“ We already broke up and I told you I’m moving out of the flat.”

“ Sorry I can’t remember both times. Doc said my brain isn’t fully functional yet.” Myungsoo pointed at the bandage wrapped around his head, “ and besides you’re too heartless to leave a friend who just got into the accident. I went home and there’s no one there waiting for me.”

Sungjong say anything since what Myungsoo said was true.

“ and when I looked for you this morning all these girls keep swarming asking me out.”

“ are you complaining or are you boasting? Do you want me to break your free arm so you can be sent back to the hospital?” Sungjong smiled, ticked off.

“ You don’t now what I’ve been through will all those girls. I don’t know why they kept asking me for coffee but here look at my beautiful cheek! They fought and I got caught in it” Myungsoo showed a small red abrasion on his cheek, “ see that happens when you left me”

“ looks like an improvement to me”  

“ mean. so you’re just going to left out in the wild and with my condition I don’t know how long can I recover.”

“ fine-fine just tell me what you want and let’s get over it”

“ one week. Seven days is all I ask. Be with me”

“ what? You want us … to pretend again?”

“ Not necessarily, uhmmm how do I say this” Myungsoo said scratching his head, “ the doctor said my memory’s a bit jumbled and spending time with the people I usually do would speed up my recovery so I was thinking you know we could still live in the same house.”

“I…I’m sorry. I can’t. I can’t go back into your flat besides you already have Sungyeol hyung with you. I’m sure you’ll be fine in no time.” I can’t stay like this or I won’t be able to move on. The younger boy wanted to add

“oh… uhmm” Myungsoo clearly looked stumped. This had been the first time that he was refused like this by Sungjong.

“But it’s alright we can still hang out sometimes if you want” the latter compromised seeing the uneasiness in his friend’s expression. From the corner of his eyes Sungjong saw Sungyeol walking towards them.

“ will you please tell this guy to check his phone” Sungyeol greeted as soon as he walked in to Myungsoo and Sungjong’s conversation.

“ what is it hyung?” Myungsoo asked

“ you forgot your medicine. Doctor said you need to take one before lunch so I bought you your meds and some lunch.” Sungyeol said handing out a large take-out paper bag, “ Sungjong make sure he eats okay, I’m gonna leave for class now.”

“ bye hyung. Take care” Sungjong forced a soft smile as he waved goodbye he then turned to Myungsoo, “ looks like things are going well. I have to go to class now.”

“ wait Sungjong-ah, can you consider it. Please. Seven days that’s all I ask.” the older boy holds unto his friend but the latter gently brush him off.

“ I’ll think about it.

“ sure” Myungsoo said making a thrift smile.

“ bye”

“ see yah”

Myungsoo’s POV

I lied.

  Everything that happened that night. It’s all crystal clear to me.

I’ve always been so sure of what I feel and the person I think I want but

just that thinking that I won’t be able to see Sungjong again wanted me to grab unto him.

The voice I heard that day, I keep thinking wouldn’t it be nice if he were the one who said it?

This things inside my head had made it’s way to my chest

I don’t know anymore. Who I want to be with

For so long I’ve only looked at Sungyeol and thought that I will be happy if he’s with me

Is what I feel for him love? How do people even fall in love?

When I’m with Sungyeol all I wanted is to take him away from my brother but now I don’t know.

In him I thought I can be love that I’ll finally have someone who I can call my own.

But when I met Sungjong I slowly realize I don’t have to own someone just to feel that I’m important. That it’s okay to be weak and depend on your friends.

Sungjong was the first friend I ever made on my own.With him I experienced many “firsts” and for the first time today I wonder what would it be like to be more than friends with him.

“Friends… is that all he ever thought of me?” I mumbled to myself. Ever since I woke up it’s like he had drawn this line and neither one of us can cross.

is this all we can be

If it is, then I’m not willing to destroy it.

 End of POV

“ I thought I said that I’m going to think about it. What are you doing here and why is there a large duffel bag in my room ?” Sungjong asked that afternoon when he arrived at the dormitory and Myungsoo was happily chatting with the seniors.

“ Well I figured that while you’re still thinking I should move back in. After all it’s our room” the older boy said making an emphasis on the last two words, “ besides I’ve made you missed me all this time that I was in the hospital I don’t want you to miss me more”

There’s this sheepish grin on Myungsoo’s face while the seniors what heard them made teasing sounds.

“ you’re hopeless. Do whatever you want Woohyun hyung won’t let you in anyways”

“ oh he gave me the keys to our room and made me incharge of the dorm for two days since he’s sleeping out”

“ hyung went out? Where?” Sungjong asked suddenly concerned.

“ he said he has something to do that’s all. Why did something happened?” Myungsoo could see the worry in Sungjong’s face so he dropped the teasing attitude and approached the latter, “ is everything okay?”

“ I… don’t know. I’ll head back first” the younger boy shook his head and left. On his way to their room he tried to call Woohyun but to no avail.

“ Sungjong-ah, is everything okay?” Myungsoo said following behind him.

After a few calls and messages that there’s no answer Sungjong was worried. He went to check on Woohyun’s room and saw a bunch of emptied alcohol cans on the floor.  

“  What happened here?” Myungsoo asked seeing the room in complete chaos. When he kneeled down he saw blood in one of the broken glasses. When Sungjong saw them he looked horrified.

“ uhmm… he’s not answering his phone. This is not like him, is he at the hospital? When did he left the dormitory? How was he when he talked to you? Why is there blood in his room?”

“ hey-hey calm down. Don’t panic we’ll find him … tell me what’s going on” Myungsoo paused remembering the odd feeling when Woohyun was talking to him it dawned on him that there must be something wrong.

“ it’s hard to explain but I need to check up on him just in case.”

“I’ll come with you.” Myungsoo said grabbing his coat.

“ No. You need to stay here and rest.” Sungjong turned to stopped the latter.

“ look, I can’t just stand here and do nothing he’s my friend too”

“ hey guys, what’s going on?” Chanyeol asked seeing the two.

Then Baekhyun came from Woohyun’s room carrying a garbage bag, “ what happened to hyung’s room? Why are these liquor in his room? He’s gonna be in trouble we have to throw this out asap!”

“ guy’s right now I can’t explain but hyung needs our help. He’s not answering his phone… I need to go to the hospital maybe he’s there.”

Then one of Sungjong’s calls to the hospital came through. He was directed to the telephone on the room where the Woohyun’s childhood was staying.

“ he’s not there. They said hyung called that he’s coming but until now he didn’t showed up” Sungjong looked even more worried.

“ then we’ll look for him” Myungsoo said.

Chanyeol and Baekhyun looked at each other. There’s no way these two in front of them is going out when they looked physically weak at the moment.

“ look we’re going to look for him. Just tell us where and we’ll find him. There’s no way you two can go out when Myungsoo’s recovering and Sungjong you need to be with him”

“ I’m fine. I can look for Woohyun-hyung” Myungsoo insisted.

“look you two, if something were to happen again and one of you collapsed hyung is going to kill us. Just leave everything to Chanyeol and I to find him.” Baekhyun explained.

Some of their dorm mates overheard that they were looking for Woohyun and offered to help.

In the end Sungjong and Myungsoo were left in the dormitory as most volunteered to help look for Woohyun.

“ why does it have to rain now?” the younger mumbled hearing the low rumbling outside.

Myungsoo sat in silence as Sungjong paced to and fro in front of him. He don’t know what to do to help put the younger at ease. Then he looked at his phone.

A few moments and the older boy sprang on his feet and dialed a number.

“ Myungsoo. Why’d you call? Are you okay?” Sunggyu’s voice echoed from the other line.

“ hyung, can … I need your help?”

“ what happened are you okay? Is Sungjong’s with you?” Myungsoo’s older brother asked, worried.

“ We’re fine hyung, it’s just that we are looking for a friend of ours. He seemed to be facing some problem and he just left. We’re looking for him but I can’t do much with my situation.”

“ send me the photo, the name and place where he can possibly be. I’ll have our men and inform the patrolling cars to look out for your friend.. Don’t worry about it”

“ thank you hyung.” Myungsoo sounded relieved hearing his brother’s assurance.

“ what did Sunggyu said?”

“ he’ll have his men look for Woohyun-hyung. Do you have a photo of him?”

Sungjong nodded and immediately sent the photo and info to Sunggyu.

Half an hour later a car pulled off in front of the dormitory when the door opened Woohyun alighted with a bandage on his hand and his clothes all torn up.

Sungjong rush out to see the familiar red car.