~Changmin~

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"Hyung.. I really don't know what to buy" I complained as I was walking in the big mall with JaeJoong

"To Eunmi?"

"Nae~~!"

"You'll find something. I'm sure" He smiled

I shook my head

"Hyung, we've been walking around in this freaking mall for almost 2 hours and still I can't find anything..." I said

Jaejoong laughed

"You're so in love. It's so adorable"

I laughed embarrassed as JaeJoong put an reassuring arma round my shoulders

"You see.. first of all, do you want to give her something really special or do you want to make her cry?"

"What's the difference?" I asked

"None of it. It's practically the same" JaeJoong said and started to laugh

I rolled my eyes

"Something special of course!!" I said and hit him on the arm

"YAH! No hitting.."

"Araso.. Mianhe" I said

JaeJoong smirked

"What does she like?"

"Mollah.."

"What do you want to give her?"

"Mollah"

Jaejoong rolled his eyes

"You're so not helping here" JAeJoong groaned

I laughed

We started to walk around and decided to go to the 2nd floor

"Do you want her to wear something so that she can have it all the time or do you want to give her something that she can see everyday.. or ?"

I shrugged

JaeJoong sighed

"I'm going in there. And you go wherever you want. Text me when you know" He said and walked off

A bit surprised that he walked off on me, I just stood there and watched him

"But Hyung..........!"

He waved with his hand and entered the jewelry store

I took a deep breath and started to wander around. I looked around to get some kind of inspiration but it's really hard since this was my first time ever buying something for my girlfriend..

I smiled to myself as I was walking when I started to think about her.

I sat down on a bench next to an old lady who looked like she was waiting for something

She looked troubled

"Excuse me? Are you Alright?" I asked

She looked at me and nodded

"Yes yes.. I'm just tired for walking around so much. Thank you for asking dear" She smiled at me and tapped me on my back

I smiled

"So what are such a young and handsome boy wandering around in the mall by himself?" She asked

I shrugged

"Christmas presents" I said

"For family?"

I nodded

She smiled

"And Girlfriend?"

I laughed and started to blush

She chuckled

"Have you found something yet?"

I shook my head

"It's really hard.. It's also my first time buying something for someone who's not in the family.." I said

"Oh.. you do look a bit troubled.."

"Ahjumma.. What do girls like?" I asked

She smiled

"Depends on how she is as a person. Every girl has different taste.."

"But if it was you?"

She laughed

"If you were my boyfriend?" She asked me

I nodded

"Oh dear.. I wish.." She laughed

I started to laugh as well. She then stopped and took my hand

"The gift.. it doesn't matter what it is.. as long as it comes from your heart. So don't think too much about it. I'm sure she'll be happy with whatever you'll get for her" She said

I nodded

"YAH Changmin!"

I looked up to see jaeJoong looking at me

"Oh.. Annyeong haseo" He bowed as he saw the Ahjumma that I was talking to

"Hello there"

JaeJoong smiled

"You're finished?"

I nodded and stood up

I looked at the Ahjumma and smiled at her

"KAmsa Hamneeda"

She nodded

"Good Luck dear"

JaeJoong and I left her and started to wander around again but this time I knew what I should get for her

"Yah.. why were you talking to her?" JaeJoong asked

I shrugged

"It's Christmas.. Do I need a reason?" I grinned

JaeJoong rolled his eyes

"You're so weird sometimes.."

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~Eunmi~

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I was sitting on the bed waiting for my parents to arrive as Junsu were sitting next to me, looking at me quietly

"I'm so sorry Junsu~~Ah.." I whispered and looked at him

He woke up from his daze and looked at me

"It's ok.. I'm your Oppa.. Of course I'll be there whenever you need me..."

The clock was almost 5 pm and he had been here ever since 3 am in the morning just to take care of me and he hadn't slept at all..

When I woke up, he was still up and he was so happy when he saw me open my eyes.
We talked for a second and then Mrs lee entered, my doctor and talked to me for a bit. Junsu stayed and listened to everything and eventually, The doctor told me that I should tell my parents..

IT was so much at the same time. I had not said anything while the Doctor was talking and she told me that my parents should be prepared. I had to tell them about my condition, the heart transplant, how I gave it away.. and how my condition was right now..

It's worse now.. But I couldn't give up yet could I? There's still time..

My parents was on their way, and the doctor decided to discharge me after an hour of talking. I persuaded her.

"Junsu~~ah.."

"Nae~~"

I smiled at him

"Go home.."

He shook his head

"I'll go later.. Right now you need someone" He said quietly

I shook my head

"You're tired.. You really need to rest.. You need to buy christmas gifts as well.. it's almost christmas now.." I smiled

He chuckled

"What has presents to do with Christmas when my dongsaeng's girlfriend's life is on stake?"

I shook my head

"I'll be going home with my parents.. Go home and rest so that you can shop christmas gifts tomorrow"

He frowned and looked at me

"But I.."

"Aniyo.. Just go araso?"

"But.. you.."

"I'LL BE FINE! Go home.. I'm sure the others are.. worried about you. You haven't spoken to them have you?"

Guilt was shown in his eyes and he nodded slowly

"Go home.. But remember one thing.."

"What?"

"Don't tell them.."

He sighed

"Eunmi~~ah.."

"Not Even Changmin" I said

"But.."

"No.."

"But he has the.."

"No...." I said

Junsu sighed in defeat

"Araso.."

He stood up and gave me a hug before heading to the door

"You're sure.. you're gonna.. b"

"I'm gonna be fine.. Just go.. I'll see you tomorrow" I said

He smiled

"Call me.."

I nodded

When I heard the door close, the tears burst out like an ocean and I started to cry hard.

I'm afraid..

The condition was getting worse.. and who knows how long I have left?

My parents.. My friends.. Changmin ..

I lied down on the hospital bed and closed my eyes and cried silently

I'm afraid..

Not of death..

But how I was going to tell Dad.. mom..

And Changmin....