“So I guess there is no use of this arranged marriage if our relationship means nothing to you.” I finally started crying in front of Daehyun, but swiftly wiping them away.

“Yeah, ummmm, I guess.” Daehyun replied after walking out the door with his pillow and blanket.

The phrases struck me like lightning, painful and fast.

*Nothing or something? I guess nothing now.*

I couldn’t stop the tears, they ran on and on like a faucet.

I couldn’t, I just couldn’t stop thinking about it, no matter how hard I wanted to forget.

After Daehyun walked out of the room, Kai came in.

“Oh my god, Jieun are you okay?” Kai asked me.

“Yeah I’m fine…” I looked in the other direction wiping away my tears away, hiding it. I felt like a burden to Kai, because he always took care of me, but I didn’t do a lot for him.

“Jieun, I know that you’ve been feeling depressed all throughout this day, just tell me what’s wrong.” Kai insisted.

*Kai, I can’t tell you. I can’t even tell myself.* I looked down, not answering his question.

Kai walked over to me and softly hugged me, with his warm and muscular arms.

“It’s okay, everything will be ok.” Kai softly my head, calming my overwhelmed nerves down.

Kai always acted like an oppa even though he’s younger than me. I never minded, he’s so caring and great to be around, like an oppa would be. I guess you could say that Kai was husband material.

Kai helped me lay down and I fell asleep in his warm arms.

The first thing I thought of in the morning was what Daehyun said. What we had was unfortunately nothing.

Nothing, nothing, nothing. Not even a little bit. Just nothing.

I slept in the room, but Daehyun slept on the couch, trying to avoid as much awkwardness as possible.

I feel so dead.

I thought about it some more, who has always been the beginning?

KAI!!! FREAKING KIM JONGIN!!!!! ♥

Kai…

My heart started to regain its strength to love.

Kai, who has been comforting me since I was little, who was my guardian angel, and the guy who took me to the hospital, when I out.

Kai… Kim Jongin. Kim Jieun?

A small sensation sparked into my dimmed heart, and I felt something.

I turned over in the bed and I saw him.

Kai, peacefully sleeping.

“BOO!!!”

“AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!” I screamed when Kai was fake sleeping and scared me to freaking death!!!!!

“Ya!!! Wae?” I pouted.

“Hehehe, Noona! Sorry.” Kai smiled.

“Is Noona mad?” Kai asked me.

“Hmmpfff.” I turned away. *Hehe, just messing with chu!*

“Jieun-ah!!! Sorry!” Kai tapped at my shoulder.

I started to “stand” up, if you call teetering on one foot, standing.

“Noona. Don’t go.” Kai touched my hand, and gave me a back hug.

*Omo.*

I was blushing so much, I laid back down in the bed and covered my face with the blanket.

“Araso, I’ll leave you alone.” Kai “walked” out of the room, making fake stepping noises.

“Kai, I know your still here.” I stated.

“Araso, bye.” Kai ACTUALLY walked out of the room.

*So, umm, Kai. Maybe Daehyun and I weren’t meant to be.*

I walked out of the room.

And saw Daehyun leave the house.

Hyosung, again. And I’m the only person who knows about this.

Just seeing Daehyun leave with a smile made me cringe.

*Oh , now I’m back in that depressed mood.*

A few things I still didn’t understand. Why is he sneaking off, still? Why hasn’t he told anybody else? Why has he been lying to everybody?

I hate Daehyun.

I got overwhelmed again by past feelings.

A small tear tried to wiggle out of my eyes and penetrate my soft and pale cheeks.

I couldn’t help but think, what would my life be like if I had never met Daehyun? That one day we bumped into each other. I didn’t want to be in this stupid arranged marriage contract in the first place! UHHH!!!!!

If Daehyun and I never met each other, even once what would I be doing now?

Dating Kai? Living the life of a single princess? Hang out with my friends? Training to become the heir of the throne? Shopping at the market? Getting married? What?

My memories with Daehyun shot into my heart like an arrow.

“Hey, Jieun. Are you ok?” Suzy asked me as she was walking around the house, trying to hide the fact that Jongup and her were passionately holding hands.

I want to have that now, but all I have is a bucketful of washed up and faded memories.

My life is like hell now.

“Yeah, I’m fine.” I plastered a fake smile on and sat down on the couch.

I felt like dying at that moment.

*Who would care if I died? Certainly not Daehyun.*

Like freaking 5 seconds later Jiyeon came out all depressed too.

“Love troubles.” I asked her.

She nodded.

*Me too. But I can’t tell you about that.*

“Himchan?” I questioned her.

She nodded again.

“I really like Himchan, more than ever now. I think the last thing he ever said to me was, “You move a lot when you sleep. Get your legs off me, they’re cutting off my circulation.” Jiyeon pouted.

*Daehyun and I rarely talk now, too. I feel the same way Jiyeon.*

*I’ll make her love succeed, where mine failed. I’m going to help her out an extra mile.*

“OHH!!!! WE SHOULD HAVE LIKE A QUADRUPPLE DATE!!! Suzy and Jongup, you and Kai or Daehyun, Eunji and Jiwon, and we could try and put me and Himchan together…” Jiyeon stated full of hope.

*Daehyun, pshhh yeah right, he might as well just not go or take that Hyosung girl.*

“Okay, sure.” I smiled, making Jiyeon super happy.

“Thank you!!! Saranghae.” Jiyeon threw her arms up into a heart over her head before skipping off into her room, happily.

Happiness, something I haven’t felt in a while.

I rested my head in my right hand, and started venting out, again. Can’t I just shut this vent off?

“YAH!!! Baby, Don’t Cry.” Kai shuffled over to me and held my hand.

“I won’t.” I assured Kai, it in.

“Yeah, ok.” Kai watched me with an observing eye, before running off to talk to the rest of the guys.

I guess I’ll go back into the room.

UHHH!!!!! What is Daehyun doing to me?

I need to release all of my negative emotions.

I know!!! A venting letter.

My mom says, “When in depression, write out what you feel, to help you let it go.”

I started by getting out a piece of paper and then my ink and brush set. I can write whatever I want, this isn’t intended for him to see.

After that venting letter I felt better, but cried again when I read over my words again, and again.

100% truth that will never be known.

I was getting all emotional again. Dammit I was supposed to be strong about obstacles in my life.

But if this ever happened to you, you would be in constant depression.

Slowly thinking I looked in my closet.

Still sitting there, a scar from the past.

The hanbok, Daehyun ruined when we first met.

It was still smudged with dirt.

I past hit me like a bullet.

Emotion, emotions, and more emotions, blah, blah, blah.

I heard the opening door.

*Oh, the jackass walked in.*

All red-eyed from the crying I marched out of the room and approached Daehyun.

He was smiling. Jackass.

I looked at him, and he looked at me.

I slapped him so hard you could hear the sound.

“This is now a piece of worthless to me, give it to Hyosung.” I snapped before walking into Jiyeon’s room.

(Daehyun)

I never wanted to hurt anybody, but I bet that’s what they all say.

My date with Hyosung was great, we sat under the big cherry blossom tree, and ate some cheesecake, yum!!!!

Then when I came home the date flooded my mind, and I couldn’t help but smiled as I walked in.

Jieun stormed in and slapped me!!

*What the hell!!*

Jieun threw something at me before walking off.

She’s still pissed and I’m still paying the price.

I saw the thing she threw at me on the floor.

It was the diamond necklace I gave her as a gift.

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