Kibum`s POV

I didn`t see it first, we were just talking happily as we came out of that big building. We were happy in that one moment. Just a moment I didn`t feel the endless pain that laid behind us, under our own feet. They looked bloody once again.

It all happened so fast, so fast I couldn`t react to your surprised yelp, your sudden hard touch. It felt almost painful, if I didn`t know the reason. I didn`t see the bright lights coming in our direction. I saw them reflected in your eyes, I mistook them for shining stars. Heaven was clear after all. As if everyone wanted to see our downfall. As if all those stars were watching eyes instead. And the biggest one was that one person I dared to see again.

I almost cried out as you pushed me hard. So hard as if your life depended on it. What are you doing? I wanted to ask. I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. But before I could even move one single muscle I felt the cold ground beneath my body. It felt harder than it normally did. Was it because love pushed me away?

I looked up to you, you smiled so softly. As if you would say goodbye silently. I didn`t understand, why are you like this? Why are these lights getting brighter and brighter with every passing second?

I wanted to stand up, I saw one tear falling. The lights now engulfing your whole body. No this can`t be happening, this can`t be happening. Not again. I can`t lose you again.

I cried out so desperately, screaming your name, screaming louder and louder. I screamed so loud, so why did the driver not hear my pain, why didn`t he hear my sorrow as he crashed into your once strong body? The body that’s now laying on the cold hard ground right next to me.

I cried so much, I couldn`t see you properly. I was crawling on the floor, trying to reach you desperately. Why couldn`t I reach you faster? You were so far away all of a sudden. I felt almost too weak to reach you.

I called your name again and again. Why are you not looking at me? Why are your eyes so cold? Why were you laying in a sea of blood-red rose petals? Are they all coming from you? Why? I don`t want to have them. Don`t give them to me. Give me your smile instead, it looks so beautiful on your lips. Give me your kiss instead, I will cherish it forever. Don`t give me those bloody hands when holding you tightly in my arms.