You guys really.... argghhh~~ You guys are great at making me ditch my sleep because of your storming responses! Seriously guys,, don't you sleep? or is our time zone too different? Ahhh~ i dun know anymore. I'm a zombie right now. 

i'm sorry i update it a little later than i promised. Sorry, i overslept just now. Miannhe~ 

Hurmm.. this is the last part of the 'breaking-up'. So,, now you know the...result,,then lemme rest for few days, alright?

Let's hope that I have enough inspiration and enlightment to write next chappie, so that i can update sooner. It's already past 4 and i... so sleepeehh!! KYAAKKK

Until then... mischief managed! 

*****

‘UNNIIII!’ I shout out loud but my voice doesn’t sound so loud in my own hearing. It sounds like a mere air looping with a weak string of voice.

I take a look around the room and I realize, it’s my villa’s room…it’s not the white beautiful room. I must be dreaming of unni.. I must be dreaming of unni saying Seunghyun is…

Before I finish the sentence in my head, I quickly turn around to check on Seunghyun.

My eyes transfix at the bed.

A rush of terror slaps my heart.

A string of cold sweat drains my head.

My heart beats wildly, almost ripping my heart out from my ribs.

Seunghyun is not there! Seunghyun is not at my side!

Panicking, I rush myself to get up and find Seunghyun.

‘Seunghyun!!!’ I shout weakly.

Damn this ing voice.

I walk in urgency towards the bathroom, hoping he’s there.

As I twist the door knob, I call for my love. “Seunghyun?’

Silence…

He’s not here.

No! it’s impossible.. he’s not leaving, right??

‘Seunghyun!!!’ I yell again with my every voice I have in my throat.

NO! he’s not leaving. He promised he’d stay… No! It’s impossible….

His backpack! Where’s his backpack? He puts it beside my cupboard yesterday.. Where has it gone? Please….

I walk briskly to the cupboard, slamming it opened.

It isn’t there. His backpack is not here..

Without much thinking, I dash towards the door, running downstairs.

He must be downstairs. He’s not leaving me… he has promised me.

Tears have rushing through my cheeks like I have enough tears to flood the whole Jeju with it. I don’t care anymore. I just need my Seunghyun right now.

‘Seunghyun!!’ I call him for countless times. I run as fast as I could. My heart beats like I haven’t had enough size for my lung.

I don’t realize I have been reached downstairs. I look around. It’s empty..as empty as my heart. I try to hear any sound, but none reaches my ears.

‘Seunghyun!!!’ I scream the name with my final strength left in my vocal box.

I hope for him to call me back, but all I hear is my own voice echoed, slapping my eardrums, mocking the bloodying of me.

I am dumbfounded. I am shocked. I am terrified. I am lost. I am shattered. I am broken.

I don’t know what other words to describe my feeling right now. I would never have enough word to describe it.

Although I know he wouldn’t be there, I open my unlocked door and hurry to check him outside. Although I know he might not be there, I want to check for myself… maybe he’s waiting for me there…

TUD!

CRACK!

The two sounds beat my eardrum in a split of second. I wince when my body kisses the solid ground. Motherer stairs!

I try to get up once more from the cold ground, but it is a matter of second when I fall back.

My ankle. I cannot move my right feet. Damn it! I must have sprained my ankle so bad I cannot move even an inch. Damn it!

‘ING STAIRS! ING ANKLE!’ I yell out madly as disappointment builds like a skyscraper in my heart. My sobs become wilder than before as I cry out, wailing and howling like a banshee in front of the villa, alone and hurt.

I slam myself on the ground hopelessly and helplessly, as I don’t give any damn anymore about everything else in the world.

Why would I ing care anymore?

I’ve tasted more than a hell in my life.

I’ve lost my life, my soul, my love…my Seunghyun..

Seunghyun has left me out. Seunghyun has left me alone.

‘come back…’ I croak the voice of an ant from my throat in utter desperation while despair has spread all over my body like a poison, killing me.

‘Seung…hyun…’ I call out the name of the love of my life. Another cascading of pain falls into my heart, as if thousands of arrows have been pierced mercilessly inside.

I has lost my sense when I can distinguish what kind of liquids that escaped and drenched my face. Either it is my storming tears, or my running nose, or the morning dew that starts to make its appearance on this ing earth.

I cry my eyes out so hard to the extend my head feels like being punching by The Rock or Undertaker of WWF wrestler. I’ve spilt everything through my tears; my sadness, my pain, my energy, my vain, and everything.. Everything until it left nothing.

I feel empty.

I feel alone.

I feel nothing.

Not even a single pain in my ankle, not a single string of sadness in my heart, not a single trace of hopelessness or downheartedness in my soul, not a single sting of ache in my lips nor a single particle of throbbing my head.

All I feel is nothing.

My world has gone black. I see black. And the last thing I’ve remembered, the blackness has crushed upon myself, me into a hole of dead black.