I  was the one you always dreamed of

you were the one i tried to draw

how dare you say it's nothing to me?

baby you are the only light i ever saw...

(john mayer. slow dancing in a burning room)

Chanyeol pov

Kayoung called me sooner than i thought, she was so forward about her feelings and i didn't know how i am supposed to feel about that.
I was so used to being the one having feelings that it was so outrageous for me receiving them.

Even right now that i was waiting for her to get out of their house i was still unsure...is it right to use her like this? Like an experiment to see whether i can move on or not. I don't wanna play with the feelings of an innocent girl but i guess it was already too late for that.

A few seconds later she came out the house with fast steps and got in the car.

"Sorry oppa...did you wait long?" She asked.

I shook my head as a no."it's ok. You didn't take long...so where do you wanna go?"

"I can pick?" She asked with a smile.

"Yeah of course!"

"Hmm....can we go somewhere and just have a walk? Maybe after it we can eat something... "

"Ok." I nodded and started the car.

She seemed really happy about everything. If only sunmi felt the same....

STOP THINKING ABOUT HER PARK CHANYEOL! I yelled at myself internally.

"Chan oppa?"

I gave her a fast look. "what is it?"

"Why did you agree to come out with me?" She asked staring at her hands.

I didn't know what to say. Truth would hurt her and i also don't wanna lie.

"Why you asking that?" I tried to avoid the question.

She smiled briefly. "I'm just curious... you know that day at the amusement park i was sure you love sunmi eonni...but still i asked you out. Cause i didn't want to have regrets later...but to be honest i never thought you would accept... "

Am i that obvious to everyone?????

"Why did you think like that?" I asked.

She smiled:" i don't know...girls realize stuff like this fast..."

It was silent after that. I didn't want to answer her question and i guess she got that because she didn't ask again. I already knew this won't work but i wasn't going to stop. Maybe a miracle would happen for my heart....

*******

I shut the door behind my back and threw my body on the bed face down. Well to be honest i had fun... but not considering it as a date, as just two friends going out.

Kayoung was a nice girl. She had a bright and strong personality and she was really in tune with her emotions...she was cute too. But she was not sunmi... i hated the fact that my mind wouldn't stop bringing this fact up.

I stood like that for another five minu