I’m at the mall, looking for a biggest pea’s doll. After I wake up. I remember yuri telling me about the pea’s in a pod doll.. taeyeon really love that character. It’s really cute though. as I was looking something caught my eye and notice that it was pea’s doll so I just went to that store and ask the in charge if they have the biggest doll that I’m looking for, I was silently praying that they have, and thanks god the saleslady told me they have it at the corner. And she said to follow her, when we arrive I see a lot of pea’s doll, my eyes went wide,, there’s plenty of it, haha I just tell the lady to give me the biggest of it, she just nodded and carry it, I guess she was actually having a hard time carrying it, so I just tell her that I help her carry it to the cashier, after I pay the doll I went out of the store and decide to go school, and I know taeyeon would be there now, I actually don’t have class so that’s why I have time to buy that doll, hehe as I was walking I see a jewelry store and stop in front of it, I was just admiring some of the display there but something caught my eye, it was really beautiful, it’s butterfly shape with a diamond necklace, so I just went in and ask how much was it, and god its too expensive, I really want to buy that cause I plan to give it to taeyeon, but as I remember taeyeon’s birthday is coming, oh I still have time to save up for it,, so I just have to find a part time job,, okay  wait for me necklace im so going to buy you,

I was carrying a doll about half of my size, i was running like a mad lady in the hallway some of the student was laughing at me, but I just ignore them and just continue running, when I get to my destination, I put the doll down and I open my bag to get something, and I start arranging the paper, the student who pass by at me was confuse of what i was doing there cause it’s not really my department. But i didn’t mind them and continue what I was doing, as I finish , i just peek at the room beside me, taeyeon was there and her class was not starting yet, so i just went at the door and knock so she could look at me, taeyeon look up and saw me smiling at her, she was shock to see me there cause she knows that I don’t have a class now, yeah she knows my schedule hahah, but I know her schedule too, she was about to stand and but I stop her by saying,

Just stay there tae and sit down, so she just obey me and sat at her chair, so I just get the paper the I get from my bag and show it to her, there was actually a message on it,

I’m sorry taeyeon for what I did to you. Im sorry cause I left you behind and it wont happen again, if you forgive me I’ll give you the biggest peas that you could ever have,

As I finish showing her the paper, taeyeon just give me a dorky smile and stood up but before she could go near to me she said,

I must see the doll first then I will decide if I forgive you,

I just role my eyes on her and get the doll she was looking for as i was carrying it, I saw taeyeon widen her eyes and saying faster. So I just handed it to her and she was hugging while jumping, tch what a choding, I thought’

So am I forgiven now? I ask

She just nodded her head and say thanks to me,

I just smile looking at her,

The student came and the teacher too so I just say bye to taeyeon. As I was about to walk away , taeyeon called me and said

Thanks for this, and I’ll see you later? She ask I just said okay and go now, but I saw taeyeon walking to me and hug me, I was just there frozen didn’t move at all.. I can smell the vanilla scent when she hug me and it was really good. oh my god my heart was beating so fast… I hope tae didn’t notice it, I was still talking to myself when I feel taeyeon release the hug and I saw her face was red, I was about to ask why but she just run and went inside,, I smile like an idiot there. And I just decided to leave the building,

The present day

I  was remembering the past again, and it makes me happy at the same time sad, sad cause taeyeon is not here with me anymore.

Some people told me to move on and start to date, but I just can’t do that, I just can’t, sounds pathetic right? I know, I can’t waste those years with her, It was all I have, I’m just totally crazy in love with her, if she would just give me a chance to prove to her that were meant to be, I just can’t accept it, I know taeyeon still love me, maybe there’s just something’s wrong, I wanted to ask her about it but she won’t let me, she just don’t want to see and hear from me, and its killing me,

I keep asking myself what did I do wrong.? Am I lacking something? Am I not enough for her? I was heartbroken and lost, I just hope taeyeon would talk to me,

Should I just let her go? I’m scared of losing her, I will not give up, I promise her that I won’t stop loving her. I never cheated on her, I never look at any other girls because she don’t want it. I did everything I could just to save the relationship but what now? Am I really too much?

I just cried myself out, im my apartment right now, memories of taeyeon was still there, I just let myself cry harder, I just wanted to ask her, what happen to us, I really can’t hold it anymore I just get my phone and speed dial taeyeon’s number, I was hoping she would pick it up, as I was losing hope I hear the other line talk and said,

What do you want? She said with annoyed tune,

Please don’t put the phone, just hear me out taeyeon, please give me a chance to talk to you, can we meet and talk? I said begging her.

“I’m sorry I can’t and don’t call me again, taeyeon said but I cut her out”,

“Please this will be the last time I’m asking you to meet me tae, let talk things out,” I waited for her to respond and I thought she already put the phone off and I was about to end it taeyeon sigh and said.

Okay,

 i just wanna jump and scream , im really happy now, I just said

Thanks tae, we could meet at the usually meeting place,