PSSST! THIS CHAPTER IS SPECIALLY DONE UP FOR  metis_ ! A JiYeon POV :D 




 

" Ji Yeon-ah, " 

He.. called your name.. 


" Do you want to have dinner with us? " 

Is he for real?
Wait.. is this in a business context or as friends?

I..I.. Daehyun.. aren't you hurt seeing me?
You can't even look him in the eyse for the guilt that has left you speechless.
And he wanna have a meal with you...?

You have been silent for too long. Awkwardly too long. 
With your back facing them.. 
You wondered how they were reacting.. 
Are they hurt to see you too? 

Before you could speak, " I.. I have to practice, " Zelo said bravely. 

Your heart ached. 
I'm sorry Zelo.

" Me too.. " Jong Up hurriedly added. 

You too Jong Up. 

" I'm having a meeting with Manager Hyung.. " YongGuk Oppa cautiously said. 

" Me-? We have -Ougfffh " Manager Oppa replied back and you heard the door slammed as three.. four of them left. 


You felt terrible for making everyone feel so awkward. 

 " If.. " Young Jae tried to say.. " If.. both of you.. " 

You can't take it. Everybody is leaving feeling awkward. 

ALL, because of you. 


" Ok. "

End this, JiYeon. Face him.

You still have to face him.

You thought it was easy, to get back and love him like you used to.
Like how you missed him.

But it wasn't.
Hell no, it wasn't. Face it, Ji Yeon, Just face it.



" I'll have dinner, " you turned around, " with Daehyun. "

You stared bravely into Daehyun's eyes. 


You gulped down that growing lump in your throat and stared at the remaining two guys, " If.. you guys don't mind, can you leave us both alone?"  you could hear how shaky your voice was. 

They hurriedly scurried off. 








You took a seat. 

" Take a seat, Daehyun.. -sshi. " you hesistated before adding sshi. 

You folded your lips inward to your mouth and fiddled with your fingers. 

You didn't know what to say. 

The silence was overcoming the spaces between us. 
Something,... we have never experienced. 
At all. 

You bit your lips, 

What happened to cause us both to be like this? 


"Where... " you looked up from your fingers, "where do you want to eat? " 

When he look into your eyes, you hurriedly look away. 
No.. no.. you can't look into your eyes. 
No.. 
Not after the amount of pain.. 
 that is hurting both of us. 


" Where ever you want... ja..- " he replied. 


Your heart dropped. 
Was he about to call you Jaki?? 
Wait.. hang on.. What? 

Okay.. look cool. 
Maybe it was just a slip of the tongue. 

You gulped, before looking back at him and smile, 
"I've thought of a place, Let's go, ..  " 
You hurriedly stood up, grab your jacket and head for the door. 

Don't look back, Don't look back Baek Ji Yeon. 

The hallway was echoing the sounds of your heels, ... and silence. 

You were breathing so nervously and as the time passes, You were getting worried. 
How should you start conversations? 

What if he ask you, 

Why are you back? ...
Does it shows how much he hates to see me back? 
You're a fool to leave, and now you're back because you still love him.. ?? 
Damn.. 

But.. he was so kind and good. 
He didn't ignore you. 
You left him in pain.
Alone to face everything

He still lightens up the mood. 

You know why he did that, 

(Flash back) 
" And.. " Daehyun cut in. 

You looked up. 
He was looking at you. 

" I feel..  " he paused. 

He seems to be thinking. 

" thankful. " he stopped. 
(Flash back ends) 

How he added when you thought everyone had ended. 
He could read you so well. 
He always was able. 
You were a fool to plan those silly stuff before you left. 

And now you're back. 
He sees you in pain, but he still help you to lighten the mood. 

Daehyun.. 

Thankyou.. 

Thankyou for still treating me so well even though I left you in pain. 
I don't need you to love me again. 

Just.. 

Isn't he too quiet? 
For a Daehyun? 


You turned around and caught him messing his hair up. 
Your eyes  widen,  Was he... frustrated?
You then giggled slightly, why is he still so adorable?

"What..?" He snapped. 
Still too adorable. 

You smiled. 
You looked ino his eyes.. 
You were trying to read him. 

So many doors shut.. 
So many windows with the curtains drawn.. 
Did you read my letter? 
Did you shut yourself in the room again? 
Did you..hurt yourself in anyway? 

You were feeling sorry. 
It was for the best. 
Really. 

Two years of guilt.. 
Never once left your heart. 

Did you cause him to be like this? 

But.. he still smiled. 
He smiled for you. 
He made the effort and the courage to ask you out for dinner. 

He.. 
He..

" Thank you. " 
You whispered,
You didn't know if you should thank him. 
You didn't know. 
You didn't know if this was right. 

You didn't know.. if he still loves you. 
You wouldn't mind if he had moved on. 
But a little of you, wishes he didn't. 

But.. you were grateful, he didn't shut you out. 
Even if that's a mask, 

Even if you can no longer read his eyes. 

Thankyou Daehyun for not shutting me out. 
 

She picked out some clothes that was really nice. 
Your heart aches a little, she seems more like his girlfriend, knowing what style suits him. 


She starts to draw on him with her.. tools. 
Gosh,.. so many of them. 
She dugged out some old weird looking wigs and insisted them on. 

He gave a disgusted face and starts to run away. 
Silly Daehyun. 

She yelled and called him to stop. 

He stuck a tongue out, " CHOOSE A BETTER ONE... " 

Then he bumped into you.

Ohmygosh,that's awkward.
No... his girlfriend is watching. Look natural.
Hurry keep your distance away.
But damn.. he smells so good.
You missed his scent so badly.



Silence.
He was staring so awkwardly at you.
Talk Ji Yeon, talk!
You tried to start a conversation, and muttered softly, " That.. wig looks nice on you. " 
But honestly, he does looks dashing. 
You smiled unknowingly. 

" Ohh.. " he said. 

He walked back and she placed the wig firmly on his head. 


" Voila~ " She dramatically put out her hand. 

She flipped the mirror to face him. 
She's really good. 

That hair seriously did a good touch. 

She was smirking so proudly, " I'm Good right? " 

He grinned and stuck both thumbs out. 
" The Best. " 

Your heart ached again. 
Is this how both of them talk to each other? 
They really seem like a couple. 

They... look good together. 

Ji Yeon ah, why are you silly to think he'll still like you. 


"THANKYOU NOONAAAA...~~~ " he cried out.

Then he shocked you again, His next action make you stunned.
He held your hand again, without hesistation and dragged you out of the room. 

You could hear her screaming, " Three weeks of BANANA MILKKKK~ " 
He chuckled. 
And you giggled.. 

He was looking at you thoughtfully. 
You looked back shyly. 

" Do I.. look good?" 
He asked softly. 

You silly boy, you've always look good. 
Dashing and handsome
You nodded, .. 

But since you were in the mood for fun..
 A smirk crept to your face, " Better than before. " 
You honestly thought he looks so much better than before. 
Not just in terms of how dashing he is, sufficient to make you faint at the spot and all.. 
But also.. how happier he looks. 
Perhaps, maybe because he had moved on, he had moved away from the heart ache you have caused him. 
He does looks so much happier than before.. 

" Yah.. what do you mean? " he shot back. 

You stuck your tongue out and ran out the building.

He chased after you. 

It was just like old times. 
Really.. when both of you were loving each other and living wasn't that hard. 


You were at the door and you saw the same group of fans lurking around! 
. 

You turned around and shot him a look
You were trying to converse with him. 
" Daehyun, hurry come here. HURRY" 

He immediately came. 
He still can read your eyes. 
Your heart feels an odd warm and yet strange feeling, 
Almost as if you're happy that he still can read you, but... how will his girlfriend feel about this odd couple thing both of you share?

You kept walking, making sure a suitable distance was made.
If you were holding his hands, they may suspect immediately. 

Finally he was beside you. 






We went to the bus stop. 

We are taking bus. 
Together. 
After that day.. 

That day.. 
Where you being silly and attempt to fool him. 

Your heart feels sour. 

Silence was still around us.. 

Why are we so silent? 

"Urms.. " 
You turned around at his attempt to speak, but you immediately looked away because the recognise the noise of the bus has arriving. 




We.. went up the bus. 
He was behind me.  


You.. hesistated a little. 



You made way to that same seat. 

Our..
Our Seat. 

You stood outside of the seat. 

Do you still dare to demand for the window seat anymore? 
Is.. like he has already moved on... 
And.. 
" Do you..  " you bit her lips, " Want the window seat? " 

He smiled. 
Why did he smile? 

He shook his head and gestured you to take a seat. 

The window seat, he gave it to you. 
Out of love, 

Or out of friendship, 

Or.. (even worse), out of courteousy? 


The bus ride was another awkward trip. 
We occasionally touched each other's knees along with the jerks and bumps of the bus. 

It felt uncomfortable at first. 
You kept looking out the window. 
Just like the last bus ride both of you took together. 

So many memories on the bus. 
Today, in this present moment,  both of us have achieved our dreams. 
But none of the promises we have for each other, in the name of love, none of them were kept. 


Oooh, you realised you were reaching. 

You turned around. 
Omo.. was he staring at you all this while? 
You didn't know to feel hurt,.. or guilt. 
Aish, you don't know how you should be feeling.

Look normal.
Look normal.  

You gestured him to move. 



We got off the bus. 

And, you stared at him as he realised, this is

The restaurant that both of you had been to for exactly seven times.