KHJ POV

i m back at my house... what it is with me..... i just ate 2 dinners with him and my heart flutter......aish.... i am like a schoolboy.... why my heart felt like this... i shouldn't be so kind hearted after what he had done to me..... did i forgot it all already.... the hurt and betrayal.... why i am so forgiving..... i had to stay away from him..... if not i ll found out by him.... he seemed to know something... but what?

days after that i manage to keep my self running here and there just to avoid Jae....  i know he tried to get my schedule or waiting in front of the building..... but i hate to admit that.... my heart is not fully recovered.... i reply his sms, email or phone call... but it had been a week i ve been able to run ... it is raining today... i came home early... few days ago i sleep at the hotel... i m afraid he manage to get my address, even though i ve warned my secretary not to give any info about me to him... but he always has his way with girls....

it s raining... the sky is so dark... i just sent him a song i composed... its became habit for me... am i scared of him.. yes... i m afraid my secret will be revealed... i look outside my house... i see something in the middle of my courtyard... its not moving.... it seemed like a person... mmm who is that ... is it a thief... or a stalker... why he stand in the middle of rain like that.... it is dark... i cannot see clearly....

JAE POV

he seemed to ignore me.... he avoided me... but still reply other things like email... but he didnt want to see me... why???? did he know that i ve drugged and had with him??? did he mad at me??? KHJ why u are running away from me.... i m at his courtyard..... looking at his room... he did not sleep yet... why he didnt sleep yet... i really miss him... but i m afraid to push myself to him... i know that it s my fault that we broke up before......he didnt forgave me yet didnt he...... well he should not... i am a damn bastard, who had break his heart into pieces..... but i cannot control myself... i love him.....eventhough i know i will never get his forgiveness......

i m standing in the middle of his courtyard.... it really dark... he will never see me.... my legs are giving up..... it had been hours im standing here in the rain... well i deserve to be punish... i m really bad guy... doing things like that to him.... and  a few hours after that.... i didnt see anything... it all dark...

KHJ POV

that person didnt move.... only one person will do that.. its him Jae.... let him stand there in the rain.... he deserve it... i walked to my bed... and try to sleep... hours after that... i take a look... he still there... how long will he stand there.... he is so stubborn.... ah!!  i dont care..... i should sleep , tomorrow i have many things to do.... but still i cannot sleep.... i take a look again... he s on the soil... is he fainted there.. yah!!! Jae.. what are u trying to do???

i run there.. he fainted... and having a bad fever.... i lifted him... ah.. he is heavy..... took him inside... change his wet clothes.... he is in a very bad condition... seemed like he didnt sleep for a few days... his eyes are dark... how can an idol do this to himself, i called a doctor... and the doctor said that he is exhausted and lack of sleep... and having a high fever...

JAE POV

i felt like i m being lifted.... i heard some voices... but i cannot opened my eyes.... i felt hot and my body is burning..... when i opened my eyes the next morning.. i see him at the edge of the bed... sleeping uncomfortably..... mmmm.... he still love me...... i put my hand near him... i miss u... i want to say it loudly... but i don't want to alert him......

he opened his eyes.... he look so cute in the morning.... we starring at each other.... our stare... we cannot break it... suddenly he yell at me

"yah!!!!   what do u think u are doing at my courtyard?"

"i didnt do anything... i just stand there"

"well it is raining.. why didnt u call and said u are there in front of my house"

"i didnt want to disturb you"

"so do u think fainting there will not disturb me"

"i m not planning to faint"

"it is really hard to talk with a stubborn person"

"who do u think is more stubborn?"

"what do u mean by that?"

"i thought we are friend.. why u are avoiding me?"

"i didnt avoiding u"

"yea... so go back home early, vanish at lunch, didnt walk in front of ur office, didnt come through the main door, use the backdoor, didnt take the elevator... thats all u do just for fun??"

"are u stalking me?"

"yes"

"why?"

"because im interested in u"

"im not ur death fiance.. and i am not gay"

"i know"

"so?"

"i still want u"

"u really stubborn"

"do i have a chance"

"no"

"why?"

"i didnt like u like that"

"are u sure?"

"im positive"

"i like to bend people"

"do u always succeed"

"yes"

"u really confident in ur self didnt u?"

"it depend"

"depend on what?"

"my instinct and the person i try to woo"

"do u think u will succeed with me?"

"yes"

"yah!!! do u think i m that easy?"

"no .. but it make me want to try harder"

"argh.....!!!... im so frustrated"

"i m so happy that u are"

"why?"

"means u notice my existence"

KHJ... i will get u back no matter what!!!! i said to myself