“I am sorry, Yong-ah..” I heard him saying, I didn’t reply him instantly, instead I just gave him a cold shoulder. I didn’t know what to say either, it’s better if I just kept my mouth shut rather than talking nonsense to your own best friend.

“Yong-ah.. I didn’t know that you two are officially breaking up. I thought this time is just like the other break-ups that you two had previously.” I hummed softly inside the back of my mind, I could barely remember how often we said that we were breaking up but eventually we would get back together, but knowing that this time we were ending it, we were officially ending our relationship, I couldn’t say anything.

Not so long after that, I could hear a scuffing sounds on the floor, I slowly opened up my eyes that were closing for a meant time to prevent more tears coming to see him leaving me alone. Although, it’s just Youngbae, still I need to held up my pride. My ing pride as a leader of a cocky group, Bigbang. But no doubt, the feeling of losing her in our relationship kept taunting me all days and night. I cursed under my breath before hiding myself under my comforter back again.  

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I laughed from behind the table where some girls were looking at me. Whether it’s because of their curiosity or they were attracted to me. It’s not new for me to hang out in this kind of place, the place for some people to just have some fun or get wasted, I came here for get myself wasted. I sipped on my drink, it’s like my fifth cup of whiskey, I grimaced at the bitterness of it as it greets the way down my throat and took its place on my gastrin. I felt myself alive just by this, I told to myself before I joining the crowded with some crazy dances.

Without feeling afraid of something, I held a random girl’s hips who dance ily right in front of me, I threw her my infamous mischievous grin and continued to dance like any other could bother my nights. Everyone were chanting my name followed with a name that was new to me, it’s the name of the girl that I was dancing with perhaps.  I couldn’t help myself but feeling the back of my head in pain. The darkness slowly engulfed me and I passed out

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I woke up with a great headache and I couldn’t help but taking two pills of medicines to make myself sober. Even I hated to make myself sober, because whenever I am sober, I could see everything was clear around me, I learnt to know that I wasn’t lived in my past anymore. I hated it, but I have no other choices. I really need to make myself more presentable before I met my friends, the rest