~Eunmi~

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When the party finally finished, I waited outside for Changmin to get my jacket along with the others

"Here" I heard him say behind me

He put my coat on around me and then we started to make our way back home

"Did you have fun tonight?" He asked

I nodded

"Dae~~ It was really fun"

"Of course. You'll always have fun with Dbsk" Junsu smiled

I chuckled

When my eyes and Junsu eye's met, we did exchange a meaningful glance but he kind of reassured me that he wasn't going to say anything.. yet

"You're cold?" Changmin asked me as we were walking

I shook my head

"It's not cold.." I smiled

He nodded

"You sure?"

i nodded

"Araso~~"

We somehow kind of starting to fall behind the others and before I knew it, it was just the two of us walking together

"Are you tired?" He asked me breaking the silence

I shook my head

"Wae?"

"Would.. you like to go to the.. lake with me?" He asked

"Bwoh? Lake?" I asked

He nodded

"It's not so far.. it's really beautiful at night" He smiled

"Araso~~"

"Kah ja"

He grabbed my hand and was happily walking towards the lake

I didn't know if I was going to be nervous or if I was scared

But I know that the butterflies in my stomach was giving me the answer

I was more..excited.. thrilled ..

We stopped at the lake and he helped me out to the bridge

He didn't let go of my hand and he even took off his jacket so that I could sit on it at the edge of the bridge

"Beautiful.. isn't it?" He said

"Dae~~ It really is.." I mumbled while looking at the sky

I felt his fingers playing with mine as we were looking at the stars. It made the butterflies inside of me go crazy

"I'm sorry" He suddenly said

"For what?"

"For.. the kiss earlier.. i didn't mean too"

I faced him as his eyes were looking at me, watching me carefully

"It's.. ok.. It was just so sudden"

I quieten

He looked at me and then he put a string of my hair behind my ear

"It's awkward huh?" He whispered

I didn't answer

"It's awkward isn't it.. Never thought that.. I was going to end up like this"

"End up.. like what?"

He smiled

"End up falling in love with you"

I froze

"Bwoh?"

He let go of my hand and looked at his necklace.

Suddenly he took it off and put my hair to the side and put the necklace on me

He then smiled

"Consider it.. as my confession.." He said

"Your confession?" I mumbled

He nodded

"It might be too sudden.. and too early.. but it just can't get more perfect than this.." He said

I didn't answer

"I don't know.. what your feelings are.. but i won't ask you and I won't give you pressure. Take your time.. and whenever you feel ready.. I'm just going to be right next to you, waiting for your answer" He said softly and caressed my cheek

Dazed and still shocked by it, He stood up, helped me up as well.

He took his jacket and put it on me and then we made our way back to my apartment

As we were standing outside the gate, he looked at me a bit curious

"Thanks.." I mumbled

He nodded

"Thanks for being there tonight.."

I smiled

"I'll see you tomorrow" I said

He nodded

I opened the door as I felt him watching me and wheN i had closed the door, I instantly locked and made my way to the bedroom

I threw myself onto the bed and closed my eyes

Great..

What a great night..

At least it started good..

Junsu knows my secret..

Changmin confessed

I have similar feelings to his

But.. why can't I respond to his feelings? Why can't I just.. give him what he has given me?

I sat up on my bed and stared into the mirror, at my reflection

Of course I can't give him anything..

I was in a way.. dying.. wasn't I?

I sighed

Is it.. right of me to tell him my true feelings or should I ignore him to save him from the pain?

being selfish.. just once..

Is that good?

Just this time?