I stayed on my company until past midnight, they don't let me to go out, even meet with my members. I bet they getting scolded too because of my problem.
The fact that i'm the reckless magnae on the team is made my hyungs looks bad too, i think.

I can't even meet Suzy, watch tv, or going out from SM i can't do that. I was told to stay low and wait for another instruction.
I know that SM and JYP already confirmed my relationship with her. I read it on internet.
The hatefull comments for us is beyond something that i can imagine.
With the facts that Suzy is working with so much male artist before, a lot of fans already shipping her with others.
Me and Suzy being a thing is just ridiculous and random in their eyes.

The thought about this is it, this is the end of my career is coming to my head more often than ever. In the end, i can't protect anyone, my members, my fans, Suzy, even my self.
I just sit here doing nothing, i know that day like this wil come eventually, but i don't know that i'll be useless like this.

" Sehun-a, are you ok?" Suho hyung come to the room rushly, he came to me and pat my shoulder.
" hyung, i'm sorry? what shoud i do with our team?"  i ask him with low voice.
" that's fine, we're not hurt. I'm worried about you and Suzy. I want to say sorry about all the hate comments that you heard, people is just too shock."

When he mentions about Suzy, i start to realized, how is she? how is that girl doing?

My worried end that night, i forbid to comeout for the next few days, i don't have any schedule so i'm staying in dorm.
The hype about my scandal with Suzy is still last for days, the article regarding it keep coming out.
I don't know, maybe that's because the girl is Suzy. The nation's first love, the beautiful and stunning girl.
So the nation is react like their first love is taken away unconditionally. Taken by me, Oh Sehun.

After four days the news broke out, i have my chance to meet her. I'm out without my manager knowing with help from my members.

" what are you doing here?" that was the first sentence she said to me.
Her face looks tired, she doesn't have that look again an idol look. Her face just full of tiredness.
" how are you?" i can't say anything else but that word.
She give me a smile and lift her shoulder.
" it worse than my imagination." she told me while give me a sign to sit.
" i'm sorry."