KHJ POV

my litle brother.... he is all that i have... my source of happiness and courage... , back then, when im offered to make my debut, he is the only one that im thinking of, so i worked hard, may be harder than anyone in the company to be at my best, when im doing my CF or variety show, i ll always practice my dance steps in between the show...they said that i m too serious with my work... i tried not to indulge myself with alchohol, club and girls... eventhough sometimes even me cannot run away from them...

today, after sending my little brother back to his dorm, i went back the studio, practice until midnight and going home after that... since i becoming solo artist, i tried harder to discipline myself

"so... u want to go back by yourself tonight?" asked my manager

"i ll be alright... just call me in the morning and get some rest" i replied

i send him back first... he is a good manager, always stand by me and sometimes i think he is devoted to me..

Little Bro Hyun jin POV

"So where did you go today?" someone suddenly ask me

"ah, just here and there" i answered, he is my roommate and my best friend - Yoochun

"the usual answer.... hyun jin, sometimes i think you are full of mystery"

i just smile back... yea.. im full of secret.... but i just want to live a normal life...

Yoochun POV

He is back... and i asked him where did he go, i got the standard answer... i think he is hiding something but i didnt dare to probe deeper because me myself also hiding a secret

i am a gay, and no one know this except my family... my family is really rich,one of the big name in the korean economy, my father put his money in almost everything -entertainment, hospital, mall, etc. My brother is one of the idol in kpop - jaejoong

when i came here, at this university i hide everything about myself, the students and lectures know me as someone who came from a middle class just with enough money to survive so i had only one friend here- hyun jin,the others are tried their best to ignore me because most of them came from rich families, i tried very hard to make my mother understand my actions...and she did, as well as my father and hyung

the phone ring....

"yoochun, how s school?"my hyung asked

"ok... same as usual.. "

"so...  did you found that person?"

"yea... i found him, and i m sticking by him.."

"does he know?" ask my hyung again

"not yet... he is straight... but single, i think i still have a chance" i answered

"you are too soft, just grab him and say that you love him.. or may be you just should him"

"hyung! i cannt do that... dont want to break him"

"just kidding, but you just cannt stand by him doing nothing... gave him some hint" urge my hyung

"it is not the time yet to do that.... "

"mmm.... its up to you, but i just dont want u to get hurt.... sooner or later you have to face him"

"yea i know.... ok hyung got to go...bye "

"bye, take care, just ask if u need help"

My hyung.. and my family know that i am gay, luckly they all are open minded... they said that they just want to see me happy, so here i am... chasing my first love - Kim Hyun Jin

Jaejong POV

Just finished my call, my little brother is really a dreamer, how can he stay by the person he love and didnt tell anything.... it will hurt him back someday...our parents is so open about me and my brother , both of us is gay... ive been with many idols but none really make my heart beating fast.... and i know why.... because im in love with him- the one that love that flower - forget me not

He make my heart beat faster the first time i saw him... that time i still in school and he still doing a lot of part time works to support himself. When im debuted into the kpop world, there are times when i felt down and i always disguising myself walking around to calm down. One day i found him... smilling with flowers in his hand.... the flower- later when i asked the flower shop, they said that that person will always buy the flower because he really like it..then i traced him, found out that he live nearby by himself, poor and doing jobs to support himself, but he like to play guitar and sing at the street nearby at night, i always there when he sang... along with a few people and by his side... usually the forget me not

so... one day.. i asked one of our manager in the company to offer him a chance to debut.... asking the manager to hide the fact that im the guy behind the offer.... i just want to keep him close by my side...