~I know now that a deep love
only brings about a sad ending

Hey you, I pray that your next love
won't be like this love, without any pain

You have to be happier than me~

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The sound of a few gentle knocks on the door caused her to lift her head from her knees. Her heart which had come down only recently started jumping inside her chest again.

"Sunmi... Please just come out. I am going nuts." Chan muttered to the closed door pleadingly.

She pressed her lips on each other wanting to say something but words wouldn't just come out.

"I know you mad at me and i know i should be saying i am sorry but i won't cause that would be a lie...but i promise not to cross any lines again. Just come out. I am hating myself at the moment. "

She sighed through her nose. Since morning till now which was already afternoon she has tried her best to be mad at him. To find a little reason to hate him but have found none. She was not mad. No matter how desperately she wanted that, no matter how badly she needed that still she was not mad. She was just...she didn't know what she is feeling.

She stared at the ring on her finger letting out another shaky sigh. The ring that she never cared about. As if it was not even there but now it seemed like the little ring is weighing her down.

"Why aren't you answering damn it?" Chan said trying to refrain himself from kicking the door. It was only the first day of the week and he has messed everything big time.

In all her life sunmi has been only kissed by taehyung and him. Maybe that was the reason she was making a huge deal out of simple kiss. People kiss random strangers every day. Why am I being so dramatic? And it's okay to have those feelings while being kissed. It's the natural way of your body reacting. She stated this facts inside her hazy mind once more.

She had to go out and act cool about it. They had six more days to go.

Chan knocked on the door once again letting his forehead rest on for a single second. Then he heard footsteps and jumped back as the door knob started moving. His huge set of eyes turned even bigger as sunmi stared at him with a neutral expression on her face.

"y...you okay?" he asked after swallowing hard.

"Yeah why shouldn't I be?" she said projecting a small smile walking to the kitchen.

"Please don't..." Chan sighed out looking at her back.

She stopped half way and turned to look back at him with a set of questioning eyes.

"I don't wanna act like nothing happened again. Let's just face it! Slap me or anything but don't force me to pretend again. I had enough of that sunmi. Cause you know I never stopped loving you I just stopped showing it and I practically died every single day trying not to blow my god damn covers...I am not that patient and I am not that tricky so you can easily imagine what a hell I have been through." Chan said with a tired voice keeping his gaze fixed on her.

She took a deep breath and muttered: "okay let's face it...I have nothing against that if you think it's the best way.so here it is... I like you! I don't know whether I like you as a friend or more. I just simply do but there is taehyung. I have been in love with him since I can remember and I can't even imagine having to let go of him again and it ing hurts seeing you being sad over me. You are the nicest person I have ever met in my life. You are kind to me and make me feel safe and everything but...but I can't let go of him. you make me confused and I don't like that...so pretending is all I can do...so you see nothing good comes out of being honest cause it makes everything even more complicated" she breathed out tears rolling down her cheeks as Chan was staring at her with widened eyes. She wiped her face with the back of her hand and muttered:" you can't imagine how badly I want to make you happy like you did for me but I am useless...I can't give you what you want and just love you. My heart can't...I don't know what is wrong with my stupid heart but all it wants is him..."

"That's enough." Chan said softly walking up to her and put his arms around her.

She snake her hands around his torso and placed her head on his chest.

"I'm sorry chan..." she whispered.

"It's not your fault baby." He mumbled keeping his sigh inside. She would never love him like the way he did. He told himself every day that he has to face that fact but still woke up the next day hoping. He felt the tears stinging in his eyes but he blinked fast and stopped them before they can even start to gather up and flow.

"i...I won't pretend that it didn't happen. If it really annoys you." Sunmi mumbled on his chest.

Chan pressed his lips on each other and said:" it was my fault I made everything uncomfortable."

"No it was not...I understand. Forget it." she said looking up at him.

"But if I haven't..." his sentence was cut short when a pair of soft lips gently brushed against his in a short kiss.

"Now I made everything uncomfortable too. It's my fault now...let's not talk about it and make dinner." Sunmi exclaimed with a low voice walking away from him and to the kitchen as Chan stood there shell shocked.

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"chinngoooo!" sunmi and Seoyon screamed in unison as they ran into each other's arms like they haven't met just a few days ago. Jimin covered his ears as he shoved both of them away from the door and walked inside. But kookie stayed at his place patiently waiting for them to get out the way. Sunmi chuckled seeing him because this showed Seoyon and he are back on good terms again.

They have decided to invite their friends over and spent the