I can see that she confused and nervous, this is our first encounter after the big fight .

She close the door again so suddenly, i feel surprised and start knock the door again.

" why are you here? i don't want to meet you." she talk to me from behind the door, i can't help but smile by her behaviour.

" open it first, just a second." i talk to her, and she open the door.

When she open it, i come in and pull her into my arms, hold her tiny body and touch her hair.

I thought she'll be avoiding me or pushing me, but she just stay in my arms, hold my back.

" you missing me?" i ask her while she still in my arms.

She's not talking, just nod her head quickly.

" This place looks different." i talk to her when she serving me a coffee on the kitchen.

" why?" she sit in front of me and look around.

" it feels like,hmm how to put it in word, it feels gloomy, maybe because the owner is in desperate because of broken heart."

I gussy up her bang while laughing.

" that's true." she hold my hand and give me a smile.

I really love this moments, she's the girl that can make me fall in love again and again. when i already hating her and dissapointed by her, she still have that magic, the one that can make me feel happy.

" I'm sorry." i talk to her while watching her washing a dishes on the kitchen.

" for what?"

" for getting mad at you last time." i talk to her and i see her turn her head to me.

i see her walking closer to me and sit beside me.

" I said it, for all the trouble that will come to you in the future."

" what do you mean?" she looks confused and give me a gaze with her big eyes.

" you know the problem that will happen if we're caught." i talk to her while staring at her eyes.

She looks troubled, and take a deep breath.

" i should say sorry to my members, fans, staffs, your fans, your members, my parents, your parents and everyone in this world before hand then."

she talk to me while smiling, but her voice was shaking.

" i want to end things with you, but you know i can't." i talk to her and she just stay quiet.

" don't you think we're sellfish? " she ask me with low voice.

" sellfish?"

" i mean, we're happy with this relationship, but other people will hurt."

I look into her eyes, and i know that she's afraid.

i know a lot of people will be dissapointed with us, they'll hate us. But i don't know what to do.

When i really love someone without thinking anything else and only focused at her, i think this is worth to try and worth to fight.

"you really love me, right?" Suzy ask me so suddenly, i turn my head to her quickly and i can find sincere from that question.

I paused for a while before can talk to her.

" in my life, i just fall in love twice." i talk to her while holding her hand.

" twice?"

" i fall in love with Bae Suzy first."

" after that?" she ask me while pull her hand from mine.

" i fall in love with someone else."

" huh? really?" she looks confused and surprised

" I fall in love with my idol, Miss A's Suzy." I talk to her while smiling.

She seems surprised and start to have teary eye.

" i fall in love with king of trolling everytimes." she hug me tight after talking like that.