3 Years Later

Sandara

I sat by my window as I stared into the lifeless soul which is called sky; it darkens quickly as it started to rain. I muttered to myself,” Bastard, that annoying bastard, he left me, all the ing promises that he promised were all gone.” I said that 5 years ago when I broke up with DongHae, 5 years later I am saying it because of Kwon Jiyong. I started tearing up as my eyes landed on the glass desk area, which held a photo of us, the one where we were kissing in his house, the day he got sick. His words twirled like ballerinas in my head as I remembered the day he gave me this photo,” There, now we are officially a couple.” My tears went harder as I punched the wall, mumbling,” You leave me 3 weeks after you said that, ing official, I hate you, I hate you so much, I hate you for leaving me that very day, I hate that I met you!” My words got louder as it blended with the lightning and thunder from the rain. I took our photo frame of our first kiss in the sea, and smashed it into pieces, on the floor, every glass shattered, like spider webs but the obvious crack was the one that separated us; it held a thick jagged line between our lips. I wailed louder into my own embrace as I grab my flower vase and slam it onto the ground, I wanted him to run into the room, telling me everything is okay, I want him to run here, hug me tightly, not letting me go, I want him to comfort me with chocolates, whispering to me how unique I was to him! But all I felt was the cold wind blowing into my skin. I am all alone now, he left me all alone, he promised that we will die old together, but what is this, he left me, just without a goodbye, how cruel can he be to me? I punched my fist against my wall as it started bleeding, but everything felt numb to me, I am use to doing this. I am crying, not for the pain on my fist, for the pain he left me with for the pain that he made me put on my shoulders. I twisted the ring that he gave me, the one that I liked the most, twisting it in different directions as it never left my finger for 3 ing years, neither did our couple ring. I uttered,” You left me alone, when my key can only fit into the hole of your heart, how selfish can you be? Who am I going to marry now that you are gone, you liar, you selfish jerk!” My words cut across my heart every day, my heart is breaking bit by bit, and it hurts seeing the person you love the most leaving you without a word, just like how he did. Every time I start to fall asleep, his eyes will linger in my head, making me stay awake all day.

Bom 

I opened the door to the knocking as I could see Dara harming herself again and again with open doors, TOP and I are on friend mode now, so he arrived first,  but our relationship is as stagnant as it is. I left the door open, knowing the rest will be coming soon, as soon as I said the words, they all appeared, CL and Seungri appeared with a young boy, as Minzy and Young Deuk appeared, arms locked in each other, but everyone’s smile dropped when we hear crashing and wailings of the older girl, Daesung came in himself to see our pain expressions. I tug at anyone who was sitting beside me, hiding behind his shoulders as my tears seeped out, I hear the deep voice console me,” Neh, it’s okay, we will get through this together.” The entire house was silent as even the child Seungri and CL brought in covered his little ears as he asked,” Why is Imo Dara like this?” Yes, Seungri and CL got married, Taeyang strut in the exact moment as he recently returned from the states.

Flashback

As CL got rolled into the ICU surgery, Seungri desperately held onto her hands muttering,” I love you, you must stay awake for me to confess, and I expect to hear your answer!” He got detached from her roughly by the nurse as he yelled while she was getting wheeled in,” Lee Chaerin, I love you, 6 years ago and 6 years later, please don’t leave me!” On the other hand, Dara was lifeless; she sat at the corner, as two of her favorite people got wheeled into the surgery room. It took hours over hours, some of them fell asleep, others chat along, knowing their friends are in good hands but Dara did not move at all, she sat there as tears rolled down her eyes, her mascara and eyeliner smudging as she kept uttering the same words,” I love you.” It was as though she was being possessed. All the action she did was to move the two rings around anxiously as she kept staring at her watch and back to the surgery room, in hope of the time when the doctor can come out. After 6 hours, the doctors came out, wheeling CL, and Jiyong, they all rushed towards him as he calmed them down and told them,” All is well.” That brought relief to everyone, including Dara, or should we add especially Dara, she broke down fully in tears as Bom hugged her tightly knowing how much the younger one is suffering. Jiyong and CL got admitted to the same room, which was easier for everyone. They all dashed towards room 124 the moment their rooms numbers are announce to see a sleeping CL and Jiyong. Seungri ran towards CL as he held her weak hands, kissing it numerous times as Dara slowly and reluctantly, took her seat beside Jiyong. All of them headed towards CL, to give Dara her own time with Jiyong. As Seungri planted the last kiss he was sealed up with CL, muttering with her eyes close,” Yah, rat, why must you wake me up?” Seungri jumped three feet in the air in happiness as CL’s eyes softened, the crew headed out of the room, except Seungri and Dara. Dara played with Jiyong’s hands as tears kept splattering onto his bed. CL questioned, softly,” What you said, is it true?” Seungri racked his brain and asked,” What did I say?” CL smiled and carefully touched his head,” Before I entered surgery, is it true?” Seungri nodded and smiled as he leaned towards her, his breath fanning her lips,” What about you, what is your reply?” She smiled and slowly said,” I came back alive just for this.” With that she planted a kiss onto Seungri’s unexpected lips as his g