I begin my concert tour on China today. I met Suzy two days before my departure.
" here, eat it." she gave me a cake and a fork to me.
" you bought it again?" i talk to her while start eating the cake.
" no, i made it." she talk to me while smiling.
" really?" i look at the cake with surprised, she made it?
" i feel sorry for not coming to your concert before, so i made it. How is it?" she give me a stare while eat it.
" not bad, but i think you should just keep buying it."
" really? but at least i try."
" ya! i watch your showcase yesterday." she suddenly talk to me and give me an intense gaze.
" what show case?"
" the comeback showcase, the one that happened on april." she answer it shortly.
" you said that your girlfriend is in that concert, you said that your fans is your girlfriend." she talk to me while poking my shoulder hard.
" they are. they're really great girls so i said it, and you're not my girlfriend at that time, i'm not lying to anyone, plus you said that you're my fans."
i stopping her from poking me and hit her forehead.
" that's the reason that make me don't want to go public with you, i don't want to caught in scandal with people like you, you're the type that always trolling people, trolling your fans. said everythings to make them happy, but yet you betrayed them."
she talk to me with sarcastic tone.
" i'm not trolling. all i said is the truth, why you judging people so easily, how about you? you try to act all cute and happy in front of people, but came to me when you sad and mad."
I talk to her and pout my lips to her. She's the one who start this.
" that's true, we're so pathetic right? ya! Sehun-a, was Luna ever told you that people like us is full of fakeness?" Suzy ask me and give me a smile.
" she did. last year. when i told her about how you and i can't be together because we're an idol."
I remember that day, the day that i know how Suzy feel about me from her diary. I can't contain my feelings, i'm happy but i was too afraid and try to avoiding Luna.
" are we really like that?" suzy come to me and give me a question.
I honestly don't know, if i said we're not, we are fake. If i said we are, we're not that bad. so i just stay quiet and shake my head to her.

I have suzy's diary on my hand, she gave it to me two days ago.
" Because your tour is long enough to make you miss me, here take it, read it if you're bored."

She did write somethings new, about how she feel about me, about how we broke up and about things she did, the one when she tricking me .
and on the last page i can see her writing.

Thank you for lighting my world, i always see the worst from everythings, i still. But you do make my life easier.
Have fun with your concert, i'll watch the fancam later. Oh Sehun! Oh Sehun! Oh Sehun! i'll cheer for you in front of my laptop like crazy fan.

with Love, a Fan.