~Eunmi~

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As I was making the dishes since dad and mom went out to buy some food for the dinner later on, I suddenly felt A pair of arms wrap around my waist

He rested his chin on my shoulder while leaning onto me

"Not sleeping?" I asked

"Aniyo.. I don't feel like it" he said

"Oh.. wae? You look so tired.. You're sure?" I said and turned off the water to face him

He nodded

"How about we watch a movie?" He asked

"Hm.. We don't have any movies.." I said

He shrugged

"Anything will do. We can watch tv as well. I'm sure there's a drama airing right now" He said and grabbed my hand

A little suspicious by his sudden behave, I tagged along not noticing what his purpose was

But maybe, I was thinking too much. Afterall, he wanted to be with me and I guess, I just need to be a bit understanding towards his actions cause deep down inside, I knew he was afraid..

So we sat down on the couch and switched on the tv. As he said there was a drama airing so we stayed silent as we watched it. I was leaning onto him as his arms were wrapped around me and was placed on my stomach

After awhile, I felt him breathing heavily and I could hear some kind of mumble in behind me. When I looked up I saw that he had fallen asleep

I chuckled

I guess he just wanted me to be next to him while he was asleep

So I decided to continue watch the drama for a few more minutes until mom and dad got home.

After 30 minutes later, i heard mom and dad enter from the hall

"Honey we're home!" Mom shouted

"In here!" I said

Mom came into the livingroom and chuckled

"He's sleeping?" Mom whispered

I nodded

"He deserves it. He refused to leave you alone at the hospital.."

I nodded

"Have they decided about the moving yet?" Mom asked

I shook my head

"I think he has kinda forgot about it.. He's been really.. busy lately.. and I think he's not getting much of sleep. So let's just wait mom.. I really don't want to rush them or anything" I said

Mom nodded

"Okay.. I'll prepare dinner now ok?"

Mom walked towards me and kissed me on my forehead

When mom left us I continued to watch the drama but suddenly I received a kiss on my forehead

"I got jealous when you mom kissed you so I want to do it as well" I heard him say

I chuckled

"How was the nap?" I asked

"Very.. good.." he smiled

"Mom is preparing dinner now" I said

He nodded

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~Changmin~

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After we had eaten our dinner, Eunmi and I cleaned the dishes and the table as her parents went to the livingroom to watch tv.

Afterwards, I decided to go home back to the members. Eunmi walked me to the door and hugged me tightly

"CAll me when u get home" She said

I nodded

She planted a kiss on my lips and when she was about to pull away I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her back which caused her to laugh. But her lips didn't leave mine

When we finally pulled away she started to play with my hair and looked at me

I smiled

"How about you and I spend the day together tomorrow?" I asked

"Tomorrow? What about.. School?" She asked

I shook my head

"For now, school isn't important to me.." I said

She sighed

"But Oppa.. I"

"No Eunmi.." I interrupted "Nothing is changing just because of your.. disease.. but it's healthy to skip school once in a while.." I said

She hesitated for a bit but when I kissed her on her nose playfully I think she accepted it

"Araso~~"

We said our goodbyes and I got into the car, waved to her before leaving her at the doorentrance

As I was driving home, I started to think about how I should tell the members, in a good way. In a.. way that wouldn't hurt them or make them cry.. but as for now, it just seemed to be impossible. Nothing would work, besides, I had to think about Eunmi as well

When I was standing in front of the dorm, I calmed myself down and gathered my courage before entering

I could hear laughter and them talking from the livingroom as I entered

I took off my coat and shoes and locked the door before entering the livingroom

"Oh.. Changmin!" JaeJoong smiled

I smiled palely back

"Hey Hyung.."

"How was it at Eunmi's ?" Junsu asked

"She's home now right?" Yunho smiled

I nodded

"Glad to hear!" Yoochun smiled

I saw them watching a gag show on the tv, which explains why they were laughing so hard

I went to the kitchen to have some water. I needed to say it.

I didn't want to lie and they deserve to know it..

I put down the glass and went back to the livingroom.

As the gag show went off to a commercial, I saw this as my chance

"Changmin ah~~ Gwenchana?" Yoochun asked

I looked at Hyung and nodded

"Why wouldn't I?" I smiled

He frowned at me

"You seem to be.. troubled.. is everything alright?" Yoochun asked

"Is it Eunmi?" JaeJOong asked

I sighed

I grabbed the remote control and stood up. I covered my face for a minute before I looked at my members.

I know that I was about to cry any minute now cause the tears were waiting for me to have a break down

The members watched me anxiously and their expression changed when they saw my eyes. They stood up slowly

"What's wrong Changmin?" Yunho asked seriously

The atmosphere changed

I put both of my hands in my pocket and blinked twice before looking at them

"I.. received..the testresults back from the doctor today" I said

All the members looked at me

"It turned out good right?" Junsu asked slowly

A tear fell on my cheek as I stared at all of them

"I'm dying.." I mumbled

All of their eyes widened as their expressions changed as well

Yunho's face got red and Junsu stared at me as he didn't believe me

"You..'re.. what?" JaeJoong stuttered

I sobbed before answering

"Hyung.. I'm.. dying" I whispered again

My throat choked and somehow it just felt thick at the moment. No words could come out and I saw tears started to take form in the members eyes

"But. . it's the.. best doctor.." Yoochun whispered

I shook my head

"The tumor has already started to grow bigger and it's just a few inches from my brain.. It's.. going to grow through my brain.. In a few months.. I might.. be braindead" I whispered

"NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

The angry shout scared all of us and I saw Yunho breathing fast as he was staring at me

"IT'S NOT HAPPENING!" He shouted

I didn't answer and so didn't the rest of the members

Suddenly he started to kick the livingroom table and he threw the remote controls allover the livingroom

He was angry and I upset.. I could tell

"But.. you're only.. 20.. the tumor was suppose to be removed" Junsu cried

I started to cry harder and shook my head

"It's to late.. even if I get an operation, I might die, get paralyzed or maybe.. braindead.. it's way to close to my brain." I whispered

Yoochun and JaeJoong couldn't hold back their tears no more and Yunho was taking out his anger on the livingroom table..

He had already broken it into pieces and all that was left of it was all the million pieces allover the floor

Suddenly Yunho walked over to the wall and started to punch it while crying and screaming no

Finally, my feet obeyed me and I walked over to Hyung to make him stop hitting the wall. His fists were already bleeding

"NOOOOOOO NO NO NO NO..." His voice faded away as I hugged him and he then burst out into tears and hugged me tightly

All the members walked over to me and we had a group hug. Usually when we had a group hug, it was always because we were happy

But for the very first time, we all stood there, cried together and was cursing the life, the fate, God.. the world

Never in our lives had we cried so hard and all of us were upset.. angry..

But we couldn't do anything about it..

My life had a plan for me now. The clock was ticking and for every second that passed me by, I was loosing it .

For every second, I was getting further and further away from the people I love..