~Eunmi~

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"Here.. Sit here" Changmin said softly as he helped me to sit down

I looked at him as he was wandering around in their dorm, probably looking for something. I heard sounds from the kitchen and I think he was boiling hot water

He came back after a few minutes, threw me a towel and some clothes

"Go and take a shower.. or else you'll catch a cold" He said

I nodded and didn't say anything

When I was finished I walked back to the couch in Changmin's big black tshirt and his grey soft pants. He handed me a white big sweater as well. I guess he was afraid of me getting sick

After 10 minutes he was back as well, showered and wearing soft black pants with a white t shirt

He soon came back with a cup and put it on the table in front of me.

"Hey... Drink some tea.. It's good for you.."

Without an reply, I took the cup and drank it slowly

"Careful.. It's hot" He mumbled

He took the cup from my hands and started to blow on it. I guess he was trying to cool it

He then handed it to me slowly and watched me as I stared blankly in front of me

After drinking half of the cup, i couldn't drink anymore and leaned myself back on the couch

I did notice that Changmin was looking at me all the time, afraid of saying something but also scared for what was happening next

Silence appeared as minutes started to pass..

"Hey Eunmi ah.. gwenchana?" He asked breaking the silence

I turned myself to face him. His lips were still as his eyes were watching me.

"I.. don't know. ." I mumbled

I cuddled myself into a ball and lied down on the couch with my head on his lap.

"I don't know.." I mumbled

Soon I felt his hands putting a blanket over me, so that I won't be cold and then i felt his fingers playing with my hair ..

I did do the right thing right?

I closed my eyes as a tear fell..

I did do the right thing right?

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~Flashback at the hospital~

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"A heart.. Available?" I whispered astonished

She nodded

"At the moment there is one"

I stared at her

"You're serious?"

She nodded happily

"You're the first on the list" She smiled and leaned back in her office chair

I stood up and started to walk around, still shocked

So.. there's a heart.. there's a heart..

"There's a heart.." I mumbled

I put my right hand where my heart was beating

"When do you want to settle the operation?" She asked

I spun around and looked at her

"As soon as possible!" I cheered

Finally, tears of joy, big wide smile and loud happy laughter were appearing on my face.

She nodded

"Araso.. I'll contact you as soon as possible araso? That's all for now!" She smiled

I nodded

"Now if you excuse me, I have an another appointment. I'll see you soon" She smiled

She then took my folder and left the room as I was still in shock .. But I was still happy

I couldn't help but smile as I walked out from the office.

Slowly I started to make my way down the hall, greeting and jumping up and down as I was smiling happily

I passed room 234 and i immediately recognized Mrs Lee serious voice

"I'm sorry..."

Suddenly I could her sobbing and big sighing. The atmosphere felt even heavier as I stopped right outside the room and sneek peeked into it

There was a girl.. around at the age 11 lying in her bed looking up at the ceiling. In the ceiling, there were several pictures of cartoons, fairytales and angels.

I saw her parents standing aside, her mom caressing her daughters hair as her father were watching his daughter with hurtful and sadness in his eyes

"So there is nothing we can do for now" I heard Mrs Lee say

Do what?

Her mom started to cry even more as the girl looked at her

"omma.. Gwenchana.." I heard the girl say

Tiny voice

"But we will inform you as soon as possible when there is a heart available"

My body froze as my eyes changed into shocked ones

"A heart.."

It suddenly connected inside my head

The girl on the bed were waiting for a heart transplantation as well.

But she's so young..

So young..

"Yoona, It's ok.. There will be a heart available soon" Mrs Lee said gently and bended down onto Yoona's height

I started to feel a bit guilty, compassion as I was watching her lying on the bed. She had all of her life ahead of her.. and yet she has to struggle with this..

This isn't fair..

Why is there even such things? making people suffer for nothing?!

No.. this isn't how it's suppose to be..

I looked at her

She's suppose to be in school with her friends, playing around, giggling while looking at boys.. isn't she?

I started to cry

I knocked on the door as I saw all of them spinning around and look at me confusingly

"Eunmi~~ssi.." Mrs Lee mumbled

I smiled as a tear fell

I greeted her parents and walked over to the bed slowly to look at Yoona

"Hey´there.." I whispered

My throat was thick as I was trying to keep my voice steady

"Oh.. Annyeong haseo.. Yoona Imnida~~" She whispered back at me

Another tear fell as I grabbed her hand and looked at her

"Why are you here? .. Aren't you suppose to be outside with your friends?"

Yoona shook her head

"I can't.. I'm sick."

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as I swallowed the big heavy lump

I looked at Mrs Lee

She nodded

"Exactly the same illness" She said

I looked at her parents. They watched their daughter with love, with painful eyes as they tried to keep up a bright spirit. Fighting for her life and not giving up hope

I shook my head

"You're waiting for a heart?" I whispered

She nodded

I started to shake as I watched her. Her eyes were completely tired. Her face blank and pale as a ghost. Her lips had already lost their color. Her hands were small. Needles connected and the EKG machine connected to her chest where her heart was beating. She was having tubes to her nose as well.

I couldn't stop cry..

Is this how it's going to be for me in a few months?

"Yoona, fell sick very sudden and after several tests and operations we finally found out that she had hyponatremia" Mrs lee explained

I was at loss

She's so young..

I took a deep breath, gathered my strength before looking at her again

"Take mine" I whispered

"Bwoh?" Mrs lee said

I sighed and looked at her gently

"Take my heart that is waiting" I whispered

Her parents gasped as I felt Yoona's eyes on me

I nodded slowly

"You're too young to lie in this bed. You're not suppose to miss your childhood.."

I felt her grip around my hand hardened

"But.. I.."

I shook my head

I looked at Mrs Lee seriously

"Give her my heart. I'm gonna wait for another one" I said

Mrs lee looked deeply into my eyes as I tried to be on my two own feet

"Please Excuse us" Mrs lee said and walked outside, with me behind her

She closed the door and looked at me

"Eunmi~~ssi"

I shook my head

"Give her my heart.. I'll wait"

"But..you"

"I know.. I know the consequences..I know the details and I know what's going to happen and I know how long it might take"

I looked to the side and into the room where Yoona was lying

"But she's so young.. Mrs Lee. She's way too young to lie there.. to even. . be in there. She's suppose to be in her school, learning new things and be with her friends" I said

Mrs lee listened to my explanation

"I'm going to give her my heart. She needs it more than I do. I can stand these headaches, the tiredness, the pain and the cramps. I believe.." I whispered

I inhaled a deep breath

"I believe.. that if God wants me too live, then I'll keep on living without any regrets. he has a plan for me.. But I'm changing my destiny, and his plan now. So after this, if he still wants me to live. Then I'll do it.. But if it's not.. then.. I'll just.. try to live my life to the fullest"

Mrs Lee looked at me. Teary eyed

"Eunmi.. are you sure?" She said and took my hand

I sobbed

I looked at Yoona who was in there

"I am.."

"Are you really sure? The time for a heart can be long and I don't know how your body is taking it" She said

I sobbed

"How long your heart can make it" She said

I shook my head

"Give it to her.." I said

After 5 minutes, Mrs Lee agreed and hugged me

She then left me in the hallway as she walked into Yoona and her family to announce the news.

I started to make my way out of there and down to the lobby. I went outside, took the nearest cab and got in, so that it could take me back to the college

I stared outside the window as I saw, rain drops hit the glass

This is exactly how my heart was feeling right now.. It was heavy.. And sad..

But I did make the right choice right?

I gave up my life for another.. person

I wiped away my tears

Now.. it's me.. against the time" I whispered