Why do I?

Will you ever love me?
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KAI'S POV.

I walked down the hallways of the hospital. 

-flashback-
I left kiyoung. I had too go and find HaeJin. I walked towards my car and drove away. 
Why didn't I do anything? 
Why does guilt take over me? 
Why do I care about her?
Why is it all so familiar?!
I yelled in frustration. 
The images of her fragile body in LuHan's arms, enraged me. Yes I admit it, I felt jealous. I felt angry. And most of all I felt guilty. 

I soon arrived in front of Seoul's hospital. It was the closets too our school. I hopped out and walked too the reception. 
"Hi how may I help you?" 
The receptionist asked.
"ah do you know which room Kim HaeJin is in?" 
It felt weird saying 'Kim' but it felt right. 
"Sorry sir there is no Kim HaeJin here" 
She kept her eyes on the computer screen. 
"How about Shin HaeJin?" 
"Oh yes... Um... In room 326 sir" 
I bowed and began walking to the room. 
She didn't use 'Kim'. I felt hurt. She is my wife. She didn't use my name. 
-end flashback-

The white walls, clear and bright due too the lights. People rushing about, patients walking around. The hospital scared me, it's where people lose their loved ones. I didn't want that too happen. I didn't want too lose her. My mind says too ignore, hate her. But my heart wants too let her in, love her, care for her. I was so confused. Why does this all feel so familiar. 

I reached the room 326
The name plate with her name
신해진
Why wasn't it 'Kim'.
I looked through the same glass window on the door too see her awake. She made it, I didn't lose her. I felt happy. But that happiness stopped when I saw LuHan pulling her in for a hug. 
"I like you HaeJin" 
Everything seemed to freeze. Did hyung just confess too my wife? Jealousy rose in me. My anger was starting to take over. I zoned out. I didn't want to listen to what she had too say. But my heart wouldn't let me. 
"It is, only if I wasn't married too kai, I wouldn't have become so weak"
Is that how she felt being married too me. Weak. I scoffed. It was perfectly clear too me. She liked hyung. I removed my hand from the door knob and smirked. 
"Your not gonna leave. Ever" I don't know why but I the feeling of possessiveness overcame me. I had too keep her. No one was allowed to have her except me.
I walked down the hallway once more. 
HaeJin will never leave me. She will never be with hyung. 
The smirk never once left my face. I felt hunger in my desire. I felt jitty. This is going too be fun. 

 

HaeJin's POV.

After an endless discussion and convincing, I finally got luhan too go home and sleep. As I talked too him, his eyes began too close and I felt bad. He didn't want to leave but I finally convinced him too. 

I sighed as I stared out the dark window. I could only see a few lights shining from the close by buildings. It was boring staying at the hospital. I had nothing too do, so I just decided too sleep. Tomorrow I would be leaving. I smiled, but that smile was quickly removed by a frown. Going home meant I had too face Kai. I remembered how his face remained emotionless as I was being pushed around by our classmates, the harshness of the comments. I was wishing he would come to my rescue, or at least remember something, but he didn't. He stood there, emotionless, no pain.

I tossed around on the bed too look over the dark glimmering window. 
Would he ever remember me...I silently whispered as my eyes became heavy, drifting off to slumber land. 
___________________

"HaeJin"
"Kai" 
"Why did you leave me?"
I stood there in feeling the warm spring breeze making contact with my pale skin. I was confused, tired. I fell down on the cold hard floor, tears uncontrollably falling down. 
"I didn't leave you, you left me"
I felt a presence hover over me, I looked up too see Kai, slowly bending down too eye level with me. His face washed with seriousness.
He placed two hands on my shoulders. 
"I'm still here, just find me"
He began shaking me. He was disappearing from me. His figure slowly becoming crisp. 
"HaeJin! HaeJin"
"Kai!" 
My eyes were wide open. I saw nothing but shocked faces. To be exact EXO's shocked faces.
"Ah noona are you okay?" 
I swear that was real. I looked all around the room, darting my eyes left to right, corner by corner. Was it just a dream?
"Noona?" 
I jerked my head towards Sehun. He stood there awkwardly. 
"oh I'm fine Sehun"
If only I was telling the truth. 
"Okay noona" Sehun smiled brightly. 
"HaeJin how are you feeling? We were going too come yesterday but this one there..." He pointed towards LuHan, who stood there with a straight face. 
"wouldn't let us" Baekhyun finished his sentence.
"I'm feeling much better, thank oppa" 
I lied. What happened that day still left a wound in my heart. 
"That's good. How about oppa goes and buy some ice cream?" I instantly nodded my head. Ice cream always made me feel better, no matter what situation it just did.
"Okay oppa will be back"
Baekhyun walked out the room closing the door behind him. 
"HaeJin-ah!" I was suddenly engulfed into a bear hug. 
"Yah! Tao! She just woke up!" Luhan yelled. 
"I'm sorry but I was soooo worried!" I couldn't help but smile. 
"It's okay Tao, I'm here" I smiled brightly. 
"Okay, since you got you hug move so I can get mine" chanyeol stated. 
Tao removed his arms around me and walked back. 
Chanyeol was now hugging me. 
"Ahhh I miss my little girl" 
He ruffled my hair. 
I couldn't help but laugh. 
One by one the EXO members gave me a hug. 
"Are you ready too leave?" Kris asked. 
I nodded my head instantly. I didn't want too stay any longer. 
"Oh finally, I can't stand hospitals" Chen yelped. 
Lay hit the back of Chen head as he gave him a glare. 
"Don't say that" everyone erupted in laughter as Chen just pouted. 
"Hey guys I'm back! Jinnie your ice cream" baekhyun yelled. 
"Thank you oppa" I began eating my ice cream as we all were engulfed in a story suho was telling. 
"And bam... I didn't find my money but I found the most amazing bubble tea shop"
We all laughed at his lame story. 
"Yah why are you guys laughing?" 
"Bubble tea really Suho" Xiumin tried too sustain his laughter as he said that. 
"Well, sehun likes the story right?"
"Ah yea hyung" he chuckled a little. 
"You know guys whatever" suho hugged an fell back into his seat. 
"I think we should leave now, I'm sooo hungry!" Tao rubbed his stomach. 
"Same here!" Kris yelled. 
"Can we have some chicken tonight?"
"I thought chicken was not you 'style'" Chen quoted. Everyone cracked up laughing. 
Kris'a face went all red and he hit the back of Chen's head. 
"It's my style now"
"That's the second time! HaeJin! Tell then too stop!" I giggled at there adorableness, these guys were supposed to be a bunch if mature guys but they were a bunch of kids and that's what I liked about them. 
"I'm sorry Chen Chen but you deserved that" 
"Yah!" Chen laughed. 
"How about we all go home, so out little HaeJin can rest well" Kyungsoo smiled. 
"Okay" they all chimed together. 
"Bye oppas" 
One by one they gave me a hug and left. Except for luHan.
"Come one slow bunny, we got too get you home" 
"hey I'm not slow, I just take my time" I huf

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-2Mirae-
14 streak #1
Chapter 44: I feel sorry for luhan. But at least he have his own sequel xD
jessicabyun #2
Chapter 44: Great story..
Sehunsss #3
Chapter 44: Great story authornim !!
eermaa #4
A real good piece!!! I like this!!
oppasaranghae123
#5
Chapter 42: I dont think kAi really deserve her at all i wish she was with luhan.... T-T
moonli
#6
Chapter 43: Oooowhhhhh author nim! ! Why u do this too mmmeee! ?? ! T^T omg *exited* *feels* *tears*
carmenm_012 #7
Chapter 42: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love this fic so much!!!!! I couldn't believe it is over!!! T.T
nabi_88
#8
Chapter 41: Awww...so good...hope you make an epilogue..kekeke....
upvoted!!!!
moonli
#9
Chapter 42: OMG it didnt finish yet!!!! *O* youuhoooo !!! luv ya author nim ! ! you're the best ! and your other story is as amzing as this !!! you're always working hard ! *O* FIGHTING !
ryeong_kyungsoo
#10
Chapter 42: i hope you can do fanfic with luhan as the main character!!!