okay.... voting is now officially over.... and..... DBSK won... (sigh..)

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Didi,

I will resign. I should resign. If I don't, more troubles will come. I am so sure about it. I guess I should just stay at home or work somewhere else. Now, I want to work to save up for college.

Didi, you know what? It hurts. I am hurting right now. I know my brother don't like me. He hates me but I cannot just run away. Jaejoong is all I have. I’m sad because he keeps on ignoring me, treating me as a ghoul. I’m not giving up! Heard me? I will still try everything to win his heart.

I envy Yoona. I hate to say this but I really, really envy her. She and Jaejoong Oppa are so close. They could be mistaken as siblings... Some even say that Jaejoong Oppa is the brother Yoona never had.

I’m a tough girl right Didi? Well… not as tough as Saki but I know I can make it through. I can stand any humiliation or anything. Saki and I were living on humiliation all our lives, calling us bastards and unwanted. I guess were used to it now. It’s funny how a cell phone can be a tool for humiliation. Yes, I lived in Japan-the land of gadgets and gizmos but I have to harvest a thousand baskets of strawberries first before I could buy a new phone. Who cares about phones and gadgets? I can live without them. I can live without such luxuries. There is only one thing that I want now – my brother’s acceptance. I pray that he will soon open his heart for me. I would be the happiest girl on earth then.

Didi, Have I told you about Yoochun Oppa? He’s a DBSK member, the one with a gorgeous smile. He sure makes me blush every time he shows one. I feel so safe and comfortable with him. He was the one who help me get away from the SNSD practice room a while ago. He’s my guardian angel. He always makes me smile.

Yunho Oppa on the other hand is also protective and caring. I can’t believe he could beat a pint of ice cream all by himself. He’s such a wonderful leader.

Then Junsu Oppa and Minnie Oppa, my diligent students :P Junsu Oppa would always boast every time he learns a new English phrase and Changminnie Oppa would always roll his eyes. I will surely miss them. Working with those two was a great experience. Wait- why am I saying goodbye? I would definitely see them very often.

Now Didi, I have to show everyone that I am strong. I can’t rely on other people every time.

Fighting!

MIMI T_T