It has been months since i opened my eyes.... actually i didnt even know how many days.... there is no tv or calendar in  this room.... the only person who came and visit me is him.... sometime he just sitting here with me without talking... sometimes... he reading me books... or listening to the music.... i dont know what happened outside... the world seem limited to this room.... i ask him one day... abouut what happened , but he just keep quiet....

one day.. he said that we are moving..... i dont know where...... they gave me something that make me sleep.... and i ve sleep for a long time....when i wake up.. it seemed to be we are in different country.....

"im sorry hyun joong..... we need to move...."

"why?"

"a few months ago... ur body is still bad... we cannot move u from the country... now is the right time.."

"mmm... what happened..?"

"a lot has happened... i didnt tell u anything because the doctor said that may be u cannot take any pressure yet..."

"why..... do u help me?"

"mmmm"

"how did u know im in the accident?"

"im sorry... i followed u.... u seemed so stressed after moving out from the house... and its ur birthday ... that day"

"mmmm..."

"i know u want to ask a lot of question.... but we have to go bit by bit ok..... just know that... i mean no harm..."

"i know..."

"how?"

"ur eyes... it has changed... "

"yea... u always know me ...."

"i know..."

outside the snow start to fall.... and we are here in a foreign land.... by ourself.... me.... still alive is like a miracle....and he....at last ....had come back...

Hyun Jin POV

we are in our flight... back to the university... yoochun is sleeping.... it is so sad that when u think u have someone to depend on and that person suddenly left u.... i never expected that my hyung will be gone,he is the only family left..... i m so fortunate that yoochun is always here with me.... he had matured... yoochun that i know back then is not the one with me now... it seem that he had graduated from immature teenage to a matured responsible adult... and he excel in his study... he surprise me when he scored higher than me in the exam.... he work part time in the cafe near our place... he said that he should start to think how to take care of me, because he could not depend on his family forever....., he started to discipline himself.... i would say that he is too good to be my mate..... many people, girls and boys tried to get into his pants.... but he always refused.... he never pick up call or reply sms from unknown number... he will call when he cannot came back on time... sometime.. he even show me his punch card time... just to show that he is working late and didnt do anything wrong....

actually i never question where he was or what he did..... and i never question his loyalty to me....  it just sometimes... he seemed to take things so seriously..... one day he came back drunk.. and he mumbling in his sleep.... i dont know what he said....... i cannot put it together... but after the night passed.... i think i understand ...

"yoochun... did u get a hang over...? are u ok?"

"yea.. sorry about last night... my friends at the workplace... we celebrate our manager birthday..."

"ah.... i know... u called before that explaining everything"

"no.. i..."

"yoochun... i believe u ... "

"but...i"

"yoochun... u are not ur brother... u are urself ok.... i know that u felt guilty about my hyung... but it is not ur fault.... and i know that u promise my hyung that u will take care of me... but dont overdo it ok...... because knowing u love me just enough for me... i dont like u act like this... i like the old yoochun... "

"mmm"

"just dont be too hard on urself.... because it will make me felt guilty... when u are like this i felt like i m a burden to u"

"u never be a burden to me.... hyun jin -ah....u are my life..... if u are a burden.. i rather die... dont say like that..."

we starring at each other.... the snow are falling outside..... it seemed like we have live together for a long time..... tears streamed from his eyes.... i really love u yoochun......

JAE POV

my dad didnt talk to me for a long time... he is really mad..... yes i m guilty.. but im not the one who kill KHJ.....i rushed from office to my home.... i just cancel the evening schedule.... just want to get some reast by myself... outside the house there is cars... my girl friends are visiting... i walked to the door...

"yah!!!!! it is not my fault that kill himself"

"but u are the reason why he broke up with ur boyfriend"

"u all are also involved... who make the bet?"

"its true.. we make the bet, what we didnt know u are so serious about it"

"never mind.. its my pride we are talking about, did u all said that i am a diva who could make anyone fall in love with me..."

"ok ok... u ve won... u really amazing, just by few months u succeeded to break a couple of few years..hahahaha"

"that is really stupid.... i told him to operate himself to be a girl... not to crash himself and die... what a pity person he is..."

"u are harsh on him.... "

"i should be.. if not he will not slap me hahhaha, u didnt see his face when Jae slapped him back... just i dont expect his weird family didnt want to acknowledge us... if not i have already married to him.... "

"see.... look who s talking.... long time ago when we make the bet u didnt sat anything, and after u know about his family background u act just like a cat hunting for a mouse...hehehe"

"who dont want richness.... dont be hypocrite.... u guys are also the worst.. knowing he walk along that night... "

"we know it him.... his disguise didnt covered much.... he s look is ok... but who wouldnt choose u, u are perfect"

"yea... and i ll be a perfect wife... i just stay at home and go shopping... dont have to work hard like now.."

the laughter echos inside...... Jae is stunned outside the door.... he walked back to his car.... did KHJ killed himself??? and .... his girl is not what she is.... he had been blinded .... he drove away.... to where  KHJ car crashed... did u kill urself.... is it because of me?...

his phone keep blinking, and he didnt pick it up... he is beyond shock..... what did i ve done.....??

he called his manager...

"say...  can u help me with something"

"yes, what is it Jae?"

"mmm can u go to my house and make that girl move out... "

"why?... didnt u love her?"

"not anymore... she is a monster..."

"mmmm it will cause a scandal if u do things like that..."

"manager.."

"yeah.. "

"can u arrange a meeting with my father... i need to discuss with him something about KHJ... "

"ok...., ill inform him"

i drove my car... and i dont know where i want to go... the world seemed so silent, cold and lonely..... how could ive done what i did.....