If anyone has yet to notice, I had shifted  "Author's note" chapter to after Chap 34.
I have updated the mistake I've realised in that Author's note. 

DAEHYUN POV

JiYeon? 
Baek JI YEON!?

I stared at the empty chair.. It didn't make sense. 
Why... did she leave... AGAIN? 
AND... on top of that, without a good bye AGAIN?!

My mind flew at the events that had just occured. 
Did I say something wrong? 
What did I say? 

The tension?
The tension made her leave? 
Wait.. no.. 
I was saying it was fun... 
Did it hurt her? 
How could it hurt her, if she didn't meant the words....
She took it out on her Oppa didn't she?

Noo.. Noo.. WAIT. 
She said her Oppa is such a tease.. 
That means her Oppa wrote this... 

THAT MEANS HER OPPA ISN'T HER BOYFRIEND? 
AND SHE FOUND IT TO BE A TEASE BECAUSE... 
Because... she's embarrassed by the words..
Becuase... she... still... 
I found myself gulping at these thoughts. 
love me. 

"JiYeon,... you love me?" my lips were trembling at the words.. 


She loves you, an imaginery voice chimed in my head. 
She does,... it confirmed again. 

My head was in a muddle. 



It hit me. 
WHAT AM I STILL DOING HERE? 
I rushed out of the doors, taking the surroundings as fast as my eyes receives them. 
Ji Yeon.. 
Please don't leave.. 
No.. 
I'm sorry.. 
I was really upset.. 
Things didnt went the way I thought it was.. 
I had expectations.. 
And. 
I misunderstood you.. 
Please.. don't leave.. 





I ran out into the streets. 
My mind wasn't functioning logically.. 
WHERE ARE YOU JIYEON...?! 
I did a low grunt, and groan.. my heart is aching so badly.. 
No.. please don't leave.. 

I found my vision blurred. 
I'm crying? 
I think my heart is crying too... 

I bit my lips as an attempt to stop the urge to cry. 

가지마(Don't leave) ...JiYeon.. 제발 가지마( Please don't leave) ... 

I don't know where I was headed to.. 
I ran out into the streets... 
The bus stop was empty. 
The streets were silent.. 

Gone.. 
Everything was gone. 
My love.. 
You're not leaving me.. again. 
For the third time.. 
I'm sorry. 
Pleasee.. 


My heart was racing so rapidly... 
How many times have I mentally killed myself for saying those words... 
I'm sorry darling, I'm sorry.. 
Don't leave.. 
I really really.. 
Still love you. 

I did a random decision making and decided to walk up the streets. 
My eyes scanned at every homo sapien I met. 
None.. 
None gave me the fluttery feeling like I had when ever I saw her.. 

Oh my gosh... 
JIYEON.. 
WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?



I punched my palms in anger, while fighting with my tears.. 
I ran back.. 
I ran back to the restaurant and took the other street.. 

Come back my darling.. 
At least.. 
If you hate me for my words.. 
HATE ME WHEN YOU'RE BEFORE ME... 
Hit me all you want!

I searched everywhere. 
My fogged up brain was making a list of all the possible places that you could have went.. 

STUPID... 
PABO... 
I didn't even know where she stayed.. 

She's walking home alone at your words. 
The dinner could have ended well.. 
With you sending her home.. 
Or may be a confession.. 
But my stupid words got in the way.. 

OHMYGOD.. 
BAEK JI YEON... 
STOP HIDING. 
CAN YOU FREAKING COME BACK TO ME NOW! 

I did a silent curse at the skies. 
I dropped down to my knees. 
My face was drenched and sticky. 
My heart.. 
I think it had stop beating.. 

My body was like in flames.. 
Burning from within. 
Burning with anger 

I'm sorry Jiyeon, Come Back. 
Those words keeps chanting in my head.. 

I huddled my knees.... 

Why is it so hard? 
Every time I had you with me, you'll be gone the next second?


Why is it so hard for me to love you? 


I felt a hot tear trickled down my face at that thought. 
I .. really love you JiYeon.. 

I buried my face in my hands.. 
I... 

I am crying again. 
Am I weak? 
Am I less manly? 
But.. will you come back to me?


I bit my lips so hard.. I could feel that familiar tang of metallic taste. 
I'm sorry... Jiyeon. Please come back.. 

I pressed my palms against my forehead, with my knees still against my chest. 

What am I going to do now? 


I need her... 

I need you Jiyeon.. 
Come back. 



I.. 

Hyung! 
HYUNG KNOWS THE INTERVIEW. 
He.. He'll have her number. 

My eyes sprang open at the thought. 
My vision was still blurry. 
But I had a sudden surge of energy. 
A contrast to the overwhelming weakness in me.. 



I ran.. 
I ran as fast as my legs could carry... 

I wasn't thinking.. 


I could have took the bus. 

JI YEON's POV. 
I left silently. 
I'm sorry. 
I shouldn't have ask Oppa for that.. 
I thought it would be.. 
good.. 
But... I was wrong. 

It was so silly of me to think you would still be waiting for me.. 
You're an idiot Baek Ji Yeon. 


I bit my lips.. 
Silence was deafening. 
My heart beats was so loud.. 
I could hear my heart crying... 
I'm such an idiot. 

I'm so sorry for wasting your time. 
Always hurting you like this Daehyun. 


Its just... 
It is so hard to move. 
I.. 
I have tried.. 
I tried so many times.. 
All the times I cried to myself before bed. 
All the times I fisted my hands when my heart hurts.. 
And how I chose to leave everything behind, so you'll live better without me... 
I tried.. 

" I tried Daehyun... " ,you whispered to yourself. 

You saw an approaching cab. 

" _____ hotel please. " you gave one statement. 

You saw the streets moving past you.. 
The restaurant behind you... 

I'm sorry Daehyun.. 
Please forget me.. 






DAEHYUN's POV. 


I.. didn't know how tired I was.. 
Until my legs gave away before the door of the dorm. 
I banged so loudly at the door.. 
Hyung.. Please.. Please open the door.. 

The door sprang open. 
And a sleepy manager hyung greeted me. 

He yawned, " Ahh.. Dae-Daehyun! What happened to you?" his eyes widen. 

I look pathetic.. I know.. 

" Hyung... " My voice croaked. 
I didn't know how bad I was crying.. 
"Please.. " 
My voice grew softer. 
My cries got louder, so did my sniffing. 

" Please.. " i bit my lips.. " please tell me you have her number... " 

" Ji Yeon..  " my lips.. shivered at her name.. 
Why did it feel so painful to say her name? 


" I n...need her.. hyung... please.. please give me her number... " I dropped down to my knees. 
I was begging him. 
Yess.. 
The normally playful, slightly arrogant and cheeky Daehyun has this side to him. 
Pathetically begging for that string of numbers. 

That's how much I love you. 
That's how crazy in love I am with you... JiYeon.. 



"W-What? Daehyun.. Don't do this.. Get up.. please" he was trying to pull me up. 

I held  on to his legs.. 
" Just let me know. " 
My nose was so blocked from crying. 
Throat felt so dry. 
" I promise.. I promise. I just need to call her.. once.. Once... I promise, I'll never touch my phone again.. I'll practice dancing more.. I'll... I'll sing more often.. I won't rebel against you.. I.. I just need to call her once Hyung.. Please... " 
My throat felt so painful from speaking.. 

I mean it hyung. 
I can't lose her again. 

I NEED HER... 

My heart sank at his next words. 

" but.. I don't have. " 

My heart felt so so painful. 
There was no words to describe the pain. 
I'm.. losing her again. 


This time, its all my fault. 

You this moron... 
You this idiot. 

You just made the girl you love leave. 

When she loves you too.. 

She's still in love with you.. and you just said that to her. 
YOU THIS IDIOT. 

I gave a wail at his words. 
" Nonononononononono... " I brought my hands to press against my temples. 
My head hurts so badly. 


I'm sorry Jiyeon... 
Please.. come back.. 


 

I don't know if this is embarrassing or something.. 
My heart hurts so badly writing this T.T 
I swear, after writing the chapter 34 yesterday.. I was all moody and depressed. 
I had to write this chapter.. 
And now I felt even worse. 

Sighs.. I'm sorry guys.. 
This is seriously one tough love. 
I couldn't let them meet.. 

Because, as much as I want to please your fantasises. 
In reality... most of the times (from my own experiences), they rarely come back. 

You'll end up in a sobbing mess. 
And... only... when fate lets both of you meet. 
That's when the pain ends. 


:( 



Nonetheless.. 
Thankyou dearies :D