~Junsu~

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"OKAY I HAD ENOUGH!" Yunhos aid and sat down at the kitchen table as I was eating along with JaeJoong

"What Hyung?" I asked

"How long are you two going to be like this? It's been 3 days now" Yunho said angrily

I shrugged

"He's the one who's not talking not me" I said and kept eating

"YAH!! I'm serious. We have to do something. NOW!" Yunho said

"Do what?" Yoochun said as he entered the kitchen

Okay, Yunho Hyung was right. Ever since Changmin found out he hasn't been talking to me . And he only answered the members if he really had to cause he didn't want to be impolite but besides that, he had locked himself in his room and only came out when he needed to eat or go to school.
At school it was even worse
Eunmi did come to school 2 days ago but after Changmin had completely ignored her, she gave up and went home and I haven't seen her ever since

"Eunmi is probably not doing well either and when I bumped into her at the library just a minute ago, she didn't dare to talk to me.." Yunho sighed

"Chincha?" I asked and stopped eating

"We can't go on like this. Changmin doesn't want to talk to us and he hasn't even tried to contact her.." Yunho said

"He's just making everything worse" JaeJoong said

I shrugged

"I've already tried to talk to him but he doesn't even look at me" I said

Well I tried to talk to him yesterday but the only answer I got was the door slammed in my face so I stopped

"Junsu ah~~ How come you didn't tell any of us?" Yoochun asked

"At first, I didn't mean to ok? I was planning to do it after Christmas since I didn't want to make everyone sad and ruin the mood. And also, this is Eunmi's life. She made me promise to not tell anyone cause she wanted to tell Changmin by herself. She was going to tell him but I don't understand why she was taking so long .." I said

"So the day when you weren't home.. came home all tired.." JaeJoong started but Junsu cut in

"Yes.. I was at the hospital. She called me during the night and she needed help. She couldn't stop crying cause she really wanted to tell Changmin and call him but she couldn't let him see her in that condition.." I said

"But why didn't you tell us?" JAeJoong asked

"Cause she made me promise her. Hyung, it's her life and her disease. I'm sure she has her reasons for it but I was going to tell you guys cause I don't like lies.. and you know that" I said

Everyone stayed quiet

"We need to talk to him.. it can't go on like this.." Yunho said

"I'll go and see Eunmi now.. I need to talk to her" I said and stood up

"I'll go and talk to Changmin.." Yoochun said

I got my jacket and hurried outside and started to make my way to Eunmi's place. I knocked three times but she refused to open so I kept knocking until she finally came.

"Eunmi.." I said as I saw her

She was completely pale and her eyes and nose was red . I guess she had been crying

I entered and took her in my arms as she buried herself into my chest

"Shh.."

"I can't take this.. I just can't.." Eunmi cried

I didn't say anything and was letting her get out all of her feelings

I closed the door behind me and walked her into the livingroom as I saw the reportbook. She had been writing.

She sat down on the couch and I sat down next to her

"How.. are you?" I whispered

She coughed a little and wiped away her tears..

"I miss him.. so much.." She whispered

"I know.."

"He refuses to talk to me Junsu ah~~ Otoke?" She said in frustration

I sighed

"I don't understand what is going on in his mind either.. he hasn't talked to me either.."

"CHincha?"

I nodded

"He's pretending that I'm like air.."

"Why is he acting this way?" She asked

I shrugged

"I've never seen this side of him.."

Eunmi didn't say anything. She was looking at the couple ring that she had gotten from him

"Is that the christmas present he got for you?" i asked

She nodded

"I need him.." She whispered

I sighed heavily and stood up

"I can't sit here and do nothing anymore.." I said angrily

Eunmi looked at me

"Oppa.. what's wrong?" She asked and stood up

I put my hands on my hips and sighed

"What's wrong? Eunmi.. Look at you.. At him.. Your condition!! You guys love each other but still you're separated.. It's not suppose to be like this. He's suppose to be right next to you and you're suppose to.. work hard and try to stay healthy while attending the examinations and you.."

"I'm dying.."

I quieten

"What?"

She looked up

"I don't have much time left.."

I stared at her and then took a step towards her

"You're what?"

"I'm dying.. Really dying.. My heart has gotten worse and .. there is a chance that I have to move into the hospital.."

I was at loss.. Speechless

"Maybe it's better this way.. It'll be less painful for him.." She choked while crying

I couldn't help but pity her and start to cry as well

Then I spun around and left the apartment.

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~Changmin~

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I was sitting at the desk, trying to concentrate on my homework, but like the other days. It's useless.

I couldn't stop thinking about Eunmi and I couldn't stop thinking about the scene at the hospital.

So she had.. a heart disease..

I put down the pen and sighed. This wasn't happening.. She's just.. 18.. she's.. perfect.. and it's.. NO

I slammed the desk and stood up

I know I overreacted the day at the hospital.. but the thing was.. I am afraid.. Afraid of what might happen.. and how I.. was going to help her. be by her side..

I'm scared to death.. and somehow.. I had been avoiding her the past few days since I needed to think it all through

I love Eunmi..

And I'd do anything for her..

*Knock Knock

What now?

"Open.. It's Hyung" Yoochun said

I dragged my feet towards the door and opened. He entered himself and closed it behind him and followed me to the bed

"How are you?" he asked and tapped me on the shoulder

I shrugged

"Fine"

"You're not.. look at you"

"I'm fine" I said

"If you're fine then why aren't you talking to us? And not to Junsu ?"

I rolled my eyes

"Do we really need to talk about this now?" I asked and stood up to get away from his comfortable and safe tapping as a loving brother

I didn't want to cry

"If not now then when?" He asked

"Never.. I need to be alone"

"You need someone.." Yoochun said

I didn't answer

"Why aren't you talking to Junsu? And the most important thing of all.. Why aren't you talking to Eunmi?" He asked

I didn't answer

"Answer me Changmin" Yoochun said

I looked straight at him

"Hyung lied to me.." I said simply

"Do you know why?" He asked

I didn't answer

"Cause the things you said to Junsu and Eunmi at the hospital wasn't fair. You know that they're not dating in secret. She loves you" Yoochun said

"She has never said that she loves me" I said as a an excuse

"Does she need to tell you that or are you just complete blind?" Yoochun asked

I didn't answer. I knew Hyung was right

"Why haven't you been talking to Eunmi?"

Yoochun walked towards me and put his hands on my shoulder and asked me again

"Why haven't you talked to her?"

The words sounded so evil. Like I was the devil. I had my breakdown and I started to cry

"I'm scared Hyung.." I said and looked at him

Yoochun watched me carefully

"Of what?"

"Of.. loosing her.." I whispered but my voice disappeared before I even could finish the sentence

"Then why are you acting this way? Avoiding her and not talking to her?"

"Because I don't know what to do. I've been trying to think of all kinds of things to make things better but there's no way out. HYUNG! SHE'S ONLY 18!! SHE'S SUPPOSE TO LIVE UNTIL SHE'S 90! HAVE A SECURE AND SAFE LIFE! NOT WANDERING AROUND AND HAVE TO VISIT THE HOSPITAL ALL THE TIME!" I shouted in frustration

The tears kept falling as Yoochun watched me

"It's unfair Hyung.. To her.. to us as a couple.." I cried and sat down on the bed

Yoochun walked over to me and soon JaeJoong and Yunho entered as well and sat down next to me

"We know Dongsaeng~~ah.." JaeJoong comforted

"NO YOU DON'T HYUNG! I KNOW I'VE BEEN SELFISH BUT I JUST WISH THAT SHE WOULD HAVE TOLD ME EARLIER..!" I said

They didn't say anything

"I feel so guilty for everything I've been putting her through but I just can't look into her eyes after the things I said .. I just want to be with her.. like any other student" I said

No one said anything.

Yunho wiped away my tears

Suddenly we heard the front door open and it was slammed back again

All of us stood up and soon I saw Junsu Hyung entering my room

Shocked and surprised I looked at him

he was crying like crazy and he was shaking. His lips were trembling but his eyes, his watery eyes where the tears was falling at the moment, was staring straight at me

"Changmin, I don't care if you're angry with me. I don't care if you don't want to talk to me but if you don't do as I say, I'm gonna do something that I will regret!" He said angrily

I took a step forward

"I'm not going to stand at the side, watching you and Eunmi being separated when you guys are suppose to be together. She had her reasons for not telling you and I also have mine. I promise that we didn't do this on purpose and I found out by accident.." he said

We all listened as he kept talking

"But.." He pointed at the door

"There's a girl. With a heart disease at the other side of the college yard. She loves you more than anything and is eagerly waiting for you even though she thinks that you're not coming back"

Now he started to cry harder and I could hear sobbing from the members behind me

Junsu wiped away his tears and looked at at the floor before looking up at me again

"She needs you. Not even you can be selfish now. I know that you're mad and I know that you're upset but you have to put that aside cause she needs you now..."

"What are you trying to tell me?" I asked

Junsu cried even more

he pointed at the door again and took a deep breath

"Choikang Changmin. The girl that you love. The girl whose heart you have on your wrist at the moment.."

he pointed at the bracelet that I was wearing

"That heart.. can stop beat any minute.."

I instantly froze

"What?" Yunho shouted

Junsu ignored Yunho and kept staring at me

"She's dying . And she doesn't have much time left" He choked

I stared at him for a moment.

Then, without hesitation, without thinking, I ran out of the bedroom and out of the apartment..