JiYeon's POV



You grab a cup of coffee.
Daily obesssion.
Somedays you hope you'll quit this obession. 
It feels almost addictive. 
A... painkiller perhaps. 


You found a nice house.
After much consideration, you have it choosen far from a particular area, Hanam-Dong. 
For obvious reasons. 

You had moved in without anyone knowing. 
Not even your parents. 
Honestly, after that day, you couldn't do much. 

You tried to review the interview you just had. 
You forced your head to not say the group's name. 
Okay, it failed. 
B.A.P. Yes, the recent interview with B.A.P
You needed to send in soon, but you couldn't bring yourself to do it, 
You didn't want to replay the recorder. 
You didn't want to hear his voice again. 
You.. need a distraction first. 


You made a trip back home earlier three days back, 
Things weren't making it better for you. 

" JiYeon-ah," your mum called you. 
"Yes?" you turned around to face her. 

" For the Christmas Party this wednesday," she looks nervous, and you gave her a raised eyebrow. 
"Do you... want to invite ... " 

You shook your head and walked off. 
Damn... 
Your heart is so frustrated. 
No.. 
Who ever it is, no.. 

"Omma.. JUST LET THE PARTY BE THREE OF US! " you gave a yell in reply. 
You felt guilty for being so rude. 
But... feelings got the better of you. 

" Just... give me three days. I need three days to sort my feelings. " you whispered to yourself. 


The following days, you led a boring life. 
Daily meals of ramyun. 
You tried watching TV, somehow.. for odd reasons, they are always there. 
You would end up switching off in frustration, let the black screen flash before your eyes and you angrily pouted at the black reflection of yourself. 
Annoying. 


Today is the third day. 
You had pretty much distracted yourself. 
Numb yourself from all possible pain. 
Now.. you're on the way to your next interview.. 
You didn't bother to touch up the one you had with B.A.P. 







You smiled and approached them, 

" 안녕하세요 (Hello), I am Journalist Baek Ji Yeon, It's nice to meet you, please take a seat before we proceed with the Interview. " You didn't stare at any of their eyes. 

" The Interview will be done in a series of questionaires, " You looked at your notepad. 

" If you do not mind, I will be recording the interview, " You waved the recorder in the air. 

This... feels too.. familiar. 
Painfully.. familiar. 

"Journalist Baek..." a low voice called me. 
You snapped out of my trance. 

You looked up and saw seven pairs of eyes... staring at you. 
It almost felt like interrogation. 

" Sorry.. Wh-What happen? I.. " 

"You said you will record the interview? " a guy named Hoya grinned. 

You shook your head lightly in embarrassment. 

" Right..." You grinned. 
You pressed the red button. 

" Oh... sh-osh. " You almost cursed in front of them. 
You face palmed myself. 

You pressed the red button again to un-record. 

" When you are ready, please start with introduction. I will begin recording now. " 
You embarrassedly shot a smile. 

And.. when you pressed the button, for some odd reasons, the recorder slip out of your grip and made a loud noise as it crashed on to the table. 

You looked away with pursed lips. 
You gave an exasperated sigh. 

" I.. am extremely sorry. 
Could.. Could.. we do this in.. five minutes? 
Please.. " 



You ran out. 
That was way too embarrassing. 

BAEK JI YEON. 
It has been three days. 
Get a hold of yourself. 

You were at the bathroom

You splashed that icy cold water against your face. 
" WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP" 

You scolded at your reflection. 

You gave a loud sigh, and you shook the droplets of water on to the sink. 
You shot yourself one last firm look before walking out. 




You went in to the room with the sweetest smile you could have. 

" I apologised for my ...slips just now, I..urm... am.. nervous to see such a famous group like Infinite. " 
You tried to add happy tones or possibly any way to indicate your delight. 


" You don't have to lie," that Hoya guy said again. 

You gave him a shocked face. 

"We know you're not an Infinite fan. " 

"That.. "you didn't finished that. 
" I... am not a fan, but I know about infinite. " you added after some time. 

The tallest one,...SungYeol, asked, " What's our fan name?" 

"Ba-" you stopped short. 
Wait.. 
What were you going to say ?
Babyz? 
Are you serious Ji Yeon?

You shook your head, " NoNo.. urms.. "
Your head was spinning like turbines. 
Think Ji Yeon think, you just did your research last night. 

But.. for some odd reasons, why are B.A.P's details and profile appearing only. 


" Inspirit. " 

You glanced up and saw the maknae.. Sung...Jong.. smiling at you. 
The older ones gave him a frown. 

" I knew that. " you replied quickly. 

You almost caught one guy rolling his eyes. 
You never got his name.. 
It had an alphabet. 
K? M? Gosh.. Wh-... OH! L! 
Yes.. 

You pursed your lips. 
You have become so un-professional. 

" I'm sure you don't " a small-eyed guy claimed 
What's his name again...? 
Ah... you took a peep at your paper. 
Right. SungGyu. 

You shot him a glare. 

" I.. hope we could end our discussion on the fact that I am not an, Inspirit," you changed your tone while looking at Hoya, 
"And proceed with the interview since, I'm sure Infinite are busy. " 

" Not at all, we have three hours of free time today. " 
That Hoya guy shot back. 

You closed your eyes to hide that impatience in you. 
You had gotten more impatient when you're fighting this stupid feelings of yours. 

You took a finger to scratch your eyebrow. 
You gave a smile. 
" I am sorry, yes, I am not an inspirit. 
I apologised for lying. 
It seems to be the right thing to say... " 
You left it hanging. 

You thought about what you just said. 
" Oppa is such a tease" that seemed like a right thing to say. 

Your heart ached. 
You closed your eyes. 
Don't Jiyeon don't. 

You just realised how long you have paused. 

You glanced up. 

"... I didn't want to disappoint you guys. " you lowered your head. 

You didn't want to disappoint anyone to be frank. 
Failures. 
They are something you fear. 
You failed that day. 
That thing you shared with him, seems like a failed journey. 

It felt like paying tons of money to see the money, only to realise that you're going the wrong way when you've used up the money. 
Failed journey. 


"Ayyy... It's alright" a contagious laugh resounded in the room. 
You loooked up to find.. a guy who looks like ... Dino.. laughing. 
Dongwoo... 
You smiled at him. 

" I am sorry. Can we start over?" 

" Must you record? " That... guy.. L asked. 
He had quite an intense glare. 

It reminded you of his eyes. 


You gave a soft smile. 
" I need to keep my article as accurate as possible. The human brain makes mistakes you know. " 
Human makes mistakes too. 
Your heart ached. 

"Alrights, let's hurry proceed with the interview please, " The leader said hurriedly. 
He seems to be annoyed at the long wait. 

You grinned. 
To tease them: 


" 안녕하세요 (Hello), I am Journalist Baek Ji Yeon, It's nice to meet you, please take a seat before we proceed with the Interview.
 The Interview will be done in a series of questionaires,"

You glanced up to look at the number of annoyed faces at your teasing. 
Surprising only the leader. 
Sighs. 

" If you do not mind, I will be recording the interview, " You waved the recorder in the air. 
" When you are ready, please start with introduction. I will begin recording now. " you smiled and pressed the red button. 

" 안녕하세요 (Hello), I am SungGyu, the leader and lead vocal of Infinite. " 
"안녕하세요 (Hello), I am DongWoo, the rapper of infinite. " 

( A/N: I honestly love to continue this interview. 
Let me spazz about the perfection and witty answers Infinite will give and all.. 
But... I am sure people who are reading this are mostly Daehyun biased. 
I will not be too mean.. >.< ) 


You smiled, 
" Thank you, That was Infinite. This is Baek JiYeon. " you pressed the red button. 


You unknowingly gave a loud sigh of relief. 
You realised that, you turned around only to be faced by seven pairs of staring eyes. 

You burst out laughing. 
You forgot how unglam you could be when you're laughing. 

You tried covering your laugh, but you found yourself giving up at that attempt when seven of them laughed at you. 

" Your laugh is nice, just like DongWoo Hyung!" Woohyun commented. 
And DongWoo started a whole round of laughing, 
Everyone laughed along. 



" Thankyou for today. " 
You were sincere about this. 
You just realised you didn't think of him at all. 


You packed your stuff and got ready to leave. 

" Do you... Do you wanna eat with us?" 
You glanced up. 

That Dino guy, DongWoo asked. 
It seems like a common agreement among the seven of them. 
Since when did they had a discussion about eating with you? 
Group's teamwork and... perhaps mindreaading is too amazing.. 

" Uh.. wh-why?" You were stuttering. 
You were kind of afraid to have a meal with anyone now. 


" You seemed troubled. " The tall one replied. 
" We don't meant to pry" The youngest assured. 
" We thought you needed to know us better, " Hoya grinned. 
Dongwoo nudged him sharply,  " And us know you better since you'll be interviewing us .. in the future. " 
He gave the older one a glare as he rubbed his elbow. 

"And you seemed nice... " Sunggyu added. 
"As in... a good nice. Unlike those other reporters/journalist we worked with" he said in a hurry. 

You smiled. That wouldn't be too bad would it? 





DAEHYUN's POV

I don't know who I am anymore. 

I just stayed in my room. 
I need to think. 

I am tired. 

Tired.

Tired of all these. 

I was right. 
Her insecurities. 
The reason for her to leave. 

Fans. 

The society. 

The media. 

The very fact I am an idol. 

"  You said you wanted to be a singer, I would be a journalist. 
                    I would protect you from pesky news, and you would always sing to me... 
                    That dream we had. " 
He recalled. 

He pulled his blankets closer to him. 

" I haven't sing to you for so long... Ji Yeon ah. "I bit my lips and shut my eyes so tightly as I said. 

Manager has helped me to fake that I had injured myself or something. 
I don't know. 
I just send in a selca saying I'm fine, I haven't used my phone since then. 

"It has been three days Daehyun. 
Get a hold of yourself. "
That should be what I should be telling myself. 

What came was instead, 
"Its all your fault Daehyun, 
You deserve this pain now." 
 

JiYeon's POV
It was really weird. 
Seven strangers eating with you. 
You sat at that dance practice floor. 
They had ordered Black Bean noodles. 
You ate and looked around their room. 

It feels.. so much like theirs too.. 

" You've been into such rooms before right?" SungGyu asked. 
"How...?" You turned around and gave him a shocked face. 
"I guessed. " he grinned and took another bite. 

" You're friends of B.A.P?" Hoya asked without looking up. 
Your heart aches when you heard their name. 
You kept silent. 
Everyone looked up. 
" It's fine Noona. We won't tell anyone or anything. " SungYeol waved his hands as he said. 

You smiled. 
You didn't thought about that concern. 
" Eo." you gave a short reply. 

" How did you know?" you asked softly. 

They gave each other knowing winks. 
As if they have all known and discussed this..before hand. 

" We were deciding between B1A4 and B.A.P" L started. 
" We went with B.A.P because you seems like a girl who will like B.A.P" Woohyun ended. 

You gave a shocked knowing look. 
B1A4? 
You have so much to learn. 


" B1A4's fan name is BANA you see, and B.A.P is Babyz" DongWoo explained. 
You gave a small laugh and nod,  and continued eating. 

"You were not at all nervous seeing us too, " SungGyu gave you a smirk as he said.  
" We figured it wasn't your first time seeing idols, if not you barely know kpop. " 


" Wh-What? Are you guys detective or something? " You gave a laugh. 
They are so freaky... 


All of them gave that eye signal again. 
And all of you burst into laughters. 

"So... do you want to talk about anything? " Woohyun asked. 

He was referring to your actions. 
Your actions were way too obvious that you are affected by something. 

You shook your head. They are still strangers. 
" Just.. I needed the courage to do something. " 

"  That doesn't seems so. " SungGyu looked up, with his stained mouth. 

"I..." 
You didn't know how to say. 
" I broke ... " 
That word seems wrong. 
" I just needed courage. " You ended softly staring into space. 

You wonder what's the courage for. 
To move on. 
Or to fight to be with him. 

"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that
something else is more important than fear.” L suddely spoke up.
" By Ambrose Redmoon" he ended off.  

How...How didd he know? 
He looked up. 
His eyes caught yours. 

It was just like he was reading your eyes. 
Like... him. 

The members saw your shocked face and gave glances at the both of you. 

" I read this somewhere," he gave you a nod as he said. 
He went back to eating. 


Courage is not the absence of fear. 
He's right. 
You don't need to be a person without fears. 
When you were with him, you had fears too. But you still belonged to him. 
But what is stopping you now, is the judgment of something else more important than fear. 
It wasn't just about the fear of getting hurt, of hurting him. 
Of losing him. 

But rather, you were being bound by the judgments of the society, the media, his fans, and what people would look at you... 
How you are not worthy to be with him..
How you are not good enough... 
How he deserve better... 
How you'll put him down...
How he has to dedicate time for his fans...
How both of you will have hills of challenges. 


As you were pondering, 
" I once read, 'When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.' " SungGyu added to break the silence. 
( Paulo Coelho, The Devil and Miss Prym )

You gave them a shocked face. 
Are you sure these are idols? 
They seem a whole lot more mature than they look. 
They seem... too freakily good at reading you too. 
Something no one else except Daehyun could do. 

"Think about it, we are always saying we need courage.. " DongWoo started. 
" But all you need is twenty seconds of crazy courage. " Hoya finished his sentence. 

(A/N: This was taken from a movie: We bought a zoo. Absolutely beautiful movie) 


" Twenty Seconds of Crazy Courage," you repeated. 




DAEHYUN's POV

But... 
" Ji Yeon, All I need is one last chance... to meet you again. " 

 

INFINITE MAKE A HUGE CAMEO IN THIS CHAP <3
I'm sorry.. 
I had too much Infinite feels I just have to add them in.. 


But they are exactly how amazing as I described them. 
A mature and amazing group 

And... I made a brighter chapter :) 
I think I made too many people cry. 
I am sorry... 
The truth is I haven't had a good urm... feels lately. 
It was rather in the dumps. 
But I also thought it needed a really sad tragic part. 

I honestly believe apart from fate, happy endings in life have to be fought for. 
I wanted to address the reality issue apart from the fantasise we had. 


And.. 
I need to break a news. 
I know I just recently went on hiatus. 
And I'm going for it again. 
Nothing longer than a week I hope. 
I don't really have much of energy to write lately. 
Things are really rocky right now. 

I especially left more inspiriing parts today, 
Not just for me, but for everyone who needs a boost in life. 

Life is not just a piece of paper. 
That piece of paper can be a painting. 
That piece of paper can be a story. 
It can have music that charms the world. 
It's your life. :) 


I really love you guys dearly. 
I wouldn't be away for long. 
Love you, 
God bless ;)