Taeyeon.6

 

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Days and months past and I’m still living in guilt and sadness, I haven’t seen ___, because tiffany is always there to accompany me, she even stay at my house just to make sure that I am okay, I wanted to tell her not to do it but then I held myself saying those to her, she’s hurt too much and I cant bare to hurt her again,, she’s been very patient with me.. but I still and wont forget about ___ , I cant just forget about her she’s my life , my everything but then I hurt her and leave her, how can she forgive me for all those things I did to her, I even cried every night it wont change the fact that we will never be together again, I wish that I didn’t leave her and just face the problem together but then things happen now and I cant turn the time back,

 

 

I just wish everything will be just fine that this is just a nightmare and when I wake up I could see her beside me but its impossible, if this is a nightmare I want to wake up now.

 

 

I’m in my room and looking at some files that my secretary brought as I was looking at the file when someone knock on my room door as I stop what I was doing and told the person to come in, I saw dad went to my room and look at me, I look away and just continue to look at the files when dad fake a cough as I just said.

“yes appa what do you want?” I said and didn’t bother to look.

“I was wondering if you’re free tonight?”

I look at him confused and saw him pleading eyes but I tore my gaze away and said,

“I’m busy appa maybe next time” I said still looking down and didn’t bother to look at him when I heard him mumbled.

…I just want to spend time with you…..

I hold the file harder and bites my lips not because I was feeling guilty but because I was so mad right now, how dare he ask me like that when clearly were not in good terms, did he hit his head that he forget what he has done to me?..

 

I hear my room door closed as i let go of the file I was holding on and massage my temple, I know his still my father but then hate blinded me right now,

 

 

 

Hours had pass and I still in my room looking at those stupid file, as I was looking it when my phone beep indicating of new message, I get my phone and read it,

 

~miss taeyeon I have a good news for you~

 

I raise my brows at the same time curious of what he was telling me as I dialed his number and waited for him to pick up the phone.

 

‘miss taeyeon’

‘what is it? the news you’re talking about?’.

‘its about ___, she can walk now miss taeyeon’

‘your kidding right?’

‘no miss taeyeon we clearly see her in miss kwon restaurant’

‘okay thanks for reporting.. bye’

‘bye miss taeyeon’

 

 

I smile and cried when I heard the news,, I get my car keys and went to yuri’s restaurant, I wanna see it for myself,

 

 

30 mins later I was in front of yuri’s restaurant as I park the car and hide myself, as I saw yuri talking to someone and when I clearly see who was it, I become mad, that’s the person who made ___ like that, that’s the person who’s responsible for ___’s accident, what she’s doing there?. I know she become ____’s friend but then you wouldn’t change the fact that she’s the one who’s at fault.. and she dare to become friends with ___?????.

I holds the steering wheels tight as I look at her, some minutes past I saw ___ walks towards them, I feel so much relieve that she can walk right now. I wanna hug her and tell her, how much I love her but that’s impossible right now, she would hate me more if she sees me,

 

I saw the three of them happily talking as I wanted to know what they’re talking about, but I was happy just to see ___ smile and laugh, that’s all that matters for me now.

 

 

 

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I saw sunny and ___ went out from the restaurant and went to sunny’s car and drove off. I wanted to follow them but I don’t want them to see me so I decided to go home.

 

 

 

 

 

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I arrive at the house and saw tiffany who’s sitting on the couch as when she saw me, she stand up immediately and hugs me so tight, I didn’t know why she did that when I hear her say..

“I thought your gone taetae.. I couldn’t contact you, I’ve been calling you. Where have you been?” she looks at me tears visible in the corner of her eyes as she caress my face I just smile at her and said,

 

“I went out just to get fresh air, sorry I was not in the mood to talk to anyone and I guess I silent my phone maybe that’s why I didn’t hear that someone was calling me, sorry fany-ah” I push her gently and smile at her. She looks at me hurt but I ignore and I just walk away from her when I hear her say,

“why are you keeping things from me taetae?” I turn around looks at her, she looks at me straight in the eye as I see her walks closer to me and said inches away and said,

“your keepings things, a lot of things taetae, you’ve been like that ever since I came back, did I do something wrong tae? You’ve been so cold to me, or maybe because I wasn’t here for so long and you’ve change already, I wanted to help you tae, I really do, but I don’t know how,, I don’t even know your problem, you wont tell me a thing tae, how am I suppose to understand you?” she said while her tears slid down on her face as I was biting my lips, I didn’t want to see her like this, I hate it, she still my bestfriend,

I just look away and didn’t utter any words, I wanted to tell her all my problems, but I can’t, I don’t want to lose a friend too,

 

I feel her tap my shoulders and I look at her and saw her pleading eyes as she said,

“please tae, don’t push me away again, tell me what’s bothering you, let me help you taetae please, I don’t want to see you like this, I didn’t know a thing please, as your girlfriend or bestffriend please don’t keep secrets from me, I know you’ve got problems, share it with me okay?” I look at her and shook my head and said.

“I’m sorry fany-ah, im just tired from work, that’s all please understand me”.

She looks at me sadly and nods her head and said.

“okay taetae, I’m sorry, I’m just worried about you, go and rest now.”

I hummed a reply a turn around and walks away, I know she’s hurt now, but I cant tell her just yet.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Darkest filled in my rooms at I sit down at the corner of my room and tears visible in my face. I cried nonstop since I went here to my room. Its been hours that I’ve been like this. I cant help myself not to cry. I wish she was her with me, I miss her badly.....

 

 

 

 

 

I try opening my eyes as I look around, I didn’t know that I fall asleep last night, I sat up and rub my eyes. I decided to get ready to my work as I saw my clock and widen my eyes because its 10am in the morning, I hurry get my towel and went to the bathroom.

 

After I was done, i get my car keys and some of the file that my secretary had brought yesterday.

 

As I was going to the front door when someone called my name as I turn to look who’s calling me . I saw tiffany approaching me while I notice she’s wearing an apron and smiling as I raise my brows while she said.

 

“good morning taetae” while kissing my cheeks..

“how’s your sleep tae? And oh I cook breakfast for you” she beam her eye smile at me and I can’t help and smile a little, and said,

“morning to fany-ah, actually I’m late from my work, I’ll just go and eat at the office okay?” she looks at me worried but then she said, she will just get the food for me to bring it, I was about to stop her but then she walks faster and went to the kitchen, I just waited for her,

She came back carry a paper bag and handle it to me, I accepted it and smile at her and bid her goodbye.

 

 

 

 

Weeks passed…..

 

 

 

 

I was in the meeting and just listening on somewhat expansion and event coming, I couldn’t care less about it. it’s still my dad company after all he can do whatever he wants it to do. They just talk about expansion in japan and my father wanted me to manage it but I already refuse him and he didn’t force me to do it. if he does I will hate him so much and I don’t really care about it. my secretary always nudge at me telling me listening of my father’s secretary but as I told awhile ago I couldn’t care less at all. and just shrug my shoulder and didn’t bother to listen to it.

 

After some hours of talking the meeting was done and I saw some of the people there went outside from the room, my secretary stands up and was getting the files in front of me as I told her that she should be going that I will just follow she nods and went out from the room,

 

I get my phone at the table and stand up and went to my office as I seated myself on the chair and doing some paper at my desk and after some minutes when my phone’s beeping. I get my phone on my pocket and saw tiffany was calling me, I hurriedly answer the phone and I hear her say.

 

 ‘taetae I’m on my break now, you said your coming here? My friend ask me to join them. it is okay?’

‘sorry fany-ah I was so engross on my office and didn’t noitice the time, mianhe’

‘that’s okay taetae so you wouldn’t mind were joining my friend right?’

‘yeah that’s okay fany, I’ll see you after 30mins okay?’

‘okay taetae bye and I love you’

‘bye fany and me too’

 

I hang up the phone, as I look at it and feeling guilty to tiffany, but I just shrug it off and went to arrange the paper and place them on my table as I get ready to go where tiffany is, I get my bag and my phone as I went out from my office, my secretary look at me and bow, I just told her that I will just go to take my dinner, and told her to go home early, she nod and bow at me, I just went out and go to my car as I drove off,
 

 

(it refers on chapter 28 you don’t have to read it but I just write it again so you would understand,)

 

 

 

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I arrive at the destination tiffany give me as I look around and went inside, I ask some of the stuff where tiffany is, as they point at the corner and I saw tiffany with 3 girls, I went to approach them and said to tiffany that I was sorry because I took long to came here, tiffany stand up and kiss me, I saw the girl stand up and turn to face me I widen my eyes to see jessica here, as tiffany introduce me to them, but when I heard ___’s name I was shock, and I feel my heart beat fast, I take a glance to ___.  But she was just looking at me with no expression at all,

 “Jessie this is taeyeon my girlfriend and taeyeon this is jessica my friend and this sooyoung and ____,” tiffany said as ___ just stand up and look at jessica and jessica hold ___’s hands, I don’t know why I feel mad when jessica did that, as I look at ___ but she was not looking at me, I really miss her, I hope i didn’t do that to her, as I hear jessica spoke and said,

“it was nice to see you again taeyeon” tiffany look at me and ask

“you two know each other?” I just nod at her and saw her she was happy and she said,

“that’s awesome, taetae why you didn’t told me about your friends here, I was talking about jessica to you” tiffany whine at me, I just apologize at her as I hear tiffany said,

“ahh ___?” she look at ____. As I saw ___ look at her,

“yes?”

“you know taeyeon too?” tiffany ask and jessica look at ___ like she’s waiting for ___’s answer, as I become nervous what she’s going to tell as I hear her say,

“yeah I know her were actually friends but we lost contact” she said without being nervous, as jessica look at me but tiffany talk,

“oh jinja oh well that’s sad, but you can now contact her right taetae?” while she look at me as I just said,

“yeah” I said pretending that I don’t care but deep in my heart I wanted to ___ acknowledge me but I think I’m not part of her life now, I hurt her and I deserve this but I just hope I can tell her what really happen but I can’t so I have to endure it, as we hear sooyoung said that we should eat that our food are getting cold that she was hungry, I hear tiffany and jessica laugh at her, as we all settle down on the table as tiffany was just talking at sooyoung as I just sat her looking at my hands I can’t face ___ and I’m really nervous now, as I was still looking at my hands when I take a glance at ___ who went closer to jessica as she whisper while jessica just look at her smiling, as I feel my heart wrench and I know there’s an invisible smoke coming from my ear, but I hold my angry, as I saw ___ look up as I look away, as I look again and saw her putting some food to jessica I was confuse, are they couple? My heart was telling no, after she was putting some food, I hear tiffany said.

 “yah you two are so sweet,” as my heart hurt when tiffany said that as I saw jessica take a glimpse on me but she just shrug at me as she continue to look at ___. And we hear tiffany ask me,

 “taetae they look good right?” I look at tiffany as I slowly nod my head,

“they are couple taetae, sorry I didn’t told you hehe”  I widen my heart and my heart was hurting but I compose myself as I look at jessica but she was giving me a signal to back off as she was glaring at me, boring a hole on my face as I look away, as I just continue to talk and listen to tiffany, we just eat our dinner, as I was eating and remember this taste, and I know ___ make’s this, I bit my lips as I feel my heart wrench, when I hear tiffany said,

“wow this is really good, you make this ___?” she ask as ___ look at her and said,