A/N: Please read the chapter before this one if you haven`t already.

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Jonghyun`s POV

Walking alone in the dark night, there were so many things missing. Raindrops were pouring down on me, it almost felt like someone is crying, it almost felt like you were crying, crying down on me. I didn`t know much. I only remembered waking up one day. There were so many new things surrounding me, so many unknown things. So many things, but you weren`t anywhere to find.

So instead of tossing myself in my own pain like I once did so many times before, I got up on my feet. I want to find you, this time I will find you. I told myself every day. Like I promised that painful day. My lips still felt your cold skin under mine. It made me shudder. That feeling still lingered in my shivering bones. My eyes still could picture your stoned expression, could still see you motionless in that heavy coffin surrounded by beautiful flowers. They smelt like you, they smelt like that day.

That day I held you in my arms, you flawless skin green grass and white flowers, they almost seemed blue as the moon sung them to sleep.

God, I missed him so much, so much. So much it made my feet walk faster and my eyes searching more close. Dark alleys, bright illuminated streets, coffee scented cafés, old looking libraries, everywhere. I searched everywhere in hope of seeing at least one single part of your beautiful face. But eve