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Editor's Note: Since I edit the chapters in my Docs and then transfer it to AFF, the lyrics aren't staying in the middle like it should. I don't know why, but it just won't work out. So, I am just going to leave it like that because when I tried to put it in center, all the other texts also got centered. Hopefully it's not an inconvenience and you would still enjoy reading this chapter. Thank you~

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Jaejoong was in the bathroom. He was washing his face. He looked at his reflection in the mirror, his eyes were swollen and red. 'Hwaiting Jaejoong! Never lose your hope. Always keep your faith. You can do it. You are the best!' Those short sentences that Yunho used to tell him whenever he was going to perform. But this performance was different. This performance will be in front of him. Oh how much he misses this. Missing to perform with the other. Even though that this performance is not with yunho. For Jaejoong, his presence was enough.
    He went back to the living room. Junsu and Yoochun came towards him and said few encouraging words to cheer him on. Jaejoong smiled at them. They knew that it was fake but they didn't say anything. For the past years, Jaejoong's smiles were the same. All of them were 'fake'.
    Jaejoong’s eyes went around the living room looking for Yunho. Unfortunately, he didn't find him.
    "Are you ready, Jaejoong-shi? We are all ready here," the director's voice came to pull him out of his thoughts.
    "Yeah," Jaejoong answered weakly.
    "Okay."
    Jaejoong got on the stage and held his mike. The music started and Jaejoong’s eyes were once again searching for Yunho. He saw him right there at the end of the living room leaning on the wall, looking at him.
    'His presence is enough.’ And with that, Jaejoong started singing :

        "I am standing on the edge of returning or just running away
            I am letting myself look the other way"

    Here I am, standing on the edge. I don't really know what to do...  Should I return? Or, should I just run away? All I can do right now is look the other way.

        "And the hardest part in all of this is I don't think I know my way back home”
 

Where is my home? Is it where I am right now? Or, is it the place that I left a long time ago. Should a home be just the building? I don't think so! Because, my real home is there, on your chest and between your arms.
    Unfortunately, I don't know my way back home! And this is the hardest part of all of this.

         "Is it worth the journey or do I let my heart settle here"

    This harsh journey to find my home can I take it?  Is it worth it? Or, should I just give up and settle my heart right here.
 

"How cold have I become?
    I didn't want to
    Lose you by what I'd done
    Caught in the grey”

 

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