Him

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You’s pov:

Jessica is still have doubts on me, and I can’t blame her for that, I just wish she could have trust me when I said I love her, cause I really do, taeyeon maybe still in my heart but that doesn’t mean that I love her, I’m in love with jessica now. And I’m sure of it, I still hugging jessica for the past 5mins now, as I feel her release the hug and she look at me and said,

“I’m thirsty” she pouts as I chuckle at her and said,

“well you want to go downstairs or I will just get some water for you?”

“let’s go downstairs jagiya”

“okay then” I smile at her and hold her hand as we went out of the room,

@the kitchen,

We’re going to the kitchen when I saw krystal glaring at me, as I just smile at her, what did I do now? I give her a ‘what look’ but she role her eyes on me and went to the kitchen, that girl when she’ll be able to trust me? I feel jessica tap my shoulder and I look at her, she was asking if I’m okay, I just nodded and we went to the kitchen, I saw umma and auntie already finish what they cooking at they look at us and said.

“oh baby come and help us set up the table,” umma said as I nodded and told jessica to go with her sister and call yuri, yoona and seohyun, and unlce to eat, she nodded and let go of my hands and went to her sister whose giving me a cold glare. They went out as I help umma and auntie to set up the table, I went to the table and set up putting plates and utensils and napkins, as I was done, I get the food that umma was carrying and place them, aunite look at me and ask,

“where’s jessica?”

“ohh I ask her to call them to eat auntie”

“ohh okay” she smile at me as I response with a smile too, umma went to my side and side hug me, I saw yuri and yoona wave at us, and I gesture them to seat down, the table is fitted us all, auntie ask yoona where’s uncle as yoona told her that krystal and jessica call him, after minutes I saw my girlfriend whose clingy to her sister and uncle just behind them, auntie went to uncle and drag him in the table, as I was about to seat to went to jessica when her sister drag her and seated themselves beside yuri, jessica look apologetic on me as I just flash her a smile telling her that it’s okay, I seat myself beside umma and auntie and uncle just seated in the middle, while seohyun just got here and seated herself beside me, I was seating in front of krystal who was looking straight to my eyes, why she’s mad at me now, as I look at jessica and who look at me smiling, as we heard uncle told us to eat, the lunch was actually fun, as uncle told us about his love story with auntie im, even umma told hers too and it’s about my father, but she doesn’t told them that it was my dad but I just thought she was mad at him, I feel myself boiling up and getting mad at the person she was talking about, well who wouldn’t mad at someone who leaves you behind?,  and I am mad at him for leaving me and umma when I’m just still a baby, and I don’t want to see him again, as I was clenching my fist when I notice seohyun nudge at me telling me if I’m okay, I look at her and nodded, umma still talking about her love story why does she still remembering that time? Even she was left behind. Umma didn’t actually talk about father to me, and I don’t even seen his face, if I ask about father umma would just change the topic but why she’s talking and telling this to them? Maybe it’s not father that her talking about? I look at umma how happy she was talking about the person, as I was curious and ask,

“what his name umma?” umma stop talking as she look at me, people around us look at me too as I look firmly at umma, and I saw in her eyes that she was nervous, and umma said,

“o-o-oh it’s nothing baby, it was too long ago and I forget about his name” umma stuttered but compose herself, and I know she was hiding something, as I ask,

“if it was nothing why did you stuttered?” she look at me again like she doesn’t want to ask me this kind of question, as the people around as, was worried and getting tense up,

“it was him right?” I ask, and umma didn’t utter a word and I saw she was shock and I know, that she’s clearly talking to father now, as I clenching harder on the fork, and said,

“I’m sorry guys, I will just go to the restroom” I stand up immediately and didn’t bother to look again, as I just went outside of the house and get some fresh air, why does umma talk about him in front of them? But when I ask her she doesn’t want to talk about it, she clearly knows that I’m mad at the person, but still his still my father and maybe I still want to know this guy who abandon us, as I walk to the garden and seated myself at the ground when someone hug me from behind and said,

“you okay jagiya?” I nodded and didn’t look at her, she remind silent maybe she doesn’t want to ask me, but after minutes she spoke,

“is there something bothering you?” I release her hands on my shoulder as I look at her, and I see her shock face and wipe my tears, I didn’t even know why I cry, she hug me and soothe me, as I just hug her and let myself cry on her shoulders, after some minutes I stop crying and jessica look at me worried and hold my face, as I just feel her warm on me and close my eyes, we just stay like that for 5 minutes as we heard footsteps as we look who was it, it was umma, looking nervous at me, jessica excuse herself and kiss my forehead and walk towards umma, and saw her hug her briefly and leave us alone, umma approach me as I look away, she hold my shoulder and said,

“your right baby it was him” I feel my heart hurt, so that mean she’s still in love with the jerk who left us? I clench my fist as umma hold it gently and said,

“he was my first love” I look at umma confuse on why she’s telling me that. She just seated herself on my side and told me to listen to her,

“I didn’t told about him, because I thought you would be mad at me” she looks at nowhere as I just said okay, as she continues.

“I meet him at the university, he was a famous basketball player, and I was just ordinary girl, who always watch his crush on the court,” I look at her, as she smile and said,

“it was your father that I always wanted to see on the basketball court, every girls like him, including me, he was every girls want, he has a good background his smart, handsome and kind, and he was a gentleman, i remember I stalk him one day, and he knows about it but let me stalk him, I always put some letters on his locker, one day I wanted to confess to him but, I was scared cause, when I know his really rich, I doubt that he would like me too, so all I did was just looking at him by far, as I continue my studies, and I also forget about going to the basketball court, cause I know I don’t have any chance for him, but one day when I was going home when I saw him at the school gate, I was happy but I ignore him and was going home, but when he approach me and ask, why I didn’t go the court again, I was shock on how did he knows I was there, and when he said, that he always saw me stalking him, I feel myself embarrass and he laughs at me, when I see him laughs I was feeling butterfly on my tummy and I know that I was falling in love with him, that day onwards we become friends, I even get a lot of enemies cause why an ordinary girl whose talking to a rich man and a popular guy in school, one time, I can’t handle all the rumors as I told you father that I don’t want to be his friend, he was mad at me and told me okay, but after just 2 days, he confessed on me and said, that he was in love with me, I was happy so much happy but scared, what he did was to ask me to run away with him, but i told him I can’t cause I wanted to finish my study, so we came up on the decision to keep our relationship, and after we graduated, we keep it, as he ask me again to run away from him, I totally love him so I agreed, and went to live with him, your grandpa was so furious on me, but he let me be when he heard that, I was pregnant at your sister, your dad parents doesn’t know, but when you father has all the courage he ask me to go with him and meet his parents, but things was not on our luck as his parents doesn’t want us, and want to break us apart, your dad parents ask your dad to choose his wealth or me, I thought I’m not going to see him but he clearly stated that he would choose me, as I was happy but at the same time sad, your dad choose me, and we live our lives, with you older sister and got married, but things went out of hand as I saw your dad struggle and didn’t like the life he get, he always get mad, always telling me that he was tired, and why he choose this life, I was hurt but i just understand him cause, his not use to live an ordinary life and maybe he was just stress, but his love for me change, and one day he ask me to divorce him, I was hurt and shock, I said I don’t want but, one day he run away with you sister, I look for him but I didn’t saw him, even months past I didn’t saw him nor hear from him, I just receive some divorce paper, as I sign it and wanted him to see my child but he was not here when the trial was being held, and then when I know that I’m pregnant with you, I was depress and hurt, your grandpa, help me and I was thankful for that, and I live my live taking of you ___, and I don’t want to talk about him with you cause, I know you will be hurt from the truth, he is still my first and last love, that’s why I was not be able to look for someone else, call me stupid but what can I do? I totally love him,”

As I was listening to umma, I saw her smile moment later sad and now she’s crying, and I didn’t know that umma suffered a lot and here I am getting mad at her, I hug umma, while rubbing her back as she, smile but minutes later she look at me and touch my face and said,

“you’re everything to me now baby and I don’t want you to get mad at umma and I don’t want to lose you too” I hold umma’s hand and said,

“you don’t have to worry about that umma, im not mad at you, I’m mad at him, and you won’t lose me, cause I’m always here for you, I’m sorry I walk out I was just mad at him, and thanks for telling me this, umma” I wipe umma’s tears away, as I told her that we should go now cause maybe they are waiting for us, umma stand up and we went back to the kitchen, I saw jessica waiting at the front door, while umma said she will go ahead, I smile at jessica, she hug me and said,

“so you and umma okay now?” I nodded and kiss her forehead,

“let’s go now sicababy” she nodded as we went inside, I hold her hands, and was thinking about what umma had tell me, he leave us because of the way they lives their life? He doesn’t want an ordinary life that’s why he leaves us? I won’t ever forgive him, never in my life,

We stay until dinner, uncle and auntie said that they have to go home now, telling us that they be busy for this coming week, uncle told me that he already assign some people who will be moving our things here, I thank him, and ask him how can I pay the land that we talk about but he said we will just discuss it later on, we bid goodbye to uncle and auntie, I saw umma approach auntie as she bid goodbye to each other, yoona and yuri said that they be going to, I bid goodbye to my buddy and she ask me if I’m okay, I just told her that nothing to worry about, yoona hug jessica and told her to call her later on, seohyun will be leaving too, together with yoona and yuri, as we saw them get inside the car and wave at us, I told umma we could stay here for the night as the house is already ready, umma nodded and said she will be in here new room, I look at krystal as she said,

“unnie will be sleeping with me tonight” I look at her if she’s kidding or not, and saw jessica pout at her,

“oh okay, just tell me if you needed anything okay” krystal just role her eyes and leave us before saying to jessica that she will be sleeping with her, I saw jessica nodded her head and told her sister that she will be there later on, jessica approach me and said,

“sorry about my sister”

“na its okay sicababy” I side hug her and she wrap her right arms on my waists. As we just stay standing, when she spoke.

“jagiya?”

“hmm?” I look down at her

“you okay now?” I nodded at her and kiss her forehead,

“yeah I’m okay now”

“so would you tell me what happen?” she ask, as I gesture her to follow me on the couch as she seated herself on my lap and I hug and told her what umma told be about, when I was done telling her, she cup my face and she kiss both of my eyes and said,

“you still lucky to have umma ja