Sandara

I looked away, Bom sighed silently and lifted my eyes to meet hers, as she took a deep breath and started off,” Don’t interrupt me.”

Bom continued,” I will tell you what happen, remember when we were younger?” She made no attempt to stop to hear our answers,” Top and I were like best of friends; it must be so unfortunate, I fell for him. It was during middle school, you know how much of a play boy he was. I did not want to ruin our friendship, I see all my friends being hurt from love that I want to deny that I love him.” Bom stopped for a while and leaned towards my bed frame, looking at the empty wall in front of her. She chuckled sadly,” Do you know, when I was with my other friends except of you girls and guys, they actually could tell that I loved him, that it scared me because I thought… all of you could.” We were all in silent shock, that all the pain she felt alone. “I don’t know if he could tell but every girl that the brought is always introduced to me. It was when one day came, the day that I decided, it is a do or die situation, my parents were deciding on leaving for the UK states and they wanted to bring me along. I have not told you guys but the adults knew about it. My parents wanted to settle everything before letting me break the situation to you girls. I mustered up the courage, went to his house when we finally reached the second year of high school.”

Flashback

“Bom it is a 99% chance that we will be leaving for the UK already, sweetheart.” I preached their words,”99% chance?” In uncertainty, I looked at them, waiting for the teasing smiles, the ones when they joke with me, to appear on my parents’ faces, but none were seen. “Umma, Appa please excuse me, I think I need time alone while you… settle our flight arrangements.” I silently decided to walk the long route to TOP’s house, it was a hesitant choice, my footsteps kept turning the opposite direction to go home but I decided against the decision and headed for TOP’s house. It was a 45 minute walk, a walk that allow me to find my courage and get everything ready in my mind, and done and over with. I stood at his door step as I left my fist on his door without knocking, I retreated it and walked away from the door step but returned to it again as I scolded myself,” Be strong, Bom, this is your last chance.” I rapped my knuckles against the big black door, I saw the golden handle press down from outside, meaning the person inside has opened it, I pushed it open to be met with Appa Choi, I greeted him as he looked at me and smiled sadly,” I heard about you leaving, Bom.” I nodded and looked down as I asked softly,” May I see TOP please?” Appa Choi reluctantly nodded before warning me kindly,” I have to tell you though; he has a guest over, but just go along, alright?” I nodded; it is most probably his group of friends apart from Big Bang. I silently went up and opened the door leading to my fear; it is funny how the fear is so strong that it kills me over and over again. I looked in, boy was I wrong, and TOP was feeling the female he had currently on his bed as they giggled over stupid things. I cleared my throat as I walked in, TOP looked at me, allow me to correct myself, glared at me, I asked, timidly,” Can we talk?” TOP nodded and told me to sit down, I refused and stood up, I waited for the lady to leave but she did not so I just went along with my confession,” TOP, I don’t know how to put this into words but, I guess I have to make do with this. I like you.” He did not hesitate for a moment as the lady in his arm, froze for a moment, he gestured towards her,” How can you say that in front of my girlfriend, how disrespectful can you be?” I looked down at the floor and felt something cold dripping down, the lady had took the water by the bedside and splashed it at me directly. I glanced away, no use telling him I am leaving the UK anymore. I bowed down and apologized,” Mianhae. It is okay, since I will feel better after confessing.” I turned towards the door to hear a cold voice, leaving a shudder down my spine,” I don’t think we will be fine after this.”I answered back without looking,” Then let's not.” I mustered the coldest voice I could have,” Let’s leave it at that.” I looked up to meet his stupid guy friends’ eyes as their smirks were wide, they all yelled aloud,” Pay up, pay up. TOP just rejected Park ing Bom, how dare you even confess, Miss Park?” They made a bet about this? I closed the door after me and leaned against it, I let the tears slip out as I hear the commotion inside, one of his friends asked cheekily,” Can I have her then?” TOP was not being the usual protective self like when he was younger,” her for all you want, tell me how good she is, I don’t want to her.” I closed my eyes and let my hand curl into a fist. I walked my way down the stairs to meet with Umma Choi’s eyes, she looked at my wet state and asked,” Omo! Bom, what happened?” I gave her a slight smile and answered,” I went to the toilet, me being clumsy, the shower head by accident. You should change the button of the shower head to not be so near to the flush~” She giggled at my statement and hugged me tightly,” I’m going to miss you, little Park.” I nodded and felt her war