Why?

 

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You’s pov:

 

 

 

 

 

 

I was seating at the corner of the restaurant as I watch the cars passing by and some people too, and I was thinking about what had happen awhile ago, my heart feel confuse and empty, I shouldn’t be thinking about taeyeon but the look in her eyes when she look at me stuck on my brain, like there’s something that she wanna ask or say, I wanted to talk and ask how she is, but I have to hold myself I still missing her of course I do, she became a part of my life too, and she still deep in my heart just hiding somewhere, those years being with her is hard to forget even im with jessica now, and I dont want to hurt jessica, she loves me so much and I cant bare to see her cry, but these damn heart still have an effect on taeyeon, why did she have to come back in the picture, my mind was telling me that I don’t want to see her anymore but my heart was longing for her, I don’t know what to do now, confuse was on my heart,

 

I was still looking outside looking at the empty street now as my heart betray me, as I was missing taeyeon, I should slap my face right now I shouldn’t be feeling this way, I’m with jessica now, you should think this way ____, think about jessica, you don’t want to hurt her right? And now what?? Your missing taeyeon, I wanted to cry, to cry this feeling building up with me, my walls that I build for months now with jessica just crumble down into pieces, my heart feels heavy, as I bit my lips to prevent from crying, think about jessica ____, you love her don’t you? so stop this foolish you were feeling right now,

As I was still in my own world when I felt someone holds my shoulder, as I look up and saw yuri who’s staring at me carefully, I smile weakly at her as she seated herself beside me and ask,

 

“why you were looking at the street ___? You look like you were in your own world” while she look at me intensely. As she was waiting for me to talk,

I look at her and just smile at her weakly, she look at me confuse as I said.

“nothing yul I was just admiring the streets okay, nothing more” she knit her brows at me and said.

“I know it’s not the reason ___, you look like you’re about to cry, tell me, do you have a problem?” I slowly shook my head, as I smile at her to assure her, as I said,

“were done here right? I’ll be going then” I stand up as yuri take a hold of my wrist as she look up and said,

“­­­­____ tell me what’s wrong okay, did something happen?” I look at her as I hold her hand and said,

“I’m fine yul and nothing’s happening, so I’m going now I’ll see you tomorrow” I smile at her, she stand up and went to me while hugging me and said.

“tell me if you’re ready ____ okay, you know I’ll be always here for you” she tap my back, as I just nod at her while she release her hug and I bid her goodbye, she suggest to take me home but I refuse her,

 

 

 

I’m outside waiting for the taxi, but I guess there’s no taix, I walk as I decided to take a bus, after minutes the bus came, as I went in and pay, I seated myself at the backseat as I lean my head on the window, as my mind was thinking about taeyeon, after some moments I feel my phone beep, as I get it my phone on my pocket as I read the message,

 

~jagiya I miss you so much, I’m still at the studio, having the pictorial, I wanna see you and hug you now, I’m too tired here hehe but I have to do this, I’ll see you soon,, saranghae~

 

 

i slowly smile as I read the message, as I forgot what’s on my mind awhile ago, and decided to call her, and I hope she’s not busy, I dialed her number as I waited for her to answer, just one ring she answer it immediately.

 

‘jagiya!!!’

‘oh sicababy you sounds excited huh’

‘oh hehe sorry I just miss you that’s all’

‘sorry I haven’t message you sicababy’

‘na its okay I know your busy to’

‘okay thanks sicababy’

‘you’re welcome jagiya’

‘so what you were doing now sicababy? And oh I miss you too’

‘I’m just looking at the pictorial jagiya hopefullu we will be able to finish this, what about you?’

‘I’m taking a bus going home’

‘oh why did you not take taxi jagiya? Just be careful okay?’

‘yeah I will sicababy you too okay?’

‘hmm i will too jagiya and I will see you later’

‘okay sicababy, you want me to go there and take you home? Although I’m going to take a ride from your car hehe’

‘hehe that’s  fine jagiya I’ll be going home late and I don’t want you to wait and get bored here’

‘okay sicababy just call me if anything happens okay?’

‘okay jagiya I love you’

‘I love you too sicababy and I’ll see you at home. I’ll be waiting for you’

‘okay jagiya bye bye I’ll see you at home’

‘bye’

‘hang up now jagiya’

‘you go first’

‘but I don’t want to hang up first because I’ll be missing you’

‘I’ll be missing you too sicababy I miss you every seconds, minutes, even your just beside me’

‘awwww why you’re so sweet jagiya and now I’m missing you more’

‘hehe I know your pouting now and im not there to kiss your lips so stop pouting before I went there and can’t handle myself hehe’

‘okay I’ll stop pouting hehe bye jagiya love you’

‘I love you too, hang up now’

‘arrasoyeo’

‘bye sicbaby’

‘bye’

 

 

 

 

As the phone conversations was done, as I can’t help to smile like an idiot and I feel like my jaw is going to break from smiling, and my heart feels warm, jessica always makes me smile even just a simple way and I’m thankful for her, I decided to message jessica telling her that I miss her and I’ll see her later, after moments the bus stop at where my destination is, as I stand up and went out, I just walk towards my home as I was smiling again because of jessica,

 

 

 

 

 

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Jessica’s pov:

 

 

 

 

 

After ___ left, I was worried about her, she look trouble when she bid goodbye from us and I feel like I was so scared on the way taeyeon look at ____, that look I’ve seen that before,, those are the look she’s giving me when she got jealous because of me. I was asking myself why she would be jealous if she already have tiffany and she’s the one who broke up with ___, don’t tell me she still love ___? No it can’t be true. It’s been almost a year now. I really don’t know what got into me, why would I think this way, I shook my thoughts off and sooyoung look at me confuse she might have notice me shaking my heads and ask.

 

“hey you okay?” I nod and just continue to look at the pictorial as I hear sooyoung said,

“if your okay why are you spacing out and you mind was not here?” she ask as I look at her and said,

“I was just thinking about something but nothing to worry about okay” she nods as she didn’t bother to ask me further. As I think again what happen, what if taeyeon will be back and get ___? What if ____ leaves me and go for taeyeon? Then what will happen to me? the way ___ look at taeyeon was something too, like she was observing taeyeon but was frowning, I don’t know what to think anymore, stop thinking negatives jessica, ___ is your girlfriend now, and I won’t let taeyeon to get in our way if she still have feelings to ____, I will put up a fight and never let go of ___i love her and I know she loves me too. I will protect this relationship that I was waiting for, taeyeon can’t ruin this, we were happy now and I won’t break that happiness and let taeyeon,

 

 

 

 

The pictorial is done, as I look at me clock and it shows 12midnight, I was saying thanks to the stuff for the job they done, I went to the photographer as I was thanking him and said that it was his job to do, as I give him a smile and bow at him, I saw sooyoung was talking to the editor of the magazine, as I was about to went there when I hear tiffany said,

“Jessie” I turn my body to face her as I saw her smiling at me and said,

“ohh thanks god the pictorial was done and successful”

“yeah and thanks for modeling for us” I smile genuine at her and she shook her head and said,

“you don’t have to mention it jessica and I’m willing to do it and also, I get a salary so haha yeah”

“right hehe” I giggle as she stop laughing and said,

“I hope I could be a designer too, if dad didn’t ask favor to become the ceo, I would have my own fashion too” tiffany said, as I just chuckle at her and said,

“at least your still famous and own a company now, and you happy”

“yeah I’m so much happy now, I have the things I want, the money and a beautiful and caring girlfriend, hehe she’s just too cute and I love her so much” tiffany said, but my mi