Each time I open and close my eyes to the image of furious Jiyong and I’d realized my earlier confession was nothing to him. After the surprise wear off, my heart would start to race and my palm would sweat; I couldn’t breathe again until he scoffs sarcastically.

I could tell he is not interested anymore- in anything I’m going to say. His face, his expression doesn’t not portray any stir of emotion- except the darkness of manic. The terror that is always foremost in my thoughts is approaching near the thin line when deep in my heart, I realize he is walking away from my safety zone. He is leaving.

I cannot concentrate on my normal life again- not after if he’s leaving me. The nightmare will always come back and kiss me in my dream. I would not dare to lose anyone precious in my life again.

“I love you, Ji.” I repeat. The desperation sounds clear in my own hearing. Jiyong does nothing, he doesn’t move nor does he speak. He just stand there, staring straight into my eyes. The tension between us raises. I know he’s not going to believe me again. But I do love him, I did. I do. I love Kwon Jiyong and I fear his leaving.

Seconds become minutes. And finally, Jiyong voices out. “You don’t have to lie anymore, Hyeri.” He stops. “You never love me.”

His words have transformed into a fierce blade, cutting every single cell in my heart. I couldn’t contain my numbness anymore, I let it all out. I let all my painful tears rain away. I am dizzy; it is hard to concentrate on anything. His words just swirl on my head, spinning and spinning. I freeze on my spot but my eyes are locking on Jiyong- he is taking his luggage and begins to step away from our room. His image of leaving, it grips my heart so tight I’m having difficulties in breathing.

Suddenly, the others images of Dana’s dying, Seunghyun’s walking away come and pound my heart mercilessly. I cannot think of anything else, they are just staying in my head, hurting my heart and wearying my body.

‘You bring nothing but a bad luck into my life!!!’

Mom’s voice starts ringing in my head.

‘You are just a death omen yourself.’

Another rings into my ears and it starts breaking its own prison. The whole bad accusation from my mother is utterly forbidden in my life, as I am well aware, but I cannot stop myself from preventing it resurfaced when I see Jiyong’s cold back is fading away.

‘You’re not worth to be loved, Choi Hyeri. In your life, all your loved one will leave you!’

A new painful memory resurfaces again after so long. My tears have no price anymore, they fall without someone buying it. I should be running from this memory as fast as I could, blocking the excruciating words from killing myself, protecting myself from numbness I couldn’t function without. I try, I tried to call for Jiyong, but all comes from my throat is just a useless and empty air.

I try to breathe normally. I need to concentrate, to find a way to prevent this nightmare from happening all over. I need to stop my mom’s false accusation from becoming true.

“wait!” I choke the word, reaching for Jiyong, willing my deadened legs to carry me forward.

I thought Jiyong would be reaching for me too. But his unsympathetic body seems to appear smaller as time passes.

“Ji!” I call for him, hoping he would at least sympathize for me.

“Jiyong!” With shaky legs, I try to match for his steps, ignoring the fact that he’s already meters away, I follow him to the main door. He shows no evidence to stop and look back at me for the last time, but I still walk forward wobbly without thinking. I cannot stop reaching for him. If I did, it will be over.

In your life, all your loved one will leave you!

I shake my head to get rid of the poisonous voice.

“Ji!” I call him again when I realize Jiyong is just a few inches away from the door.

“Jiyong!” I desperately cry his name when I see his hand twisting the door knob.

“Kwon Jiyong!” I dreadfully shriek for my only reason in my life.

My heart thumps frantically when I notice one of his feet has already outside the house. I hurry my weak step, I try to reach for him- then I stumble as I trip over the small stairs that lie across the living room. It goes black for a second but I try my best to keep myself conscious. Jiyong pull out his luggage out from the house and that’s all it takes for me to reach my limit.

“JIYONG, DON’T ING LEAVE ME LIKE OTHERS DID TO ME!” I shout with sudden urgency. Tears have completely blind my eyes so I cannot even sure either Jiyong is still there or not.

“Jiyong, don’t let my loved one leave me again. I love you, Kwon Jiyong. I really did! I’m sorry I didn’t realize it sooner.”

The air falls into pin-drop silence. I am waiting for any single sound, any small sound to sign me that Jiyong hasn’t leaving me yet, but reality doesn’t surprise me. He is gone.

I couldn’t help from crying pathetically on the floor. I don’t even bother to get up. I roll onto my side, so that I could breathe and curl up on the cold floor.

“I love you, Jiyong. I really do. But you leave me like Dana did, like my mom did, like Seunghyun did, like everyone else did.” My voice is broken to my own hearing, cracking. I know Jiyong would never hear any of it, but nor I did stop. “You make my mom’s words become true, Ji. She said my loved one will always leave m-”

“I’m still here.”

I smile in sadness. Jiyong’s voice sounds quiet and peaceful, just the way I remember and will remember it.

“I love you, Kwon Jiyong.” I sob.

“I love you too.”

I hear the voice again. It is muted, muffled by my own loud sobbing. I thought about searching for its direction, but I am dazed, and it takes me long enough to come to conclusion that Jiyong has left me all alone.

“Hyeri..” Jiyong’s voice sounds again. It is nearer this time. I try to breathe deeply- trying to get rid of my hallucination. I wait for to feel the pain upon hearing his voice. But I didn’t-just numb.

All of sudden, I feel warmth spreading on my left arm. I am alarmed. The touch is familiar enough but it full of suspicious. It doesn’t holding me to bring more pain, it is holding me to share its warmness. I clear my eyes from the blinding tears, and stare up to the source of the warmth. I recognize the familiar frame, I am vaguely aware than the figure is real enough as he scoops his other hand behind my neck.

“What are you staring at, you bad girl?”

I know the words meant something, but I could only stare, bewildered. I am not sure whether I’m still hallucinating or fading into another world, but the image of image seems vivid enough before my eyes.

“I hate you, Kwon Hyeri.” His upset yet soft voice knocks my eardrum again. I’m battling inside whether this is real or not.

“Don’t leave me…” I said, in the mixture of sobbing and croaking.

“I wont.”

“Are you real?”

“I am.”

“Ji…”

“hurmm?”

“hug me.”

A tight and warm arms that wrap around me assures me that Jiyong is real. This is real. He is not leaving me. I could not contain my feeling over this fact. Without wasting any second, I throw my arms around his torso, securing him in my touch. My tears start to fall again, but this time, grateful and happiness are the reason behind it.

“I’m sorry, Ji. I truly am.” I apologize as soon as Jiyong loosens his grip. I look into his orb, searching for forgiveness that I hope he could spare me with.

I couldn’t see any infuriated sign on his face, instead, he’s giving me a smile- a beautiful smile.

“I forgive you…on one condition.”

“anything, Ji.”

“Never mention or set your gaze on other man except me!” Jiyong squeeze my arms, like he is warning me, in a nice way.

I smile apologetically, “Never again.” I promise.

Jiyong smiles too. This time, he presses his lips on mine softly, spreading his love like he always did, and always will. 

hehehehehehehehehehehe, are you guys mad at me?

haha, Jiyong's character is one nice and soft-hearted heart. I just write it based on his character. Dont hate Hyeri,though. Hate her mom.

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Oh, by the way, do you miss hawtie y moments? I'm planning to write another y time of 'em but im not sure to write or just light . Im battling myself, you know. 

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