" Ahbuji, actually.... " 

You felt everyone's eyes was on you. 
You could feel it. 
It is just as if you are announcing your decision now.. 
", why did I speak up? "

No... what if they leave like how Hye Min and Su Jin did? 
It is a childish thought but... 

You mum saw your hesitation and came to your rescue. 
"Aish, Yeobbo just come and have dinner. Don't bother these kids " 

You gave a thankful look to your mum, but at the corner of your eyes you saw both men looking down sadly at their food. 

"KimBap! Wahh, my wife is so good at making my favourite food!! " 

" Hahaha! Yeobbo, this isn't just my work. They helped me too," not particularly referring to anyone. 
Your mum just knows how to be diplomatic. 

You father gobbled up the food as he displayed various facial features to express his pleasure for the food. 

" We will eat the food well, " all three of you greeted. 

Dinner was silent. 
Occasionally, Daehyun would slid his hand underneath the table to give your thigh a tight reassuring squeeze. 
While, Tim will pass you some vegetables with his chopsticks. 
And...Daehyun would do the same to not lose out. 

Your parents will engage in small short conversations, like. 
" Ahh, Yeobbo, I heard that they will stop delivering newspapers anymore? " 
" Yes, more families prefers reading on their phones... So they cancel all the subscriptions.. " 
" Darns, so selfish. I like reading newspapers. " 
" Ah, but don't you read from your phone too.. "
You dad just mumbled back, but there, the conversation ended. 


To be honest, you were pretty glad it was just like this.. 
You wouldn't be able to take it if they started to ask... 

" Ji Yeon-ah," 

You broke out of your thoughts, " Mmmm ? " 

" Come and help me with the dishes? " 
" Okay Umma~ " 

"Wait, " Tim sets you down, while he stood up. 
Competitive natured Daehyun stood up as well. 
You can't help but laugh at how childish they can get. 

After clearing the tables, the boys decided to head home since you were looking exhausted.

That was because of all the thinking you had done in the past few hours, but.. ohwells.. 
You figured, it wouldn't be nice to be alone with any of them. 
Since, you selfishly called Daehyun for Dinner today, you didn't want to put him in a difficult position. 
Tim as well. 

You stood by the door and waved enthusiastically at both of them. 

Both of them lingered really long at the door.. slowly walking to the end of the road.. 

Still turning back to get another glimpse of you.. 
You chuckled and waved back.. 

They waved back but still walking backwards.. 

Finally, you cannot see their figure anymore... 

You closed the door. 
After the door shut closed, you slid down the door. 
Your heart feels heavy. 

" Honey, you okay? " 
Your mum saw the look on your face.... 

You burst out crying unknowingly.. 
Your mum just crouched near you as she patted your back. 
" It's alright darling, let it all out, mummy is here... " she cooed as she repeated these few words. 

You weren't just crying. 
Or rather, there wasn't any particular reason for your tears. 
It was mixed emotions. 

You were crying, for the pain you have caused on Tim and Daehyun. 
You were crying, after getting back to Daehyun and how much you have missed those feeings that are slowly resurfacing. 
You were crying, because you could not return the same feelings to Tim. 
You were crying because, you cannot decide if you could choose Daehyun out of the both of them. 
You were crying because of how weak you were, causing so many people to worry for you. 
You were crying, because, you don't know how to feel anymore. 

You, were crying because of the decision that your heart had just made. 
Something that was painfully decided....

You wiped your tears and faced your mum. 
" Umma... "
" Yes Honey? " 
" I have decided... " 
" Mmmm... " 
" I have decided... "
You paused. You mind ran through all the logical reasons why you should do this and why you have to do this... 

" ... to further my studies in Australia."

Short Update! 
Ahh... I can't possibly let her choose anyone :( 
This is a big life decision :( 

Please anticipate ^^