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Key's P.O.V

Taking a deep breath letting the cold night air fill his lungs Key slowly turned the doorknob around, so he could enter the dorm. It had gotten later than he thought it would be, as he had had his late classes and afterwards had to practice a dance routine for his class next day.

Even though he wouldn't admit it to Jonghyun, he had come way behind on his own assignments after spending a weekend with the older boy.

He opened the door silently, as he slowly took a step inside making sure, that he didn't fell over the pair of shoes lying around. (How many times did he have to tell them all, that they should move their shoes?)

A loud click could be heard, as he had let the door behind him close on its own, and he held his breath listened for even a small sound telling him, that he had woken anyone up - but nothing.

It was all quiet, and Key took the chance to take a step into the dorm, when he noticed that someone was lying on the couch. Jonghyun was lying on the couch.

Had he been waiting for him? But why? Key knew that Jonghyun probably hadn't felt that good about him holding Woohyun's hand and all the hugging, but it was nothing new, so he couldn't really see the problem with it. It wasn't like he had been cheating or anything.

As if Jonghyun could feel the younger presence, he lifted his head and looked straight at Key. He seemed a little sleep drunken, and his voice was quite husky, as he finally spoke, "Key?"

"Yes?" Key whispered, walking the few steps it took to get over to the couch, as he sat down beside Jonghyun, "What is it?"

"I was waiting for you," rubbing his eye to wake himself up, Jonghyun sat up straight in the couch looking at Key, who guilty looked down at his own hands.

"I had class," it wasn't more than a loud muffling sound there left Key's dry throat. He didn't feel like, he had done anything wrong, but he felt bad about letting Jonghyun worry like that.

"But I told you to meet at home," Jonghyun still wasn't fully awake, and Key couldn't help but reach out and run his hand through the older boy's dark brown hair, but he grabbed his hand and stopped him making Key look confused at Jonghyun.

"I couldn't just skip my classes - I'm already behind." It was by now Key stood up and walked over to the kitchen table, so he wouldn't do something stupid as hit Jonghyun, because he got mad.

"But you could be with Woohyun, while I was having the biggest test of my life?" Jonghyun sneered, as he stared openly at Key waiting for the right response - but Key didn't know the right answer - it wasn't like an equation with only one result.

"I was worried death about you," this argument seemed stupid to Key, but he didn't want Jonghyun to be mad at him, "I needed to do something else but walk back and forth all day waiting for you!"

"Oh right," Jonghyun sneered once again standing up from the couch, so he could face Key better, "so that's why you went out to flirt with another guy?"

"He's my best friend Jonghyun!" Key exclaimed staring at the older boy in disbelief. How could he get jealous about him having friends? It wasn't like he had told him to stop talking to Onew.

"At least that's what you're saying," Key crossed his arms to hug himself, as Jonghyun spoke those harsh words to him. Why were they even having this fight? A single teardrop left Key's eye, and surprised both of them.

"But is wasn't li-" a few more tears fell, as he stared into the thin air trying to get himself together.

"I don't believe you," Jonghyun stated as he had regained his composure after Key had starting crying.

Key kicked the chair besides him, as he looked up at Jonghyun with tear- cheeks, who just stared hurt back at him, "why won't you believe me?"

"You held his God damn hand Key!" It was a frustrated reply followed by a huge sigh that almost broke Key's heart.

They hadn't even been together for a whole week yet. He hadn't been able to call the guy in front of him his boyfriend for more than a week, and they were already fighting. What was wrong with them?

"I've always held his hand," Key stomped at the ground letting another tear fall down his cheek, "He has been my best friend forever."

"Did you even think about me? How I would feel about it?" Key watched Jonghyun clench his fists at his side to control how much they were shaking by then.

Why couldn't he just listen? Key had had Jonghyun in his thoughts the whole time. When he had held Woohyun's hand, he had kept comparing it to Jonghyun's, whose hand seemed to fit his own perfectly - a perfect match. And when he had hugged his friend, he couldn't help but notice, that Jonghyun's hugs were warmer.

"I did," Key got himself together. Ranked his back. Stared Jonghyun into his dark brown eyes. "I thought about you the whole time."

"Really?" Jonghyun crossed his arms shifting in his position, as he shook his head in denial, "how about when I said, that I would meet you at home, but you only showed up now?"

"Because I needed to think God damn it Jonghyun!" Key exclaimed rather loud, as he wiped away his tears once again with his already wet sleeve, "I needed to think."

Finally Key was honest about being late. He had thought, if he told Jonghyun a small white lie, he would have believed in him, but he didn't. Key had needed the time alone to figure out, why Jonghyun had seemed so hurt - but he still didn't understand.

"You were probably together with Woohyun, as you thought," Jonghyun stated harshly trying to catch Key's gaze, but he looked away angry at himself, that he couldn't stop his tears.

Couldn't Jonghyun see that he was in pain? That he didn't want it to go this way. Did he really think, that he would be crying this hard, if it wasn't because he regretted it? Never had he felt guiltier in his entire life - and he hadn't even done anything wrong.

Playing with the bottom of his shirt nervously, Key kept avoiding his lover's eyes. He would never be able to understand how someone could get that jealous, but he knew he had brought it upon himself.

Key didn't know what had happened to him. He had never regretted like this in a situation before. He would always have a sharp, funny, sarcastic comment ready about everything, and even if that wasn't the case, he would have so much attitude that no one would dare take up the argument.

"Jonghyun I don't understand," he had to take a deep breath in order not to choke on his words, but he somehow managed to say a full sentence without breaking down, "just what did I do wrong?"

"You held hands with another guy Key!" It seemed like a crime to Key, as he watched the hurt flash by in Jonghyun's eyes just to get replaced with the same ice cold stare, he had worn since Key had entered the dorm and woke him up, "you even hugged him."

"But I did that even before the two of us got together," Key decided that it probably would be a lot easier to try and reason with the older, but the hope about getting him to understand was slowly dying, "if it really meant something to me, then do you truly believe I would be together with you now?"

Letting the question hang in the air for awhile, Key watched Jonghyun shift uncomfortably once again, but this time he met his gaze, so he would understand, that he was being honest - completely honest, "Honestly Jonghyun - I didn't even know that I was gay, before I met you!"

"That's easy enough for you to say," even though another harsh remark left Jonghyun's perfect lips, Key could finally see, that Jonghyun was really hurt from this. That even though it hadn't seemed like that big of a deal to Key, it had been to Jonghyun.

"Jonghyun," Key sighed, as he took a step forward not breaking their eye contact even once, "You'll kill me slowly from the inside, if you get this jealous."

They had to understand each other. Key had to get through to Jonghyun. They couldn't break up. Key wouldn't allow it, as he slowly regained his usual strength.

"Listen up Jonghyun," running one hand through his hair and letting another rest on his hip, he looked calmly at the older boy, who now seemed to being uncomfortable about the situation, "I love you - only you."

"But-"

"No buts," clicking his tongue Key walked over to Jonghyun, who still was standing by the couch to take his hand and intertwine their fingers, "no one's hand fits mine as perfect as yours. Our hands must have known that we would get together, or it wouldn't have been this perfect."

Taking a step closer, so their chests were almost touching, Kibum bowed down to Jonghyun's ear, so he could whisper the next thing, as he hugged the older boy, "your hugs are the warmest of all the hugs, I've ever felt. And my heart races so fast just by your touch, and I never want you to let go."

Key smiled satisfied, as he felt Jonghyun shiver in delight from his breath caressing his ear. He knew that he was getting through to the older boy, and he felt happy once again - as if a missing piece from his heart had found home again.

Shifting a bit in his position, before he looked at Jonghyun, who had lots of regret flashing through his eyes, before Key placed his lips on top of the older boy's, "it's okay now. I forgive you."

Key didn't have to say that twice, before Jonghyun deepened the kiss. It was passionate and longing, as if it was their first kiss ever. If this was how their kisses would be every time, they had fought, Key wouldn't mind arguing at all.

"Okay ew," both of them broke apart to look over at the person, who just had interrupted them, as they were making out, "if you have to kiss can't you get a room or something?"

Sticking his tongue out towards Taemin Key couldn't help but laugh. He knew that Taemin had gotten worried after hearing them fight, so he wanted to check it out, before someone got killed, but instead he had found them kissing.

"Okay," Jonghyun had gotten his bright smile back, as he grabbed Key and walked towards his own room, "I'll just kiss my boyfriend in my room then!"

"Goodnight Taemin," Key said loud enough for the younger to hear, as he laughed about how eager Jonghyun seemed to sleep in the same room.

Jonghyun pushed Key up against the door, as he closed it, so he could kiss him passionately. His tongue found its way inside Key's mouth, who allowed him access right away.

Smiling into the kiss Key roamed the older's body, who moaned a little into the kiss enjoying every little touch.

The warmth beneath Key's fingers, as it traveled over Jonghyun's well built stomach, almost burned, as he rested them there.

Jonghyun broke the kiss to start kissing Key's jaw line, as he started fumbling with the younger's shirt. It was in the way.

At the same time they both looked each other straight into their eyes to make sure that they both were approving. That it felt right for the both of them.

But it wasn't just right.

It was ing perfect, and they both knew it.

Key felt Jonghyun playing with the hem of his shirt nervously, before he took a firm grip to take it off him. Quickly he lifted his hands to make it easier for the older, and it didn't take long before it was off, and Jonghyun's perfect lips had found their way to Key's perfect neckline to trail small hot kisses, which made Key moan in pleasure.

But this wasn't completely perfect.

Not yet.

Turning both of them round Key now pinned Jonghyun to door, as he started struggling with the older's shirt as well. He needed to know what it felt like having their bare chests touch each other.

The shirt was soon lying on the floor beside them, as they explored each other's bodies with their fingers - leaving a hot spot behind wherever they touched.

Key started fumbling with Jonghyun's belt, when-

"CAN'T YOU GUYS GO HAVE SOMEWHERE ELSE, SO WE CAN SLEEP?" Minho's voice was loud and clear making it hard to believe, that he had been sleeping, but they both broke apart, staring into each other eyes not really believing what just had happened between them.

They had let their hormones take over instead of using their brains for once - and it had felt good.

"AND KEY YOU PROMISED YOU WOULD MAKE ME CHICKEN TOMORROW MORNING!" Onew supplied from another room.

They both broke into silent laughter, as they realized, that they had been so loud, that they had woken everyone up. Not that they felt bad about it.

"Let's just ignore them," Jonghyun whispered seductively, as he kissed Key on the lips making the younger guy moan a bit just from the pleasure of being kissed from the guy he loved.

"No we need to sleep," he laughed, as he pushed himself off Jonghyun, who he had pinned to the door, "come on."

He took the older's hand and almost dragged him all the way to the bed, where they both laid down - but they didn't sleep, before Key had made sure that Jonghyun's arm was placed around his waist, and he had gotten a goodnight kiss. 

Written by MapiHyperMonkey

A/N: Hi everyone! :D Just a fun little fact about this chapter: I had already written half of it, before Legende even started on chapter 33! Why? Because I love writing scenes, where people argue! All the drama! (I know I - thank you! :D)
It's not the best chapter ever, as I'm lying sick with influenza and a fever and everything. lol. But I hope you guys still enjoy it :D