Jiyeon’s POV

Why must this happen? I feel so comfortable with baekhyun around, but the fact that he knows chanyeol, and even very close with chanyeol hurts me a lot. I wanna accept baekhyun into my life, because he seems so sincere, but my heart says no. I don’t know why I am being so fool, but the love affection towards chanyeol, is still here in my heart. I have to admit that I still love chanyeol. He is the first person who lit my life. He is the first person who showed me there’s still happiness in my life.

Although he was the one who had hurt me, the huge affection I had toward him before is still remain lively in my heart. I tried to forget him and replace him with baekhyun, but it’s hurt. It’s really hurt because I don’t have that strength, all I have is a very fragile heart. A heart that keep all the memories, all bitter all sweet.

I look at myself in front of the mirror. Now, every day I will get swollen eyes because of crying. I can’t get into the room and meet them with this kind of face. Plus, I don’t think I can meet chanyeol, yet. This is still not the right time. I think I will just go back home. I’ll text baekhyun later. Just now, when baekhyun was holding my hand, I could feel his hand was trembling. I know he saw my teary eyes. I know he will try to comfort me later. But I think I have to avoid both baekhyun and chanyeol for a period of time until my feeling is under control.

After I wash my face for the last time, I take a deep breath before walk out of the washroom straight to the main entrance. Right after I arrived outside, I thought I can breathe easily but suddenly I feel a grip on my hand. When I look back, there I saw chanyeol is looking at me with his big round eyes while holding my hand.

“Let go of my hand now, chanyeol.” I said strictly.

“No, until you hear what I wanna tell you.” He said with a very serious face.

“Why should I? When I begged you to hear me two years ago, did you? No right? You walked away just like that leaving me begging alone at the street. You even left me without any clear explanation and you don’t know what I’ve been through all this time! And now you came back when I was just about to have the happiness I longed for, and you crushed them all into pieces.” I said and I can feel tears are flowing down my cheeks again.

“But I still love you. You are the first girl I accept into my heart and the first girl that I’m willing to do anything to protect you. You still love me right?” Chanyeol said while pulling me closer to him.

“That’s the problem. Because I still love you, I can’t get the happiness I want.” I said coldly while wiping my tears.

“I will give you the happiness jiyeon, like I did years ago. I came back just to be with you again.” Chanyeol said and he pulled me into his arms.

“It’s not that easy chanyeol. You will not understand what is inside my heart right now.” I pushed him away from me.

I can see chanyeol’s eyes are teary. I trust you chanyeol. I saw the sincerity in your eyes. I know you still love me and you want to be with me again. I know, your heart is always sincere. That’s why I accept you back then. Because I know you’ll cure the loneliness I had in my life back then. But you will not understand what I feel right now, because it’s not only you in my heart. There’s someone else that has succeed getting into my heart. Baekhyun gave me the feeling of being loved and cared when you’re gone. Baekhyun had grew his love in my heart.

In my eyes now, I saw two person, which are baekhyun and chanyeol. I really can’t think straight because of them right now. I wish I can choose only one and ends this quickly, but I just can’t. Both give me the love I need, but who is the real remedy to all the pain in my life. I wait at the road side to fetch a taxi so I can go home quickly. Everything seems so blur and makes my head hurt. I’ve been thinking too much, I really need rest right now.

Baekhyun’s POV

I can’t stop thinking about jiyeon. She’s crying? I look at my watch a few times. It has been almost 30 minutes jiyeon went