More than five years have passed, still the same thought an through my mind. Was it the right thing to do? Did I make the right choice? What happened after that? What is happening now? What will happen in the future? Or all this time, after all the things that have happened I was just convincing myself, that things were better off this way? 

I do not know where to go from here. My heart grew tired and weary, I want to escape. From all these torment and suffering, I want to say goodbye. To all of these sorrows and pains, I want to fly away. To a place where my heart would be free, I want to end it all now.

To the people I loved and to the people who hated me. It was not your fault. It was no one else’s. It was my choice. It was my decision. No blame should be put on anyone.

To Yunho hyung, Jaejoong hyung, Yoochun hyung and Junsu hyung, whom I shared almost half of my life with, whom I shared precious laughter and tears, whom I shared dear happiness and sorrow, whom I shared treasured joys and pains, whom I cherished the most in this world, I am sorry for going like this.

Saranghamnida.

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