I couldn’t help but smile instead. I finally made another comeback songs, it’s probably the last song that would be included in M album. The album that we made with all of our heart and efforts. The album that totally made me feel excited, since the first time I explained about the concept of this M album in our first meeting. This album was made to all of our fans, despite my intention to send some messages secretly through the songs. But haven’t I always been like that?

“Yah! Do you want me to break this call, huh?” She was on it again; did she just threat me again?

“What? Don’t you say that I am good at writing songs? This song was written especially for you, pabo.” I couldn’t help but smile wider when I finally admit it to her. Although it’s just through a phonecall.

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

Don’t ask me anything
I can’t give you an answer
We’re so happy as we are right now

Don’t try to have me
Let’s just stay like this
You’re making it more painful, why?

Goodbyes after our frequent meet-ups
Repetition of broken hearts
I can’t find a purpose in these foolish feelings
A mistake with the mask of love
All the feelings are the same now
But in this moment, I want you to stay

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

Don’t smile at me
If I get attached to you, I’ll get sad
I’m afraid that pretty smile will turn into tears

Don’t try to trap us
In the word, love
Because it’s a greed that can’t be filled

At first, it was half excitement, half worries
But in the end, it became an obligation, trial and error
Day by day, I get nervous, your innocence is too much pressure on me
But tonight, I want you to stay

Don’t expect too much from me
I don’t wanna lose you either
Before things get too deep, before you get hurt
 

Don’t trust me

You always call me
A selfish bastard

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

I heard her hissing on the other line, I was sure that she felt annoyed yet so happy. Since, it’s not like I can be like this every day. I am not the type who can speak about my feeling right away, but today I made another change. I know that might be I am still new to this kind of attitude or behavior, but I feel that it’s a right thing to do. I’ve learnt that being different is not going to make you lose your breath or something; instead you will find out which side of you that suits you the best. And now, I am still trying to find it out.
“Yes, I say that. But listen, do you really need to share our story to the public like this, oppa?”

A small chuckle slipped out of my mouth when she realized it. She knew it. A sweet song that I wrote, especially for her, for our stupid love story. Though, I am still in the state where I couldn’t call her officially mine. I still need to take sometime to think.

“No one will notice about the girl I was talking about, Eunji. Calm down, will you?” I ruffled my hair slightly before heaving a deep sigh. That was a wrap; the M album was finally completed. Bigbang finally made it, their biggest comeback after being together for nine years. I admitted to myself, that was a long journey for the five of us. Yet, having this album made me all happy and full.

None of our fans will notice about whom the song was talking about. But, I put some strong clue on the lyrics that I made, trying to signal those people outside that I have someone new. I wrote the thing that became the reason why I had butterflies for the first time, it’s her smile. Whenever I saw her smiling at me, I felt that there is a magnet that attracts me to come closer towards her. But yet again, I am afraid that I might hurt her. Everyone knows that I had a bad experience in the past, where I issued on using drugs or such. Eunji known as the fairies of South Korea, her innocents were spreading all over the place and I am not going to destroy any of it. It’s the beauty of her, that always becoming her icon. The innocent fairy that now has taken my heart. But I really wish that it won’t be too obvious, I wish none of people outside would notice those lyrics and started to speculate things. I wanted us to stay as what we are right now, I thought to myself.

“Still. You are indeed a selfish bastard.” She laughed right after saying it, her laughter filled up my ear and once again, my heart was too happy to know that it’s no longer empty. Yet, I put something that always she says every damn time, I asked he