I can't believe what's happening right now. I'm sitting...on a jackass. I can't believe he told me to shut up and I just nodded my head like an obedient little girl. What is wrong with me?

​My heart is beating so fast right now. Up close, he's actually really handsome. His chest is so firm and I can tell he works out because his arms that are wrapped around my waist feel muscular. I totally take back calling him a fat . He's way too y-

"What the am I thinking. Idiot. Idiot. Idiot." Maybe if I slap myself hard enough the thoughts of Hoya being y will go away.

"We both know you're an idiot, so there's no use of saying it out loud." Okay, no. He might be y but he's a complete ! Ugh! Why can't I push myself away?! It's just so nice being held by him...NO! NO! NO! Tiffany get back to your senses! I have to get away from this jerk.

"I'm going back the apartment." Finally out of his grasp. *sigh* Why didn't a push him away earlier? I hope he didn't notice how fast my heart was beating. Aish! My face must've been really red. How embarrassing.

For some reason, I feel like he's doing all of this just so I do what he tells me....

​I'd do whatever he tells me to do in bed.

​Oh my god. What am I  thinking!? I've finally lost it. I'm crazy. 

​Crazy in love....

That's it. I've gone crazy. My brain is thinking things I don't want it to.