you never know.. Life's a mystery.. Just like 10000 puzzle pieces.. One by one you have to think about it and then decide if you are suppose to put it there or not.. if that is the right choice or not."

That was also true..

"So I'm just trying to live my life to the fullest. I don't want to regret anything.." She smiled

Wow.. Both of us.. were so different.. I wasn't even living like that.. I always did the things that I wanted and never thought about anything else.. just studying and studying.. to make mom and dad proud..

"I'm just trying to make my parents proud.. That's what I'm living for.." I shrugged

She looked at me

"But is it what you wanted? Your parents want you to study since they want you to have a good and steady future ahead of you. Parents won't be able to accompany us for the rest of our lives.. So they are just encouraging you so that you will keep working hard. It's for you own good and not their.. But you can't forget to live life as well"

I looked at her.. Of course dad and mom won't be able to accompany for the rest of my life..
Her words were getting into my mind slowly.. She was right..

"Okay. . enough about life talking and such. Let's get back to the report book.."

I smiled at her and started to write int he report book again

But her explanations and definitions about life kept wandering around in my head.

I looked up and looked at her and watched her as she was writing..

I smiled at myself as I started to write about our first meeting..

After 2 hours we finally finished

I stretched myself out and put the book on the table

"Hey.. aren't you tired.. it's really...."

I quieten

I looked at her and smiled.. She had already fallen asleep

She was resting her arm and head against the armchair and had huddled herself into a small ball

I couldn't help but smile

I grabbed my phone and dialed the number to Hyung

"Yoboseyo?"

"Hyung? IT's me"

"Oh.. dae~~" JAeJoong said

"I think we have a problem.."

"what?"

"Eunmi fell asleep while we were studying. What do I do now?" I laughed quietly

JAeJoong started to laugh as well

"Well someone needs to lock the door if you're leaving" JaeJOong said

"Dae~~"

"I'll be right over with Yunho Hyung.. Wait for us araso?"

"DAe~~"

I hung up and leaned myself back on the couch and watched her as she was sleeping

She is cute.. and she looked so peaceful while sleeping..For once it looked really nice to just sit there and watch her sleep because .. this was the only time when she wasn't smiling or being all happy.. She looked more calm then..

Her words were still running around inside my head.. About life.. about living.. and about parents..

I think she just gave me a new way to look at life.. I leaned forward and put my shoulders on my knees and tilted my head to the side..

She's smart.. and beautiful ..

"Pabo.." I smiled